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i want to be the first person to do crystal meth in the bathroom at college here.
i'll snort a tiny tiny bit in the bathroom just to have done it ya know?
i wasn't sober most of 11th-12th grade.
amphs.....and mostly coming down....
i'm chillin hard from either 2 1mg ativans or 2 2mg, i cant remember, but i'm thinking 2s cause 1s wouldnt be this strong...
 
i agree completely folley.
i stole em.
and they're knocking my ass OUT son, i'm going to sleep
bai
dont take anything in my rants too persaonl
 
Renz Envy said:
The thing about MDMA, is that it's not as addictive.
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Ill back you up on that one,
After new years, Im going to a 2 month wait, (im at 1 month wait, which i get away with for the time being as i only dose once)
(Source: Bluelights Most Etarded mess on MDMA)
I do not ever fiend for mdma,
But i definately do for ketamine , But atm recently, im trying to straighten up and fix my life a bit.
I need to learn to use stuff in moderation,
will last a lot longer too then ,

Lol for instance ive started to get up early again, so i get more sunlight so im generally more happier
 
MDMA is more of a psych than anything else. But because it has those crazy stimulant lovey-dovey feelings it's unique.
You will get something intelligent out of each quality roll, but not as much as doing shrooms or LSD.

The more harmful/addictive a drug is, typically the less popular it is by the general public.

Right now I see Ecstasy, Shrooms, Weed and alcohol being the most widely accepted drugs.

Weed and alcohol being the only two I openly discuss in person.
 
i sometimes think through difficult things whilst rolling,
As i know i am ready to take them on in my mind,
Then when i solve them and come to a conclusion, i simply nod and smile the night away
 
last night sucked...could barely sleep, and i woke up this early.
i have things to accomplish today :(
 
What about it?
last night i didn't do any drugs other than popping 2 ativans at 11 or 12 to put me out
i woke up in the middle of the night last night i know that, did not sleep well.
 
^ well I know MDPV can royally fuck up a sleep cycle from personal experience; I doubt meth is any different..It's probably even worse. All that dopaminez cookin' yo brain nigga


also, this just in, i wish i had more weed
 
I havent used methamphetamine since last friday, vyvanse is for all intents and purposes d-amphetamine/dexedrine, which i'm cutting back on (and i can get more dex in 2 days, i honestly dont care to....) or just plain quitting possibly, ifnothing else IMO dex aint worth it anymore, i'm sick of feeling like absolute garbage for the day after for a high that goes too quick and ALWAYS (every time) is just me sitting online doing some stupid thing obsessively for hours unable to stop.
Methamphetamine will be the stim of choice, dex is dirty as shit compared to meth, and meth comedowns IMO arent near as bad as dex comedowns, and the meth high is actually worth the comedown (as in, the high is good enough to compensate) whereas with dex, i dunno if it's ever been all that worth it, or at least even the first few times i had comedowns just as bad as i get now, the comedown from my mini mini mini meth binge last week was a piece of cake, a night of doin dexedrine has way worse after effects..
and the meths is gonna be a special treat, cause its one hell of a drug, awesome drug....and i know if i jsut replace dex with meth eventually that'll get shit.
But dont hold me to this, but that's my plan at the moment. considering other than 2 nights ago with the vyvanse, i've gone without geting a proper dex high for at least 2 weeks, thats pretty good isnt it?
dex isnt worth the BS to me when methamphetamine is just like it but better in every way, and what i dislike about dex is lessened/not there with meth..
i can stop usin amphs often no problem if i have something to occupy my time, thats why i started back up after 3 months off last summer, cause i got off, was still just as depressed/life just as shitty, and was just bored nad sober instead of riding the speed rollercoaster.
i'd give it all up or legitimately be very responsible with my use if i was as lucky as all you...
 
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You think i like this shit?
you ever wonder why (and anybody who knew me back from IRC, you all remember i'm sure, how every time i got high, was "the last time") i cant even rationalize it being 100% worth it to myself?
i'd choose to get to have a life, friends, relationships, socializing, all that over speed or meth every fucking time.
none of you understand and thats why none of your words are ever going to make me think different, if i had what you all had i wouldn't want to live like i do, but i dont and failed miserably at getting it, so i have speed, the one thing that i can do that takes some of the depression, loneliness and pain away.
I choose the speed rollercoaster because while the down is worse, at least there's some up, whereas my life not on speed is just a steady down/depression.
I'm not gonna be doing DEX because it aint worth it, i've got a decent you could maybe say incentive to cut back or quit anyway, and methamphetamine is much much much better for what i used dex for....and seeing as my use cycle changed this summer to do all 120 dexedrine in a week, go 3 weeks off, wait for a month to go by, then repeat, i fail to see how doing that with methamphetamine is any worse...and hell meth isn't even guaranteed, tomorrow i might lose access, or in 3 months i might lose access, and as it is its priced right and available somewhat but not available completely on demand whenever i want, and also not able to be actually acquired easily, i gotta drive a ways to get it and i cant get it 24/7 anyway...
i'll be fine, i'm just venting here.
funny people always have so much to say when i'm doing amphs like THATS BAD kind ofshit, pretending they actually care, but when i mention the issues/struggles/problems in my life that are the driving force behind me it gets real quiet and is ignored, i'd rather people actually give a shit about me instead of blindly saying SPEED KILLS if they must talk about me in the first place....
 
i do have one plan im considering for if/when i pick up some methylated amphetamine next (should happen but is gonna be a while, i gotta get the cash together...)
oldschool 70s meth was P2P dope and was racemic instead of the stuff we have now that's just d-meth right?
well extracting the L-methamphetamine out of vicks inhalers is cheap, not even illegal, and easy last i knew, and if you do that youd have pure(or mostly pure...) L-methamphetamine right
so like then i could take like 75mg of regular crystal meff/d-methamph and weigh out 75mg of l-meff, obv. i'd snort since they didn't smoke in the 70s, and see how oldschool biker type speed compares to ice/glass/crystal methamphetamine of today.
def. wanna do that experiment.
 
You're under the impression that none of us understand. We may not fully understand, but some of us have a degree of understanding.. There are others in the same boat, some better off, some worse off. Our words may do nothing behind a screen, but in the end what you wish to do is ultimately your decision. Some of us have something the others don't have and visa-versa, but do we need what they have? If you believe you have all that you need at this moment in life, then maybe you're content. But if you seek more, then the only person blocking your pursuit of what you want out of life is you. Times change and so do people, nothing is permanent. Who knows what's around the corner for you, but optimism never lets you down.
 
I'm saying, all you post about doing stuff aka having a life, thats how i know.
i doubt any of you have been pretty much a lonely outcast since 2004?
 
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