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The Dark Side Official Quitting Thread

slyvan wanderer

slyvan wanderer

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Based on the simlar thread from healthy living here is the thread for people quitting whatever it is they want to quit...or at least take a break from and why. And also to check in and comment how its going.

Porn...I had an involuntary break for a few days (no internet) and it felt great. I checked a few sites today and it semi-sucked me back in. It became something I focuesd on and wasted time I could be school work or sleeping. I realize I like it and enjoy it but I am going to try and stop looking at it until at least until next thursday night (7days)

Weed...I need my brain for my intense summer classes and I haven't had an extended one (over a month) in awhile. I am going to not smoke until the end of june.

Bad food may be next.
 
heroin and cocaine... its not really the physical pain that gets me from opiates, but the long lasting depression for weeks after. i think i need to look at the root of my problems, and quit trying to cover it up with drugs.
 
no seriously the last thing I gave up would have been my 2 year long habit of popping copious amount of nurofen plus washed down with espresso. Work can be stressy...
I gave them up on new years week not day and havent pop any since. I have had my testing times, but i reacon its over.

The other stuff i need to give up is under construction
 
banksy said:
I am giving up collecting naval lint its driving me nuts
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hee. i used to collect my ex's. til i realised it was revolting and actually it wasnt normal so I binned it. hee.
 
im giving up drinking (again)....i may have to try a few more times but i keep going to AA so i guess im not ready to give up on being sober yet at least.
 
completely done with weed and most stimulants.

the occassional opiate and trip should be good for me :)
 
Quitting thread

"Last night of methamphetamine..."

How'd that work out for you?

I am shipping off to rehab shortly. I feel lucky to have that expenses paid option, really lucky. But I am overwhelmed by the idea, especially as the time to go nears...I am afraid to give up this life with meth- this absolutely pointless and pathetic life. How can I leave it?
 
oxycontin. its already been 2 months since my last line...it only took a 28 day stay to get my shit in order if you know what i mean? now it just sucks cause i have no fucking energy and the depression is killing me but i dont wanna get dependent on another little pill...anyone been through this before? i know using more opiates won't solve anything except momentarialy, but goddamn, i wish i had more ambition.

oh yeah FawnHall i wish you the best of luck for you. I can relate how you feeel about not wanting to give up your pointless drug addiction. when i checked into rehab i was so fucking angry and thought that i'd never quit my oxy, but now two months later I am so fucking happy that i was given a chance to get some education about the disease of addiction (if you believe in it). If anything, youll meet some really good friends in there. I thought all the other drug addicts would be really shady and fucked up, but they're just like all the people here on bluelight (though allot less informed)=D
 
Cigarettes & Duromine

I still crave both so so much.

I miss the feeling of duromine. That feeling of i can go all day without eating and have the energy to keep going, then hitting the gym and going hard at the machines sweating so much that i need a second towel. I miss the confidence it gave me. The way i could just say no to eating and not feel guilt because i actually wasn't hungry. It was one aspect of my life i didn't have to worry about, i had it covered.

I don't miss the hand jitters, the dry mouth, the bloated belly i would get when i hadn't eaten for days, the dehydration, paranoia and bursts of anger, the look on my best friends face when i'd take the tablet and her constant lectures.
 
cutting - gave that up a year ago but relapsed a month ago twice

does self-hatred count as soemthing i need to quit? if so then i'm goin got try that for a day (gotta start somewhere) :(
 
Today is my second day totally clean from opiates, I haven't been high in 7 days. I have been tapering this whole time and it has worked pretty good at eliminating physical symptoms.
This just sucks though. Even though I have very little physical symptoms my head is a mess. It is really hard to think straight. I can't get much done at work or at home and my wife (who I hide my use from) keeps on asking my whats wrong. I think she has a hard time believing that this is the third time in 2 months I have been sick, since I never really get sick.
You know what sucks really bad is that my oxycontin connection calls me yesterday and tells me that she needs some cash and is willing to offload a bulk* amount at 60% off my normal rate. The temptation is killing me.

* by bulk amount I mean still a personal amount. Just wanted to clarify that.
 
Slyvan wanderer, I'd like to join you in your attempt at quitting porn. I have never known any adult who is completely free from sexual desire; therefore I think overcoming it is an admirable goal. I believe that anyone who conquers sexual desire is the toughest of the tough.

When I am tripping (LSD, cacti etc.), porn becomes completely disgusting. Also, when tripping, I feel much more aware of my surroundings and much more intelligent than usual. Therefore, if I find porn completely disgusting in my normal state of mind, I may become much more aware of my surroundings and much more intelligent than usual. The following technique helped me a lot last time I wanted to look up some porn:

"Whenever the mind runs towards attractive women with lustful thoughts, have a definite clear-cut photo in the mind of the flesh, bone, urine, faecal matter and perspiration of which women are composed... Ladies also can practice the foregoing method and keep a mental picture of men in just the same way." http://www.sivanandadlshq.org/download/brahma_nopic.htm

I think this corresponds with the point I made before: if you are aware of the constituents of the (female) body, then you are much more aware of it than when you see only a vagina with legs and your penis going in and out of it. You are also not as attracted to it.

Good luck in quitting porn
 
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