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The cravings are consuming me!!!!

BIGsherm7272

BIGsherm7272

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I am now 1-month free of any drugs (specifically opioids), except suboxone. But this time around the cravings are too much. I am actually contemplating buy some meds through an online pharmacy. I a at a loss here. I need some help. Does anyone have any good suggestions on how to deal with the cravings? Any medications that help? (such as anti-depressants, etc..)Thank you for any input, it will not go un-noticed.
 
This might sound stupid, but if you're seriously contemplating buying meds off the internet, then get off the net until those urges subside. Go out and meet up with some friends (who aren't in to drugs, obviously) or go for a run outside for a while. Perhaps block those pharmacy websites on your computer. Hey it might not be fool-proof but it will give you more time to think about what you're doing before you click the "BUY" button.

1 month clean is such an achievement man, you can't give up now <3

Are you seeing a counsellor while you're on suboxone?
 
Yeah, a month is huge, just try to take your mind of things. Getting out of the house has to be a good start, just being active, walk to the next town/suburb or something, walking it off is a good way to get past cravings in the short term. But, just keep reassuring yourself mentally, you've come a LONG way in a month, don't give up on all that hard work
 
Bit pattern gave good advise. For me I used to let cravings control me, I would visualize the aspect of scoring and using in my head and eventually I would tell myself it is ok to use. Consequence free. I am a big person I can use if I want to, etc. All it ever acomplished was satisfying my cravings and stringing my addiction along.

I sometimes use thought blocking where when a using thought enters my mind I immediately block it by thinking of a good/relaxing situation. The less I acknowledge the thought, the less I entertain the thought the sooner I will get past addictive behavior.

Keep busy, find something that is entertaining, walk, meditate, prayer, watch movies, etc. Its much easier said than done but that is what I have done. Eventually you can change your thought process and stop rewarding the negative thoughts.

Peace,
Seedless
 
Thanks for all of the input. And yes I am seeing an addiction counselor right now, he is a good guy and nice to talk to. But I don't really know if it benefits me or not. All he can do is listen to me and give me advice. Doesn't seem to be doing much to help me get my cravings under control. I guess only time will heal in this case. It is kinda sad how drugs (mainly opiates) were the reason i crashed into a tree and shattered my hip and nearly died. I couldn't walk or do anything for 3 months. And yet I still feel the urge to use again. Pretty messed up, huh?
 
i am on sub too since april 09 - down to 2mg a day and almost done. the first few weeks for me were easy - i felt "free" from a horrible prison. money in my pocket, energy, etc. after a month or so i was not taking them for a few days to get high "one last time". did this 2 or 3 times until i got it together and ive been all good since august.

i found that cravings were the least of my problem, subs always kept them at bay - the rituals of using were hard to break through. i came to enjoy the mania of copping for the weekend, etc.

it helps me the most to really re-live my lowest moments. the times i would nod out in inappropriate places, or the times i got caught by loved ones. for me anyway, the embarassment was too much. if i replay those instances in my mind, the desire to use makes me cringe. i also find it helpful to think of being on sub as an investment - each day u are on it and are clean is like money in the bank - try to think of gettign high again as withdrawing your whole bank account and starting back at zero. each day under your belt is an accomplishment and inspiration if you just think of it that way. frame of mind is everything.

one more note - i still see a counselor too and i will admit that i do not think it has had any noteable affect on my recovery. maybe in the first few sessions it felt good to spill all my secrets, but nowadays its more like a chore than a release. im doing so well that we end up discussing completely unrelated topics.

in any case - always try to remember that if you enjoyed being high all the time and thought it was good for your life - u would have never gone on sub or tried to get clean. always remember that the grass is always greener.
 
Good job on the 1 month ;D I get cravings too, they usually happen in certain situations , ie if i'm near a spot where i used to buy dope, watching certain tv shows/movies, old friends, etc. so i try to avoid those situations. there are those times though when you're doing basically nothing and just really want to get high and that's just part of overcoming your addiction i suppose. anyways good luck and keep up the good work my friend :)
 
I wish I knew... I'm struggling with my own meth cravings at the moment. People say that keeping busy helps to distract you from the cravings, but I have a pretty boring life and don't have anything to really distract myself with. No job, no hobbies, nothing.
 
BIGsherm7272 said:
I am now 1-month free of any drugs (specifically opioids), except suboxone. But this time around the cravings are too much. I am actually contemplating buy some meds through an online pharmacy. I a at a loss here. I need some help. Does anyone have any good suggestions on how to deal with the cravings? Any medications that help? (such as anti-depressants, etc..)Thank you for any input, it will not go un-noticed.
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Tough spot my friend - I don't know your age so if you are in school / working or what the story is there. But listen, even if you have responsibilities - they are NOT as important as staying clean and being in control of your life. Seriously consider finding a family member/friend - or a 30 day program to let you escape your reality. Also pharm shopping online, take it from someone who has had bad experiences, is really a bad idea. If it works out - guess what - you just got yourself a source now, and it will be that much easier to just order again and again. People like us go all out with drugs, so to get away from them, to beat the PAWs, you have to think like your drug use - you have to go ALL OUT for your recovery, don't cut a corner with your life bro!!! Best of luck, hit me up if you need to shoot the shit.
 
First off and this may sound crazy, but try to avoid sitting around doing nothing. It probably seems like you don't feel like doing shit, but make yourself. If you keep your mind and body active you are not solely focused on the cravings. That has helped me in the past. second, benzo's help but you don't want to get addicited to one thing trying to get off of something else. BE STRONG and you can kick this stuff, you are so far in you don't want to start all over again.
 
Distraction. Go do something to get your mind off it. Don't go falling off the wagon now. Staying clean it hard and you've come far.
 
I guess the boredom is really my worst enemy. I am still recovering from hip surgery, so I am not too active yet, and all I do is nothing except sit around the house browsing the web or watching tv. I am taking some online classes, but they are so easy and just not a challenge at all. Only takes 1 day out of the week to complete my assignments. And I have virtually no hobbies or interests anymore. Ever since me depression and derealiztion/anxiety began, everything thing just seems dull and not interesting. I feel like my emotions are flat-lining. I just want to end it all sometimes. But then I think how selfish and stupid that would be, I have come so far in such a short time, it can only get better from here.
 
BIGSherm - how is your social life as in your friends. I understand you are recovering so you aren't going out a lot I can imagine. But do you have friends that care, that visit ? Sorry to be intrusive but I think this is critical for help.
 
That is another problem. All of my true friends have either moved away or moved on with their lives. And most of my other friends are still using/self-centered bastards. It is hard to come by genuine friends nowadays. I pretty much talk to no one except my family. Life is rather boring :(
 
Sherm I feel you friend. after 3 1/2 years of outpatient treatment i quit methadone start of last summer - well i was hooked on dope within 6 weeks, i was lonely, bored, had no ambition. It took a lot of work to get going, I am into boxing and that helped - but bottom line is I knew no one, I had lost everything and everyone to drugs. Since my classes have started my life has been SO much better, I tend to get a long well with people, and it's amazing to go to class not thinking about how i need to go tie up before the lecture... i need this or that.... i just sit there and learn (and make moves on the chicas =D !!!). It took time but I have two solid friends, one is my best friend from childhood. We do not do tons of stuff, he knows I'm in recovery, but we do make sure two three times a week we go out and do SOMETHING. bad weather we snowboard - play pool - whatever ... mountain bike saved me once, can't wait to be on it again. Listen bro, I say this all the time - please take it seriously, PM me anytime, I can give you my AIM / MSN - we've all had troubles man, and if you learn from them and don't want to help, it's terribly selfish. Let me know if i can be of any help.
 
Maybe things will get better once I start attending classes on campus again. I need to meet new people and interact with society again. While its great I started school again, the online classes don't do much to help me socially and mentally.
 
the cravings are consuming me
like blood loss in a hospital during open heart surgery.
is it time to call my dealer and just cop
or would it be easier to just have the last noise I ever hear be a loud pop
addiction reminds you of what you had
too bad that feeling leaves so quickly - its becomes way too easy to remain sad
I could just be strong enough now.... maybe going five days is possible this time
Yeah...in that amount of time, I should be doing just fine
 
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