The Bliss Of Ecstasy...

So here I am at Garrison's once again, this whole week has been a complete trip. I haven't done this many drugs or made this many friends in a very long time. 6.... I took SIX rolls, I have never done this much X my life. Reminds of the summer in Lawton... just making memories, embracing the moment and doing whatever feels right. Awesome music, awesome people, awesome ecstacy. I doubt I will remember typing this, so I am writing to remind myself when I look back to not lose this memory. Music: Shpongle, TOOL, NIN, Aphex Twin, etc. Company: Mista Garrison, Sunne, David, and Chris. We all feel completely perfect..... this spot right now....high, always high.... but such a different high than opiates or benzodiazepines... X makes you forget that you need something else, for a moment I do not feel like an addict. I feel free, not constantly thinking where to get the next pills.... or waking up at 5 to go to the fucking methadone clinic. Just completely in a different state of consciousness. Too fucked up to keep writing anything meaningful or entertaining so.... peace.

(March 28, 2009)

 

6 pills is A LOT. I used to eat that many pills on a regular basis and am definitely suffering for it now. Be careful!

 

Agreed. E is a lot harder on the brain than opiates oddly enough. Taking that much at once either means that you're getting weak pills, or that you're doing a lot of damage. Not necessarily irreparable damage mind you, but long-term for sure.

Be careful. Try to hold on to your memory of the experience. E can cause some memory issues, among other things. Which is terrible, because it really is such a beautiful experience.