Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
It was extremely vivid (but not lucid) dreams. They were more fantastical/magical feeling than my usual dreams and far more solid. In fact for about 12 years prior to the experience I had had a very nearly nonexistent dream life, if I remembered dreams it was like I remembered flashes of them as if I had seen a movie, when waking up. There was no sense of participating in them, it was more like watching them. During ibogaine, I was participating in them in the moment, thinking, making decisions, etc. But I had absolutely no awareness that I was dreaming, it was just my new reality each time. They often had nothing to do with my life, in fact only rarely was I even me. In retrospect I understood how they were representative of me and my situation but at the time I had no remembrance of opiates or taking ibogaine. The dreams were really fantastical and strange for the most part. When I took my follow-up dose 6 days after the flood (much lower but still solid dose), I retained a baseline underlying awareness that I was having dream visions most of the time, but it was the same sort of thing, a series of fantastical vivid dreams. But it was the same as in normal dreams where you might experience things in third person sometimes, or things might suddenly skip ahead but you are seamlessly aware of the whole storyline still.
Interestingly, ever since then I have dreamed differently, my dreams remind me a lot of my ibogaine dreams and are so much more vivid and frequent and I experience them viscerally and am very in-the-moment (but also not lucid).
I have been thinking lately that I want to get some more ibogaine/TA and take a 4 year follow-up dose, not a full flood but a nice visionary dose.
Interestingly, ever since then I have dreamed differently, my dreams remind me a lot of my ibogaine dreams and are so much more vivid and frequent and I experience them viscerally and am very in-the-moment (but also not lucid).
I have been thinking lately that I want to get some more ibogaine/TA and take a 4 year follow-up dose, not a full flood but a nice visionary dose.