450mcg Yesterday
The trip itself was a true ++++, and that's for someone who is(was?) completely 0% spiritual in any way. I was melted into a soup of everything and everyone and well let's say I got the message, and that it was beautiful. I will try not to go into that stuff much
The come up was actually very intense, it was coming on strong within 20mins and I had that feeling you have when you know you are going in too deep, but you're not there yet. Yeah "I'm fucked" After 50mins I could no longer text anyone because the writing was all over the screen and was pink and green. I couldn't walk straight, I was stumbling about, I was worried. But, whenever I actually analyzed the situation, I wasn't being taken away anywhere and I had complete control of my mind. It continued to intensify until about 2 hours.
At about the 2-2.5 hour mark, it started to level out. The worry and even problems walking that I had coming up were fading fast and it started to feel as comfortable as an AL-LAD trip. The visuals were out of this world like I've never had. CEV's were like this:
http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs70/i/2010/121/6/e/The_Path_by_Cavemandd.jpg (But much more crisp, 100% crisp) but it was all animated, moving and entirely new scene each second, living and breathing.
By 3 hours, I was already comfortable enough to go outside to the park. On the way I noticed how all the plants looked HD, even the ones in the distance had the same level of details as the ones up close. I had that typical lysergamide clone tool visuals you get when looking at trees, but it was just so clear. Large tree's and their bark were fixated in my vision, it didn't look like I was walking around them it looked like they were 2D sprites always facing me and turning towards me.
Even though I felt very very comfortble and confident, even around so many people, I felt that if someone tried to talk to me I'd have absolutely no idea what I was doing and jump like a scared cat. I tested this out when buying ice cream, yes it was awkward
Oh I have to pick flavours? Fuck, I knew 'd fuck something up. Oh, yeah I should look at the flavours... ok...
I went home because even though only a tiny bit got on my face, it felt like I'd spilled the entire thing down my face and clothes and was getting obsessed with wiping my already clean face, clean.
At home (about +4 hours or so) I lied down and listened to music. Something amazing happened, It felt exactly like when a strong shroom trip takes over you. The music was incredible, I started to feel a part of it, I've never had music sound this good on LSD, only on shrooms. The visuals and music together were just amazing, I felt myself slipping away, I was melting into this spiritual fractal world, and it wasn't scary, it was amazing. I wanted it to take me, at the moment I felt like I could leave everything behind and just exist like that forever. It was a complete breakthrough, with much deeper things than I am going to say here but hopefully you get the point.
Now here is the weird part. I've had very strong (not spiritual) experiences on LSD and Shrooms. I've had ego loss, ego reduction, stuck in infinity, all that kind of stuff. On ETH-LAD, I was way deeper in, but... It was so clear headed. It was so clear headed that I could've gone downstairs, to the door and get a pizza delivery or something. I could've made a cup of tea, I could've gone to the office and done a day's work. But put those headphones back on, lie down, become one with the bed, one with the music, one with everyone and everything and feel that everyone and everything is you. I had not lost my sense of self, actually it was more like gaining a sense of self. I know that to get to those levels on LSD or shrooms takes a whole lot, 400+ug or 5+grams. And at that point you are as debilitated as I was during the come up, if not worse, both mentally and physically out there.
Trying to compare this to AL-LAD and 1P-LSD/LSD.
It shares a lot of things from both at the same time. It is visually intense like AL-LAD, but if you know the differences between AL-LAD and LSD visuals and not just that AL-LAD is "more visual" - then I'd have to say the visuals were LSD visuals at AL-LAD intensity.
In terms of headspace, I didn't feel like it was very introspective in the way that you look inside yourself and find the answers, or the questions. In that sense it was closer to AL-LAD, actually very similar. It wasn't quite as clear headed, because it has the LSD feeling of 100 people being in your head at once. What it shared with LSD, and something I've never felt on 1P or AL-LAD is that deep connectedness with other people, nature, life. It was actually so much deeper than I've ever felt, without trying to be biased by the ++++ stuff which is probably not repeatable.
Music was much better than I've heard on other lysergamides. I usually say music sounds the best on shrooms and I get the most emotion off of it from 2c-e, but this was like the best parts of shrooms + 2c-e for music.
Body load was intense during the first 2 hours, and then there was basically none. There was a body high, and my bed felt like the most comfortable thing that ever existed. It still does the next day
Duration was about the same as LSD, it felt like the peak was a bit shorter but maybe I just felt that because of how quickly it came on.
I feel amazing and completely at peace. I'm not really sure what else to add, feel free to ask! I will check back.
