The Disintegration of the Persistance of Memory

[harraser]

I relied on you, father figure
For pain and fear and so called "love"
You didnt let me down.
Convince me Im weak and worthless
Beat me when I fail
My burning desire for revenge
Kept me alive.
And it all fades away.
I relied on you, my "freinds"
For humiliation and torment
You didnt let me down.
Every day, picking at me
Filling my nights with wishes to drown in my tears.
My hatred and anger
Kept me alive.
And it all fades away.
Time changes a person,
For good or bad depends
On circumstance
And the desire to survive.
But one day
The past must fade away.
Ive come to rely on no one but myself
For strength, support and the knowledge that I'm right.
I'll never let me down.
The beautiful people in my life
Fill my days with light
And my will to go on
Will keep me alive.
I let it all go
Hatred
Anger
Fear
Needless and debilitating
I dump these straws from this camels back
And step towards tomorow and freedom
Laughing as i feel the memories fade
To the positions of unimportance they deserve.
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Thank you to all the people who inspired this poem. To the people who made my past hell, you helped make me the person I am today. To all the amazing people in my life right now, including everyone who posts, replys or lurks in this forum, you are all helping ot make me the person I'll be tomorow. And to Salvador Dali for the briliant title

I wish love and light for each and every one of you *hugs*
love ant

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

oh sweetie...you know there is so much more lurking behind this response than the actual words...this is just what i want to hear from you right now....thank you for being there through this dark period and seeing it all come out in the end...

I let it all go
Hatred
Anger
Fear
Needless and debilitating
I dump these straws from this camels back
And step towards tomorow and freedom
Laughing as i feel the memories fade
To the positions of unimportance they deserve.
um....yes...exactly....you are in my head..

 

[plazma]

Spectacular work, in a very painful way.
I like it, and yet I hate it. I love the work, yet reject the sentiment that caused it. On one hand I wish you hadn't gone through the pain necessary to write this, but then I wouldn't be reading it right now and feeling honoured to have done so.
-plaz out-

 

[cherub]

Amazing to begin with,,,, I relate to the paaat of bad things but yet it makes you who you are ,, no matter how good or bad and that makes you for who you are now,, and that is a wonderful person
that any getting to know you would know you are a gift

 

[Istigeit]

wow.that really struck a nerve for me. it could almost be lyrics to a song. fantastic work my friend.