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The Dark Side Check-In Thread ver. 2010 > 2009

I'm still around, although I don't visit here often and it seems like most of the people here now are rather "new". If anyone remembers me though, I'm still doing good. 23 months clean today. Waiting for an acceptance/rejection letter from a great college, transferring from community college. Things have changed a lot in two years ;)
 
`pr0digy said:
I'm still around, although I don't visit here often and it seems like most of the people here now are rather "new". If anyone remembers me though, I'm still doing good. 23 months clean today. Waiting for an acceptance/rejection letter from a great college, transferring from community college. Things have changed a lot in two years ;)
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Good to see ya man! Good luck on the college transfer, I'm sure you'll do well! Congrats on 23 months!!!!! Thats huuuuuuge!
 
Yeah pr0digy that is so amazing, you should be very proud of yourself! Good luck with the continuing college journey! <3
 
Well I've been clean for a bit now so I can get things together for a $20+/hour job so I can have money for..... more drugs, I know, right. High paying jobs and youth don't mix well in my case, that's my excuse. I am doing good though, and it's nice to hear from other Darksiders, even if I don't post much myself.
 
That's great you've been clean for a month tp, good work! It's nice to be able to prove to ourselves that we can actually do it :)
Not so good you're planning on spending your hard-earned money on drugs but hey, that's your decision.
 
funny I saw this thread! I haven't been on bluelight at ALL lately....
And usually that happens when I go on a drug binge or go back to drugs.. I like being on bluelight when I am not a drug addict for some reason :P

BUT I have only been clean! [*sigh* yes ok still on bupe.. but nooooo heroin ,not at all] Just still taking .5 suboxone daily and weaning! Life has been a little bit busier lately, as school was ending and I had a bunch of life dealings to take care of.

I need to look around BL more and re-acquaint myself with all the updates of my BL family! haha.

Missed you guys hope you are all well!

<3ss
 
^^ Hey hun, glad to see you again. It's good to hear you're keeping off heroin! Stay strong girl <3
 
I can't function anymore. I used to be a regular here and I disappeared. I can't function and I will cease to continue words for it will lead somewhere out there that people don't want to seee. I am stuck physically in life but my mind is my mind i suppose and that's where i stop
 
It's been about 2 months since i've done any true dope. I've been on a self-prescribed maintenance dose of sub (~0.5mg.) and smoke occasionally only. Doin' better now then since I started using opiates 5-6 years ago. Anyways glad to hear about all the other people kickin' it too, i.e. Captain Heroin, totach, ONCOR, n' everyone else.
 
I'm checking in right now, its 24 hours off the drink. This isn't my first time attempting to quit, the longest i stayed clean was 3 weeks then it was back on the bottle again.

I'm hoping this time will be my last drink for a very long time.
 
red leader, thanks!! I really hope all has been well with you!! I miss you, and everyone as well!!
I appreciate your true interest in my well being.

And as always, back at yaaa man! :)
 
This is my 4 years anniversary of my first death. woohoo for being alive!
Edit: doctor's gave me valium to transition smoothly from opiate addiction back to sobriety until I get started with a therapist.
This past week was kinda crazy involving my family catching me stealing drugs.
Valium is making want to just lay down and I have no desire to get into any trouble.
 
OverDone said:
Good to see ya man! Good luck on the college transfer, I'm sure you'll do well! Congrats on 23 months!!!!! Thats huuuuuuge!
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n3ophy7e said:
Yeah pr0digy that is so amazing, you should be very proud of yourself! Good luck with the continuing college journey! <3
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Thanks for the kind words guys :) Hope things are going well with you two... I've been around a lot of opiates lately (I work in a restaurant, as a cook/server, these things happen), and honestly don't want any part of it. I really believe that as long as I keep doing what I have been doing, I'm done.with.that.shit.

To all the people kicking/contemplating it, give it a go. It is possible, and life is great once you get through to the other side. As always feel free to PM if you have any questions, want to know more about 12 step programs, etc...
 
Welll, today is my second day in a row without any oxy. I slept like dogshit last night. I woke up in a pissed-off mood, ready to get really high. I'm thinking about going to pick up some weed tonight but the only place i know where to get it is from my OC dealer.

I haven't cut lines with any of my PK dealers yet. I'm not really sure how serious I am about stopping. I REALLY REALLY want to. But, goddamn, I can't work without the drugs and I reallllly need the money right now.

I'm holding on to 40mg til the need really sinks in.
 
I haven't logged onto bluelight in a while.

It's nice to be back :) I'm feeling pretty good, things are going pretty smoothly for me for once! (on the right meds, taking them mostly as prescribed, on suboxone, therapy starts today with a new T (eek!) ) :)
 
hey guys, wel today makes it 6 weeks that i am heroin free : ). I still feel pretty shitty but im toughing it out. For those of you who remember when i opened that thread when me n my girl wer breaking up wel ive bin clean since that day.This getting sober shit i feal really needs to be done on your own.It has really helped me stay clean this time around even tho i do hang out wit friends that use.Those r my brothers tho n i would never stop hanging out wit them.
ps: whoever thinks they cant do it (stay clean) trust me it can b done i really didnt know how i would sober up this time around but i did it n like they say if i can then anybody can : ) good luck family : )
 
Hi all ... I know I've been MIA for a few weeks .... hubby got a new job and we relocated to CA from NYC. Hubby did not know about adderall/tram usage .... and no better way to quit then spending 24/7 with your s/o. Am now out here and our healthcare doesn't go into effect for another week .... feel sooooooo tired without the meds, but am debating getting a new psych doc especially since I now off the stims. Anyway, glad to be settled and read all of your updates!
 
totach said:
This getting sober shit i feal really needs to be done on your own..
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yep. involving those around you can help sometimes but often, from my experience, it just brings them down and makes them judgmental from there on out. plus doing it on your own gives u a bit of pride. i know i'm feeling much better tapering, being responsible, an(d) adult about it.

very nice work staying clean for 6 mos.;)
 
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