i just don't like to open myself emotionally, never have. i wish i could elaborate more, if i could, it might solve the problem lol
i just feel uncomfortable, it is line i have never been able to cross.
don't misundersand what i said, when i said "just a fuck" i don't mean with people other than my husband, i have never been unfaithful, we have a great sex life, but with psychs, it does take it to another level, and it isn't comfortable for me. just like i can't open up to him about a lot of feelings i have. for example, the other night, i had a bit to drink and really opened up a lot with some feelings i have had over the past few years, and shared myself emotionally, and he was in tears and said he wished i did that more often, it was the first time.
anyway, we are derailing, this is more of a topic to move to another forum, but i don't wanna. :D