As a guy who is deep down pretty shy around people i have no problem greeting with a handshake and making eye contacted. I do this as it actually helps me know the person from the word go and helps me feel at ease about the newly met person in front of me. However, i don’t think this overcomes shyness at all. We are naturally judgmental creatures and i have spent some of my life studying the world of communication and how people can come across to others. I don’t actually think it is really as useful as i once thought it could've been.
I over analyse a lot of thing’s 99% of the time and has turned into a curse rather than a gift. Obviously people around me can tell me to stop this but in actual fact it is almost impossible for me to do so. I have no reason for why i do it either. It’s such a natural trait of my own that it is implanted straight into my brain. It has actually driven me to do the total opposite of things i once learnt to be positive about. Here is the problem i pose “is there really a correct way to socialize?”.
I also think too much about what people think of me which most of the time makes me feel disconnected towards the person talking to me. there is only a certain type of person who can take my mind off this. Those people are energetic and speak before they think. I somehow get caught in their freedom and soak in their persona. Somehow i latch onto these people for the sense of comfort they bring. Obviously this is a state of attraction.
i find it hard to see thing’s from an instinctual level and when i do get it then i am hooked which then creates an obsession towards that person. A need to be around these people at all times. That is the only gut feeling i ever get these days. Another thing is that i feel as if i never get this from anyone else. I’m always the one chasing rather than being chased. I believe this contributes to my loneliness and longing.
A good conversation for me is like a drug. I crave it!! after not having one for a very long time i feel depressed and empty. Anything deep and meaningful is like heroin, the hit is pretty intense. once i get that hit i get a short high and i feel enlightened and very content within myself. on my own, i can never reach this level and it frustrates me. it’s like i have to depend on others to pick me up.
Sometimes learning something can be very beneficial but when practised wrongly it can have detrimental effects. Learning to unlearn however can be put into better use for anyone who has something they thought to be a gift turned into a curse. The way to do this is to eradicate yourself away from the thing’s that have put yourself there, in my case, i can’t be ridden from women. Women are put here as a test. They are intelligent creatures, granted the gift of naturally higher social value and brain’s to fit. The conflict of man has always been a tricky one and the mentality that a woman should make me a sandwich has always puzzled me. i don't want a sandwich, i want intelligence, gentleness and a good heart. something that is very hard to find. But then we get back to the obsession. once i find it, i can’t let it go. Just like finding gold, diamonds or winning a million pounds. it’s rare and should be cherished. Your heart flutters and your mind becomes as occupied as 50 clowns in a mini. So if you are with someone, with all these traits and more then don’t let them go, because the difference between a women and gold aren't too different at all, because you can either keep it or leave it and it would be pretty damn stupid to leave it.
I over analyse a lot of thing’s 99% of the time and has turned into a curse rather than a gift. Obviously people around me can tell me to stop this but in actual fact it is almost impossible for me to do so. I have no reason for why i do it either. It’s such a natural trait of my own that it is implanted straight into my brain. It has actually driven me to do the total opposite of things i once learnt to be positive about. Here is the problem i pose “is there really a correct way to socialize?”.
I also think too much about what people think of me which most of the time makes me feel disconnected towards the person talking to me. there is only a certain type of person who can take my mind off this. Those people are energetic and speak before they think. I somehow get caught in their freedom and soak in their persona. Somehow i latch onto these people for the sense of comfort they bring. Obviously this is a state of attraction.
i find it hard to see thing’s from an instinctual level and when i do get it then i am hooked which then creates an obsession towards that person. A need to be around these people at all times. That is the only gut feeling i ever get these days. Another thing is that i feel as if i never get this from anyone else. I’m always the one chasing rather than being chased. I believe this contributes to my loneliness and longing.
A good conversation for me is like a drug. I crave it!! after not having one for a very long time i feel depressed and empty. Anything deep and meaningful is like heroin, the hit is pretty intense. once i get that hit i get a short high and i feel enlightened and very content within myself. on my own, i can never reach this level and it frustrates me. it’s like i have to depend on others to pick me up.
Sometimes learning something can be very beneficial but when practised wrongly it can have detrimental effects. Learning to unlearn however can be put into better use for anyone who has something they thought to be a gift turned into a curse. The way to do this is to eradicate yourself away from the thing’s that have put yourself there, in my case, i can’t be ridden from women. Women are put here as a test. They are intelligent creatures, granted the gift of naturally higher social value and brain’s to fit. The conflict of man has always been a tricky one and the mentality that a woman should make me a sandwich has always puzzled me. i don't want a sandwich, i want intelligence, gentleness and a good heart. something that is very hard to find. But then we get back to the obsession. once i find it, i can’t let it go. Just like finding gold, diamonds or winning a million pounds. it’s rare and should be cherished. Your heart flutters and your mind becomes as occupied as 50 clowns in a mini. So if you are with someone, with all these traits and more then don’t let them go, because the difference between a women and gold aren't too different at all, because you can either keep it or leave it and it would be pretty damn stupid to leave it.