Nixiam
Bluelighter
Matterbation? It's evolved.
I periodically go through times where I don't masturbate or have sex. Or, if I do, I avoid ejaculation. After about 2 weeks, I find my mind is sharper, more focused, more analytical- but I feel more aggressive, more dismissive, less inclined to empathy and really fucking insanely horny. I start to experience pain/aching in my 'bits' and every woman becomes a goddess whose feet and breasts and face and ass and everything I want to gently kiss, lick, smell, manipulate, worship and than fucking bang the shit out of. I find myself developing instanteous crushes on everybody, falling in love with all women I encounter.
Its great though, after a 2 week period of celibacy I basically impregnate Miss Willow, the bed, the roof, the sun. Insanely explosive orgasm. :D Something magickal in it. And than the whips and barbed wire! Oh god yes.
Okay, the last bit was fucked.
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I remember the year I was using MXE+benzos I could write forever and just wouldn't shut up. So much mental energy to spend. Now I only have amino acids as stimulants. They're gentle but they work.