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Man, so levelsBeyond got an office job. All those psyconautics really paid off. I've tried the last five years to make a living independently by being self-employed and doing odd jobs and investments trying to do things I was passionate about but haven't been able to swing it. Last year or so I kinda slacked off and it caught up with me. Oh well, now I got to commute, make water cooler talk and work for the man instead of all the fun esoteric stuff that used to fill my brain. To be honest it ain't too bad but whatever, subject matter is kinda dry and its just work, nothing I'm too passionate about. Realize how lucky I was before but didn't have the personal drive to make it work. Trying to stay positive despite feeling a bit stifled but it's kinda my fault for slacking off and doing drugs and stuff. I've replaced dissociatives with coffee and sugar for the most part. They're flying me to Italy third week on the job so that's kinda lucky, I get travel a bit. Doubt that'll be a regular thing but that should be fun. Suppose I'll be spending less time on Bluelight now. Not gonna log in at work and stuff. This place is kinda addictive, like they put crack cocaine in the HTML or some shit.
 
glad to hear you have found stable employment lb. i'm in an astutely precarious position; too weak to do vigorous physical tasks while also lacking the mental acuity and sociability to be of much use in an office environment. not many jobs for the docile, mindless, mute, who is void of energy, motivation, and sporting disheveled appearance.

anyway:

physical determinism + volition - contingent on unconscious needs and desires. convinced if there is a god he's not intervening on the earthly plane - or i suppose, he might have just forgotten about me. doubtful.

random gibberish - benzo withdrawal syndrome exacerbated by malnutrition, lack of sun, human interaction, and various other maladies..
 
Thanks and I feel ya sigmond. If you ever do figure out the origin of pride, humiliation and awkwardness please let me know. I too have been living with these bedfellows. I'm rooting for ya. Offer it all up for correction and turn this shit around.
 
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Man, so levelsBeyond got an office job. All those psyconautics really paid off. I've tried the last five years to make a living independently by being self-employed and doing odd jobs and investments trying to do things I was passionate about but haven't been able to swing it. Last year or so I kinda slacked off and it caught up with me. Oh well, now I got to commute, make water cooler talk and work for the man instead of all the fun esoteric stuff that used to fill my brain. To be honest it ain't too bad but whatever, subject matter is kinda dry and its just work, nothing I'm too passionate about. Realize how lucky I was before but didn't have the personal drive to make it work. Trying to stay positive despite feeling a bit stifled but it's kinda my fault for slacking off and doing drugs and stuff. I've replaced dissociatives with coffee and sugar for the most part. They're flying me to Italy third week on the job so that's kinda lucky, I get travel a bit. Doubt that'll be a regular thing but that should be fun. Suppose I'll be spending less time on Bluelight now. Not gonna log in at work and stuff. This place is kinda addictive, like they put crack cocaine in the HTML or some shit.
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What sort of work is it? is it anything where you could eventually work from home in a home office for the company? Reason I ask because right out of college I got an office job, was there for 3 years, commute, etc. My job is in computer programming, I enjoy it alright but it's not my passion at all. But once I got to have a home office by proving myself (and moving, they didn't want to lose me), now I have this amazing situation that lets me have all the energy I need for my passions. Meanwhile, I also get a really nice salary and I can support myself far better than my friends who are pursuing the same passions (music and other arts). It ended up being a huge blessing and the best of both works, though I didn't see it that way at the time.
 
Thanks Xorkoth, that's good advice and makes me feel better. I hope to one day work from home again. Right now it's a good thing I'm in an office to be honest even though there's a kind of grogginess, awkwardness and butthurt feeling I've been carrying with me every day that I hope will pass. The morphogenetic field of the homestead was keeping me in a holding pattern (I.E I wasn't dealing with the reality of my situation and developed unproductive habits). When I moved into my new place I kinda lost my whole rhythm and started using drugs more than I should.

Anyways, helping to set up a foreign subsidiary for this company in Italy so they can hire employees in Italy and transfer then to the United States on the visa program. Hopefully Trump doesn't destroy that visa program or its all for nothing. Interface with the various people and government agencies in Italy and the American company. I used to work at this company as a computer programmer a while back funny you mention it. They're a software company. I wrote a lot of code in grad school for scientific computing. Well, couldn't cut it as a real coder. What took me a week a seasoned coder did in an afternoon so I fired myself after 6 months and lost my appetite for coding. Stayed friends with the CEO so he helped me out with this job even though I'm a bit squamish dealing with beaurocracy. Hopefully this job toughens me up a bit. Cheers.
 
how did you become a competent programmer? formal schooling? self-taught? any recommendations?

if it wasn't so cold i'd sit and stare at a tree in an attempt to experience the 'ground of all being' - a sensation which has thus far alluded me.
 
sup my heathen pals?

hope all is well in philosophy world. im doing okay. just worky worky. hoping the bombs dont start falling on any of you guys (or me). have a happy holiday and a safe apocalypse.
 
sups! im hearing elevated air traffic above my house - perhaps the planes are getting prepared for battle. interesting if Christ returns on x-mas, i'm thinking easter is more likely.

Happy Holidays!
 
I've had a rough week. They've set me down so much in Oxazepam I pretty much just have to sleep any time of the day that I can at this point. I was actually awake for 36 hours one time this week.

But no one needs to buy any drugs for themselves because if there was anything really wrong with you a doctor would help you, right? Oh, how we laughed...
 
I really liked this random computer guy I met today for some reason. It gave me butterflies when he said "That's a beautiful name". It has to be my celibacy, I reckon.
 
Today I've discovered magic...

When my partner wakes up in the morning he likes to have an intimate moment. I like to get up, brush, pee make coffee and then have an intimate moment before I shower.

When I told him I prefer to brush because my breath is horrible and I want to be fresh, he responded with "I don't mind, I just want my hubby".then I found these magic words, "yours is too". BAMM! Magic, this spell causes silence apparently very long lasting. I'm working on undoing spells the one that seemed best involved Belgian waffles with strawberries and cream.
 
^Ha :D

I'm not one to care too much about smells or freshness but my missus sure does. I can tell when she wants head, she gets up and I can hear her cleaning heself :) I prefer it with some real odour.

But morning breath is not great :)
 
Well now.

An orange billionaire who thinks he's a god-like cross breed of Hugh Hefner and Abraham Lincoln just got inaugurated yesterday.

Hopefully his econ reforms play out well for the United States as a whole.
 
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I do not eat sugar. I assimilate its structure within me. And my teeth.

If god was real, he would be a little sweetie to crunch betwixt fangs. God's a lollipop!
 
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Ninae said:
I've had a rough week. They've set me down so much in Oxazepam I pretty much just have to sleep any time of the day that I can at this point. I was actually awake for 36 hours one time this week.

But no one needs to buy any drugs for themselves because if there was anything really wrong with you a doctor would help you, right? Oh, how we laughed...
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That's pathetic. That's what the War on (people who prefer different) Drugs (than ethanol, caffeine, and nicotine) does to people. Yeah it may have stopped one middle-class teenager from doing that one MDMA trip, but as a result, 10 more chronic pain patients and people with other illnesses that NEED their medicine, are suffering. Not to mention the other effects of the WoD: giant money flux to organized crime/black market - when it could all go to taxes to better our education, infrastructure, healthcare etc; hundreds of thousands of jobs that produce absolutely nothing (DEA, any other narcotics agency - they produce NOTHING that benefits the society, and yet billions upon billions of moneys are dumped into that shithole of an organization... I think the only difference between underground organized crime and agencies like the DEA is that one of them is official, the other aren't); oh and don't forget the absolutely incomprehensible stigma drug users have to live with in our society - to the point that some don't even consider them to be human.

And it don't matter if you like to light up a joint at the end of a long work day or shoot smack many times a day - you're all druggies, my friend.

What personally upsets me is that my country is even more in the Stone Age of drug use than most countries (well, except Russia and some other Asian countries). Down here, cannabis is not only a Schedule I drug (as it formally is in many other countries), but it's also perceived as something as bad as heroin or LSD... though honestly, even placing LSD along with heroin is incredibly misinformed. Scratch that, heroin is only as dangerous as it is because of the WoD: start selling pharmaceutical grade H with precise doses, clean needles and proper education on usage along with antagonist kits (naloxone-naltrexone or w/e) for emergency situations - would we still see the same detrimental effects? Not. Fucken. Likely. It would not be any worse than alcohol, I reckon. Perhaps even better, because using heroin non-IV is basically harmless to organs if used properly, whereas ethanol is intrinsically harmful.

Woah, not sure what got into me, that is one tldr piece of text right there. How have you been Ninae, btw? Still taking shit from the LE? Are there any quasi-legal opioid alternatives in Norway, or anything else you could use?

Me, I just had a baby. Looking forward to the O-PCE shipment tomorrow. Also going to sample some U-47700 and see what all the fuss is about.
 
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