Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
4) We are all the same force of consciousness experiencing itself subjectively in a great many ways all at once.
My 2C-E trip was far, far more intense and terrifying. I put mushrooms first just because it was my first trip, really, and it was beautiful in a more perfect and manageable way. It was extremely mentally intense but physically, if I took the same amount today, I'd probably at +2. I took the most away from it... it's been the one psychedelic experience I have always thought of as perfect. It still influences me the most of any experience I've ever had. I think a large part of that was that it was my first trip ever. But also, mushrooms feel extremely spiritual to me, whereas 2C-E was entirely logical. At the time I wrote that report, I was coming up, peaking, and coming down from the trip, and then I summarized it the morning after, so some of what I say in there doesn't really still apply. For example, I wouldn't say I respect 2C-E more than mushrooms now. Actually given my experience with phenethylamines, especially 2Cs, I fear mushrooms more these days. It's just that at the time, I was absolutely blown away.
Another example of something I'd change if I re-wrote that 2C-E report today is the whole void vs. lifeforce thing. After a lot of integration and more tripping, and ketamine, I'm more inclined to think that my ego death was just far more complete on 2C-E. My mushroom trip was just heavy ego dissolution but far from death. It was as if "I" shrunk down to an insignificant size but I was still there, and the rest of the collective experience of the universe was also there for me to access. I felt very whole and complete and satisfying. 2C-E brought me farther than that, to where I feel as if I was experiencing raw existence as the universal force of consciousness, but to the point where I was on the brink of losing all sense of subjective experience rather than being immersed in the sea of collective experience, which left this gaping void that felt really, really frightening. But I believe they were both showing me the same thing from a different angle.
Yeah, I've had my most difficult trip(s) by far on mushrooms as well, but that was years ago now, and due to insecurities I no longer have. I never wrote those up, though, unfortunately.
If you want to read more of my trip reports, most of them are here on my Erowid author page (which goes by a different name. I'm seeing if they can change it): http://www.erowid.org/experiences/e...tle=&AuthorSearch=&A1=188&Lang=&Group=-1&Str=
My 2C-E trip was far, far more intense and terrifying. I put mushrooms first just because it was my first trip, really, and it was beautiful in a more perfect and manageable way. It was extremely mentally intense but physically, if I took the same amount today, I'd probably at +2. I took the most away from it... it's been the one psychedelic experience I have always thought of as perfect. It still influences me the most of any experience I've ever had. I think a large part of that was that it was my first trip ever. But also, mushrooms feel extremely spiritual to me, whereas 2C-E was entirely logical. At the time I wrote that report, I was coming up, peaking, and coming down from the trip, and then I summarized it the morning after, so some of what I say in there doesn't really still apply. For example, I wouldn't say I respect 2C-E more than mushrooms now. Actually given my experience with phenethylamines, especially 2Cs, I fear mushrooms more these days. It's just that at the time, I was absolutely blown away.
Another example of something I'd change if I re-wrote that 2C-E report today is the whole void vs. lifeforce thing. After a lot of integration and more tripping, and ketamine, I'm more inclined to think that my ego death was just far more complete on 2C-E. My mushroom trip was just heavy ego dissolution but far from death. It was as if "I" shrunk down to an insignificant size but I was still there, and the rest of the collective experience of the universe was also there for me to access. I felt very whole and complete and satisfying. 2C-E brought me farther than that, to where I feel as if I was experiencing raw existence as the universal force of consciousness, but to the point where I was on the brink of losing all sense of subjective experience rather than being immersed in the sea of collective experience, which left this gaping void that felt really, really frightening. But I believe they were both showing me the same thing from a different angle.
Yeah, I've had my most difficult trip(s) by far on mushrooms as well, but that was years ago now, and due to insecurities I no longer have. I never wrote those up, though, unfortunately.
If you want to read more of my trip reports, most of them are here on my Erowid author page (which goes by a different name. I'm seeing if they can change it): http://www.erowid.org/experiences/e...tle=&AuthorSearch=&A1=188&Lang=&Group=-1&Str=
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