Time to dump some of this emotional stuff in the bucket.
I miss my ex. But I can't do anything about it so I might as well try and be happy with the positive things I have in my life. It obviously wasn't meant to be and I can't change what happened. All I can do is be grateful about the time I had with him and hope that maybe one day I'll have closure. Cub was my first and last real love and I should be grateful.
In general I can't do anything to change the path I've taken and I need to accept the mistakes I've made in my life and learn from them. The place I'm in now is reflective of my actions and if I'm not happy with the place I'm in then my actions need to change.
I am gutted about Paula. But I can't bring her back and I can't turn back time. I accept that she's gone from this life and returned to the planet. The best thing I can do is take on board the things she taught me about who I am and about life. I can be grateful for the time I had with her and make her proud by living my life to it's fullest instead of running away from it.
My first act was to get a decent undercut shaved into the side of my head. I fucking love it.
Next step is to buy some wine and fags, get shitfaced and write and paint.
I know, I know, it's not much. But I need to start somewhere and decide how to move forward.
I miss my ex. But I can't do anything about it so I might as well try and be happy with the positive things I have in my life. It obviously wasn't meant to be and I can't change what happened. All I can do is be grateful about the time I had with him and hope that maybe one day I'll have closure. Cub was my first and last real love and I should be grateful.
In general I can't do anything to change the path I've taken and I need to accept the mistakes I've made in my life and learn from them. The place I'm in now is reflective of my actions and if I'm not happy with the place I'm in then my actions need to change.
I am gutted about Paula. But I can't bring her back and I can't turn back time. I accept that she's gone from this life and returned to the planet. The best thing I can do is take on board the things she taught me about who I am and about life. I can be grateful for the time I had with her and make her proud by living my life to it's fullest instead of running away from it.
My first act was to get a decent undercut shaved into the side of my head. I fucking love it.
Next step is to buy some wine and fags, get shitfaced and write and paint.
I know, I know, it's not much. But I need to start somewhere and decide how to move forward.