FaerieBum
Bluelighter
The first thought that entered my mind as I woke up was the sound of my skull cracking against cold hard pavement. All the blood from my brain covering my face and blurring my vision, the last thing I see being the stars in the sky stained crimson.
I hesitate for a few moments before jumping, the fall lasts an eternity yet its only a few seconds before I hit the ground. I watch the buildings fly past, the cars, the people..life goes on. Everything I've ever thought or felt, now runs down the pavement in a stream of red. Soon to be hosed off the sidewalk and nothing will remain but a stain and a memory.
I try to forget the image of it all but its embedded in my mind like a blade. I pull the covers over my head and try to think of something pleasant, something beautiful. Nothing.
A few minutes later I sit up in bed, startled by the sound of my skull cracking against the cold hard pavement. I havent felt this emotionally or mentally disturbed in long time.
It happens again, and again. Every few minutes. I feel sicker and sicker with each crack. Each time it happens it becomes more and more real.
And I become less afraid.
I hesitate for a few moments before jumping, the fall lasts an eternity yet its only a few seconds before I hit the ground. I watch the buildings fly past, the cars, the people..life goes on. Everything I've ever thought or felt, now runs down the pavement in a stream of red. Soon to be hosed off the sidewalk and nothing will remain but a stain and a memory.
I try to forget the image of it all but its embedded in my mind like a blade. I pull the covers over my head and try to think of something pleasant, something beautiful. Nothing.
A few minutes later I sit up in bed, startled by the sound of my skull cracking against the cold hard pavement. I havent felt this emotionally or mentally disturbed in long time.
It happens again, and again. Every few minutes. I feel sicker and sicker with each crack. Each time it happens it becomes more and more real.
And I become less afraid.
this alot! and like DS said, i like how raw it is and how you grow so use to the pain that it no longer bothers you. very much realistic. pain (at least for me) is EXACTLY that way, after a while it just gets to be something you forget about as you grow used to it.