magical mushrooms!
hey guys and gals, new to the site, and have to say it has a plethora of information!! My question involves shrooms and how to improve my trips. If this is in the wrong section or if i have violated a rule i apologize in advance.
I have only eaten mushrooms 3 times, and have yet to have a good experience. I am going to be lacking a lot of info about the amount i ate each time. The shrooms i get come in chocolates. The first time i tripped with 2 friends (1 male 1 female) and we each at 1 1/3 piece. Only my guy buddy had tripped before, and that was with LSD. We had a great time going around and looking at christmas lights and being all giddy and stuff. I had amazing visuals (trees swaying, everything seemed to breathe, paintings in my friends house did crazy shit etc. ) Everything was great until we were chilling in my friends living room. After a while all 3 of us noticed a real tense feeling in the room, like we were judging each other or something. we tried to talk about it and that everything was cool, but it ended with my buddy going to bed and this chick getting a ride home, and when we all went our separate ways i felt like my friends were maybe just negative vibes? i dont know.
I know this is long, i just dont know where else to get good info!
The second time i tripped i had a horrible horrible experience. I bought a lot of these chocolates to take back to school with me and have for myself and friends. One evening (after winning the BCS championship, wink wink) i decided to trip a little. I started with eating one chocolate, followed by 2 more about an hour later. I blacked out a bit or something because i cant remember all of the trip. I remember sitting on my couch having crazy crazy visuals, but i couldn't keep my eyes open i was so tired. The next thing i know is i am in my bed and it feels like someone is grabbing my legs, so i hop up freaking out and start turning on lights (mind you i have a small apt. ) . I went to my living room to lay on the couch and started hearing noises outside, like people yelling for me and banging on my window. I started freaking out again and went into my bedroom, only to find my blanket and sheets SMEARED in red chunks (i ate a lot of chili that night and had maybe 4 beers, and mind you i'm an old school pro when it comes to drinking). Once i saw the red chunks i thought i had killed myself and i was in hell or something like a different dimension, stuck there. I finally figured out i was not dead but i still couldn't figure out what the puke was (it didn't look like puke when tripping, it was definatly blood or something). Then i started thinking i had murdered someone and the cops were at the door, this progressed by me thinking that the world was ending and i had caused all of these problems and judgement was coming. I got on my laptop, thinking the internet had answers or something. I couldn't surf the web to save my life so i went into itunes... all of my songs were titled things like "its all your fault" "you are selfish" etc... basically all of the songs were pointing out every flaw a person could ever have (obviously these were't the real song titles). I thought the battery meter on my laptop was the countdown to my demise, and my computer was dying quick haha. Eventually i started coming down, and ended up chainsmoking almost a pac of smokes as i sat on my couch trying to figure out what was happening. Finally around 3 a.m. i was straight, but decided to just stay up because i was to scared to sleep plus my bed was COVERED in puke (i know i'm lucky i didn't choke on it i suppose).
So that was trip #2......not to good to say the least.
The last time i tripped was with 2 male friends of mine that i play hockey with. We each ate 2 ( my bad trip was only like 4-5 days before so i was a little nervous, but was excited and wanted to conquer my fear, plus take a lower dose).
So all 3 of us had 2. It started as usual (my description as "usual" is a light headed feeling and giggling and an overall rubbery feeling). Once the trip really started setting in we decided to watch "across the universe." It was cool, but a little to intense for me, so i would just look away from time to time and stare at things. I felt really hot, and was sweating in my armpits and hands. At one point, about 1 1/2 hours before the trip ended i had to break the silence and ask my friends if they minded turning off the movie because it was starting upset me.. hard to explain, i just felt really really insecure and an overall sadness. My friends turned it off, and i started to do better, but asked my friends if we could engage in actual conversation to help ease my nerves, so we talked about shit like the universe, religion, etc.. which turned my mood a complete 180, and about the time i was coming down i was wanting it to kick up again, but was outa chocolate.
Hey folks i know that was long, and I appreciate it if you decided to read it. I forgot to add some personal background info - i'm 23, and was in the Marines, where i fought in Iraq and was wounded. I know that is probably a HUGE RED FLAG for psychedelics, but the thing is even in my horrible experience, Iraq and the military wasn't even thought of, and i have tons of memorabilia and stuff in my apt, but never had anything negative from it. One other weird thing is that my throat feels swollen when i am tripping, and that always makes me uneasy. It feels kind of tough to breathe (plenty of air goes in, its just like mild hyperventilation) . I really want to enjoy tripping, but am obviously doing something wrong. I want to use it not only for fun, but spiritually since i have heard you can connect with different life forms and spiritual beings.
Please, any advise is better than none.