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The Blue door (story of life, love, birth, death and redemption)

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31 years old and living in a major city in the USA. So far this could describe practically anyone my age and the rest of the story isn't that original. Basically became caught up in the rave scene back in the day and been on drugs nonstop since I was 18, my fave drug of all time was X, but shit X went to crap, I did other things...I've done just about everything, at least most. The thing is is that for the last 3 years I'm smoking dope on the weekend. I want to stop so I did. Clean 2 weeks, here's my thing, I have no job, live with my parents, no friends, and just found out there is an N/A meeting in my city that has a blue door outside of its place to get into it, lol. Do I walk through it?
 
NA isnt for everyone, its personal preference.
It could be your salvation or a complete waste of time. Its all about how you follow a 12 step, and your attitude on changing. Id give it a meeting. everyone there is so welcoming and helpful, and having a sponsor to call in tough times is a positive that comes from NA. so whatever you choose, best of luck to you man.

And congrats on your 2 weeks, thats awesome man
 
Congratulations on quitting drugs. NA is worth a try but it all depends on who you are and how you utilize what you're given in the meetings. But you need to learn to take opportunities in life now that you are becoming clean. It will create a whole new world for you if you make decisions out of the ordinary. I mean it's those decisions that control our life anyway, so why not give yourself a good path?
 
NA combined with faith brought me to a wonderful state of mind. Shit it gave me my faith back. I was in the program for about 4 years and will be back in sometime here. I've been to conventions, chaired meetings, got active, all that shit.
I went to my first rave when i was 14, I'm still involved but i only say that because i got introduced to shit way young too.

The longer you're clean the better you'll get to know yourself and the more spiritual you will become. Fuck yeah walk through those doors, I can't reccomend another door better for you to walk into right now. Take what you want to from it, share your story get that shit out man.
 
If nothing else it will give you people to call that aren't gonna tempt you to get high.
That's ultimately what it was for me I didn't get that far in the steps but it gave me sober good friends and the time to clear my head.
 
You should definitely try NA out. To be honest the meetings weren't really for me cuz I had issues with the whole higher power and religious aspects but even so, I met some great people and my sponsor did help me get through it even though I only stayed for a few weeks. It might be a bit intimidating but you don't have anything to lose by going there - also, make sure to tell them it's your first time.
 
I'm not a big fan of the religious aspect either. I do kinda need some kind of support system though. As of now I've been clean for two weeks, but my triggers to go out and to go hang out keep on coming. My old friends will start texting my phone this weekend to go get dope. Do you have any ideas on how to keep busy? I have no friends and no social life outside of the drug scene.
 
Volunteering is the best way I know to meet new people (and they are usually really nice people) and to give some structure and meaning to your own days as well.Where I live there is a Volunteer Center where you can go look through a big binder and pick something that fits for you. Some want a commitment because they actually train you but there are others that are just drop in (like trail maintenance at a local hiking place or a beach clean-up day)

I'm glad you decided to go to the meetings. Don't let the religious aspect prevent you from defining what the higher power is for yourself. For me (in Al-anon) I made it my future self, the person that I had faith I could become. AA/NA doesn't have to be forever for everyone. It offers tools, very good ones IMO, for a better life. Those tools are essential even outside addiction. The serenity prayer for example is one of the best bits of wisdom I have ever seen. Some things you can just internalize and they become part of your own compass for living. For me, understanding that I have the wisdom to know what I can and cannot change was a lifesaver.

Have you tried telling your friends that you are trying to quit? Are any of them maybe on the edge of making that decision themselves?
 
herbavore said:
Volunteering is the best way I know to meet new people (and they are usually really nice people) and to give some structure and meaning to your own days as well.Where I live there is a Volunteer Center where you can go look through a big binder and pick something that fits for you. Some want a commitment because they actually train you but there are others that are just drop in (like trail maintenance at a local hiking place or a beach clean-up day)
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That is o cool they have that in your town! I wonder if there is something similar in mine.... it sounds like a wonderful resource.

brainquote, this is coming from someone w/ one foot in NA (which they tell you in the meetings not to do) b/c I don't subscribe to the higher power appeal, nor do I adopt well their philosophy. I've tried to fully induct the program into my life, and I've also fully shunned it. Personally, where I've arrived is the meetings help in keeping me grounded amongst other sober people. I disagree w/ most of them, I don't have a sponsor, and I don't work the steps, but I look forward to seeing people I've met at meetings (and usually arguing w/ them :) ). Also, if you do work the program and have a sponsor and immerse yourself within the milieu, it isn't unrealistic to believe someone may help you w/ a job opportunity. Helping others is a big part of their program.
 
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