Sup dudes, I've been thinking about the MDMA experience a lot after my most recent experiences. I've always been responsible with tested MDMA, usually having solid breaks of at least 1 month, and never taking more than like 200-250mg. What's got me thinking is recently the peak just isn't overly enjoyable anymore. I take about 1 hour to come up, where I feel uncomfortably weird for like 15 minutes, before settling into the roll. My eyes begin to roll alot and my jaw starts doing it's own thing and I'm kind of enjoying myself, but not really. I never seem to break through into that MDMA euphoria, instead just feeling like I'm constantly kinda coming up but yet not coming up. While you may think I'm losing the magic, which is probably somewhat true, when I pop the re-dose at 2 hours, then drink an energy drink at like 3 hours, I'll experience the best effects of the MDMA from there. The last few times the last set has been truely magical (which is like 4-6 hours after dropping), with the empathy, love & euphoria, with no weird/anxiety like feelings of the peak. I'll still feel awesome the whole of the next day (like now tehe!). The last set won't even be my favourite DJ, I just feel like I've finally got there, so the setting doesn't even seem to matter anymore. I guess what I'm asking is if anyone can relate to the peak no longer being the most enjoyable part of the MDMA? I was speaking to a friend who said he experienced the same on the night, and he said it was because the club was too busy when we were peaking. But I'm not convinced, because I've had it before in quieter clubs. I don't really feel like it's set & setting related, because that doesn't really change, apart from a few less people towards the end. I don't think it's tolerance, because it seems to happen at any dose now. Like I've had it on initial doses of 100, 120, 130 and last night's 150mg. The redose is always about 50mg. Last night's re-dose was 30mg methylone/20mg MDMA, perhaps that's why, but i've experienced the same effect on just pure 50mg MDMA redoses. It's weird, because in the past I'd never take a re-dose feeling that it was unnecessary.
Can anyone else relate to this kind of thing?