The blessing in the curse

[rapidbadger]

Right before my last relapse, I felt so much despair knowing that it's gonna send me back to the hell I once was in but I felt helpless to change the decision, so in an intense moment of despair I prayed for God to be with me on this and help turn it into something good, I got a strong feeling that my prayer was answered. But it was so terrible the relapse, I was wondering how could any good possibly come from. I couldn't sleep at all, I started to get ultra paranoid about my situation l, my heart was pounding and feeling all this shame and guilt on top of it. So in the midst of all that I centered and became meditative and started to rub my chest saying "it's okay, don't worry, im here with you". This worked like magic, I took huge deep breaths of relief, my heart slowed down, i felt way better, the paranoia went away. So there's a lesson in this. I should be doing this regularly to calm my anxiety and PTSD type stuff.

 

[kris66]

I'm glad you were able to find some peace. I've tried to calm myself down before also. I say go with what works

 

[rapidbadger]

I'm glad you were able to find some peace. I've tried to calm myself down before also. I say go with what works

Yeah I used to just take benzos or other sedatives but this traumatizes you in a way because you never really resolve the sense of despair that your body feels. But using techniques to calm yourself down, this helps you in the long run. They should teach this in schools really. Instead of teaching geometry and algebra and all kinds of useless bullshit..

 

[kris66]

I'm trying to get off benzos now. Definitely makes for some anxious times. Better to be avoided if possible. I wish I had! But hindsight is 20/20.

Yes you are right. Someone needs to teach these things.

 

[rapidbadger]

I'm trying to get off benzos now. Definitely makes for some anxious times. Better to be avoided if possible. I wish I had! But hindsight is 20/20.

Yes you are right. Someone needs to teach these things.

It's hard. I got some tips for you. Magnesium taurate is really good, it stopped me from having seizures when I jumped off cold turkey once. If you've never abused GHB or phenibut, them baclofen can help you sleep, but don't use too long because it has withdrawals of its own. Same goes for pregabalin. Joining NA helps. It doesn't make sense how but the psychological side of things actually affects your physiology. Do the 12 step program. Exercise every day. Drink loads of water. These are things I used to neglect when withdrawing, but I learned that you recover MUCH faster when you treat it like a holistic thing.

 

[kris66]

Thanks for the tips! It's odd how something like drinking lots of water can help but it really does! I need to force myself to get out and exercise though. I have no energy. I'm so upset with myself for getting into this situation, I'm not young anymore. Getting on this stuff was one of my biggest mistakes. I need to buy the magnesium taurate.

 

[Jnowhere]

Yeah I used to just take benzos or other sedatives but this traumatizes you in a way because you never really resolve the sense of despair that your body feels. But using techniques to calm yourself down, this helps you in the long run. They should teach this in schools really. Instead of teaching geometry and algebra and all kinds of useless bullshit..

Yeah like reading, writing and math.
There illiterate and have to take their shoes of to count past 10 but they have great unearned self esteem and, entitlement will follow.

This country is falling behind in education and the kids are getting dumber and more self centered.
And guess what, they need a good education, because all the worth while jobs that don't require a college diploma, apprenticeship, and skills are disappearing. The job of the schools is teach you so you learn, not to sit around trying to make you feel happy and proud for no reason.