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The Dark Side Official Quitting Thread

Im stopping cocaine. Today being my first day, 5 days off it is pretty normal so after the first week i know i can get there, my longest since i started used to be 2 weeks, then most recently was 12 days but that was due to not being in my home town, so now im going give up completly. Tonight i plan to clear my room out and get rid of everything that reminds me of it. Ive deleted all my dealers numbers and even deleted friends numbers who i know i can get drugs off of. Today is the start of a new beggining.
 
Hey StarGirlie, good work! Don't give in! Are you getting any proffesional help for your self harm?

I'm quitting codeine, but very gradually. Nurofen plus, what a lame thing to be addicted to! I've been taking up to 1.5 grams (that's approx. ~120 pills!) a day. More than anything, I'm quitting because of the cost. I just can't afford to be spending $30 a day on the shit.

I've cut back to 42 pills today, going to 40 tommorow and continuing to drop by 2 per day 'till I get to 20. Will sit there for a few days and begin the 2 per day drop again. I'm a big believer in long, gradual tapering. I've quit cigarettes and benzos before so hopefully I'll have the willpower to keep going with this! I'll report back to this thread regularly.

Good luck to everyone who is quitting!!
 
I haven't smoked at all. Been wanting to alittle. The compulsion to look at porn is gone. If you stop doing it for alittle while and the compulison is gone than you look at it infruqently under your own will. Just make sure to not fall back into the trap. I still make sure I don't view that much.

Good luck xherrus, hang in there, it will get easier. Get busy. Its whats helped me the most.

Good luck everyone else.
 
StarGirlie said:
i didn't cut last night but i still want to but i won't do it, won't give in - just not doing so well right now
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Excuse my ignorance, I'm just trying to understand this phenomenon better. But why do you cut yourself, or rather hate yourself so much? If you want you can PM me.
 
i don't know why i hate myself so much - possibly because of the sexual abuse i've gone through possibly due to my bipolar. i dunno. i haven't cut for some time now. there's a whole thread on cutting though if oyu want to check it out.
 
slyvan wanderer said:
I haven't smoked at all. Been wanting to alittle. The compulsion to look at porn is gone. If you stop doing it for alittle while and the compulison is gone than you look at it infruqently under your own will. Just make sure to not fall back into the trap. I still make sure I don't view that much.

Good luck xherrus, hang in there, it will get easier. Get busy. Its whats helped me the most.

Good luck everyone else.
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Thanks slyvan, glad to hear you're doing well. I haven't wanked off since I last posted, which must be about three weeks, although I've been taking benzos recently so it's kind of cheating (I have a related thread about benzo addiction here). The test will be when I taper off Valium, at which point the porn addiction might come back with a vengeance. I've viewed some porn a few times within the past few weeks, thankfully it's becoming not all that attractive any more and I think the habit is broken for the time being. When you think about it, porn's really quite stupid, isn't it?

It's looking good so far for me, and I find myself more confident talking to girls and being friends with them than I am when I've recently masturbated over porn. I also find that women don't seem like just breasts and vaginas any more, they have hearts and that's a much more attractive part of them. I don't think lust and love can co-exist harmoniously. A woman's body is sexually attractive, but you can't really love her body, only her personality and her heart.

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StarGirlie, I'm glad to hear you haven't been cutting. I admire it. I don't know you or why you hate yourself but you are a person with a problem just like me and I can relate to that. No-one except you can solve your problem and all I can give you are words of support, but if I or anyone else in the forum makes even a little bit of difference for you then I will be happy. Be kind to yourself.

Much love,
Leo.

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*=Regulator=*, I've been on the N+ for a while now, and even began resorting to dissolving pills to shoot 'em up the ass because I had too much tolerance to get high enough off an oral dose. How long have you been on the stuff? Shouldn't be too painful to quit, but it's the psychological addiction that gets you. Watch out for that and don't make excuses for yourself like I do: "need to get some work done = Nurofen+"; "wanna socialise = Nurofen+"; "might as well = Nurofen+" etc.

Good luck in quitting to guineaPig, subdefy, pansyboy, dankstersauce, White Oleander, Pomplemous (even though you're not quitting anything, thought I might as well give you an honourable mention), guineaPig, SilverFeniks, hazejunk, banksy (find something to quit man, how about TV, that's a good one to cut out of ur life), adradmin, dani-le, future psychiatrist, bottletop, Hivelord, Fawn Hall, jebba q, Riot Grrrl, Rosclot, Edge80 and anyone else who happens to be quitting something or considering taking steps to do so.
 
xherrus- i said in you other post but good luck and congrats on quiting porn for the most part.

i haven't had anymore cravings to cut and have been feeling better about myself these past few days.

also, i gave up cigarettes because i'm going to start going to the gym again and all drugs except those prescribed to me and pot and alcohol in moderation. so yay for everyone on here doing well and yay for me! good luck everyone - keep up the good work.
 
Tapered off Ritalin over the past few days, but crave it every day. Two days without so far. That's the hardest for me to give up. I have decreased the Klonopin from 4 to 3 mg, and will continue to do so until I'm down to zero mg/day. Quitting is hard, but I figure it will be so worth it in the end. Good luck to everyone else.
 
i'm getting too close to a klonopin addiction so what do i do - quit taking it - just run out - not good - am going into slight iwthdrawl but am finding i can control it so far by meditation and i'm going to take some sleeping pills and kava kava - wish me luck
 
I'm seeing a psychiatrist today to admit I have substance abuse problems, which is really scary for me to do. Everytime I've seen a psychiatrist in the past, I've left with Ritalin and Klonopin, so I have this extremely strong craving right now, that hardly makes quitting seem worth it. Going to keep trying though...
Good luck Stariegirl
 
withdrawl kicked in bad last night and i gave in and took a sonota (benzo sleeping pill) but i only have six of those left but i'm under special circumstances - my bf and i of over a year and my true love broke up for good so it was the only way i could silence my pain for a little while - but my head is clearer though a wreck and i still want to go through with this even though i'm more addicted than i thought - withdrawl is horrid but breakup is worse still
 
Its been 13 whole days of no H. 10 days of no shooting . . . Im starting to feel better but at night I still get insomnia and my nerves just feel shocked. I hope I can stay cool, thoughts of it everyday.

-weez
 
any benzo habit is best tapered as slow and methodical as possible, hastely running into a chronic cold turkey can be dilussional process as benzo withdrawals can take weeks to peak, leaving you witha false sense of security and an unaware prelapse depeveloping. \i hope you have kicked it and remember it willbe more than normal to miss their effects especially when playing inyour old playing grounds, testing control and interpersoanl conflict and emotional imbalance. your not teh first and their are bundles of people on bl with manay and varied successes, keepo trying and writing, your a good narrator...
 
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Don't know where else to turn, b/c I don't personally know anyone going though this-only the people on this thread. I want Ritalin (or Adderall or Meth) more than life itself right now, but have no way of getting it. I think I'd literally put the drug above everything right now. Since I can't get it, I want to crawl into a hole and never come out again. Anyone ever felt this way? Any advice to deal with such intense cravings? Thanks.
 
a great self help and introspection site

MY FAVE SELF HELP SITEhttp://mentalhelp.net/psyhelp/

in depth information about self help ... do some clicking

it can be hard to navigate ...but it's a lot like a book

you can read a chapter, it has a table of contents, or you can read from page to page by using the arrows.

it can be long too ...so learn to read the important subjects that pertain to you and your interest.
 
banksy-

it's been nearly a week and my withdrawl has gotten no worse nor any better but since i've ridden the wave of having a clean head for this long i'd like to ride it out please - you telling me that i shouldn't doesn't help anything - just like me saying that my doctor shouldn't have put me on it without warning me about its addictiveness doesn't help anything. i'm doing fine, i'm strong inside and i can get through this. if you don't support my dicsion that's fine but you don't have to be self-righteous about it - everyone else has been very supportive - and since i'm refusing to take my meds, which have cost my nearly everything, i might add, you might as well just wish me luck too. thanks so much for your support and concern.
 
im trying to give up on abstaining, then binging. i want moderation in my life. a balance. if something is bad, i cut it out completely, be it out of guilt, or pleasure st denying myself what i want,...or something....then it all blows out and i compensate for abstinance in one big messy binge.

sept for ciggies. have taken up swimming a lot, and my lungs actually hurt when i smoke afterwards, but i make myself :(

no pot for 8 months or so...hey, i didnt realise id been so good! i started to schitz out big time and i really didnt like it. i dont think ill ever be a smoker again. :)

no booz for...fuck, i cant even remember. i just dont drink anymore.

no other drugs for 2 months? thats pretty good too.

come to think of it, im doin ok :) but the things i dont let myself have, i actually really do enjoy :(
 
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