pillthrill first offi apologize if i am readin your post wrong and you are referring to something else, but if youre worried about people gettin sick of your shit (on bluelight) you got two choices, stop givin a fuck or stop postin it. Wait tho, that sounds like i am bein a big ol dickhead , so dont take it the wrong way. Most definately i aint tryna say this to be harsh or a dick or watever, but you post like 8 times a day and then youre like, wtf, people are telling me to stop seeking attention, quit whining, etc, or watever asshole comment they may make to you. I know you are just writin how you feel and everyone got a right to that , its just that other people also got a right to say somethin, whether or not they show some tact n reserve is up to them but theres always gonna be people to give you a hard time when you wear your heart on yoru sleev like that.
you got to realize that by constantly postin you are puttin yourself out there, and its only you and nobody else that is puttin you in that position. unfortunately (well, i dont think its unfortunate, but for your situation it might be) we dont all exist in a vaccuum, so people are gonna see and comment on wat youre sayin. if it hurts you to see the negative things people may say, you gotta either learn to put up or shut up. Ah man, once again it sounds like I am some kind of drill sargent barkin out orders or somethin when in reality it can be hard for me to sugar coat my words and they come off as mean when i aint bad intentioned i am just kind of straight up that is all, and if you could hear me saying this post out loud, it would be in a nice tone not some kind of bitchy voice. please do not take none of this in a mean way becuz that is so far from how i mean it i just see a very sensitive person getting hurt time n time again while maybe not realizing that they are ind of contributing to their hurt by makin themself very vulnerable.
Like i said. i dotn mean to say this in a negative or mean way and I dont mean by NO means to make it sound like *I* am the one tellin you that I want you to shut up. just that, those are pretty much the 2 choices, let it roll off your back and dont take shit from those haters, or stop allowin them to have fuel for their fire by postin all this personal shit all the time.
Its just that i feel bad for you that you are so easily hurt but you continue throwin your self to the wolves every time you post. if you use the journal to vent you got the option to make it private that way you can go on about watever you want without feelin like ppl is judgin you.but it seems that you do care wat other people say becuz you mention it in posts n journal stuff alot. So that is just my advice take it or leave it. I kno that this comment aint exactly totally relevant to this post but the "since ppl finally got sick of my shit" comment and the fact that i noticed you sayin similar shit around the forums other times about the same general idea of " i guess i should just shut up if nobody wants to hear it" and that type of shit. So it just inspired me to write this n hopefully it would help you see clearer . good luck dealin w.shit.
