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The Big & Dandy Ego Death Thread

I'm so used to tripping that my ego is fleeting even in day to day life.

my stress levels have also never been lower and my mind is very adaptable now
 
Was this ego death?

I had taken a decent amount of shrooms a while back and recently started to look into ego death, just out of curiosity from seeing it mentioned. When i looked into the FAQ on it, I found myself asking is that what I experienced.

I ate about 5-6 g's of some of the best shrooms I have ever had, and as I sat at the table playing poker I was so lost in thought and confusion I actually scared the people around me.

I sat there thinking who am I? Why am i here? Who are these people? Why am I with these people? What is this place we live? What are drugs? Did I take drugs to feel this?

When told it was my turn, I just asked at what? And when I was told my turn for poker, I just asked what is poker?

Was this ego death, or was it just confusion from a dose of shrooms in a bad setting, or a bit of both?

Any insight would be wonderful, and very much appreciated.
 
true ego death results in a complete loss of identity. While you may have been close, the fact that you were lucid enough to talk and think at least a little would say to me that no, this was not ego death

damn close though
 
Sounds closer to a dissociation/depersonalisation style o' thing to me - mushrooms can get pretty dissociative at higher doses. As mentioned, ego death (for me at least) tends to put you in a timeless state where you are basically floating in nothingness with no concept of everyday reality whatsoever. It's rare and it's beautiful <3
 
certainly was not ego death- in fact it doesnt even seem that close if you were still able to respond (fairly) appropriatly to questions. like shambles said more a dissociation than anyhthing. tons of people claim to have experienced ego death, i doubt 90% actually have.
 
angelicknights said:
I sat there thinking who am I? Why am i here? Who are these people? Why am I with these people? What is this place we live? What are drugs? Did I take drugs to feel this?
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Notice how many times you wrote the word "I". It was not ego death. During ego death, there is no "I" and I doubt it is possible for there to be other "people".
 
I've gotten there too, exactly like the OP but I was by myself outside, and the whole "what am I?" thing led to me questioning my existence, and then having to prove my own existence to myself.
 
Ramirez said:
I've gotten there too, exactly like the OP but I was by myself outside, and the whole "what am I?" thing led to me questioning my existence, and then having to prove my own existence to myself.
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How'd that go for ya? I still aint found nothing that confirms my own existence....:D
 
i experinced ego death on a high dose of 4-aco-dmt combined with 500mg of mbdb i was completly in my own head didnt kno what was happening and all i could see was loads of walls of televisions showing me things i cant even explain i didnt even know what I was or what It was just total ego loss it was an amzing experince - my friend just said i lay on my bed with my eyes closed for over an hour mumbling sentences that made no sence - i snorted around 60mg of 4-aco-dmt over the space on an hour. defo a level 5 mushroom based trip as 4-aco-dmt converts to psylobin.

was this ego death? if not it bloody felt like it afterwords i was totaly amazed at what hapened when i came out of it was so happy for everything life had for me and was so happy to be alive a bit like the buzz i got after coming out of a very intence 5-meo-dmt trip
 
i think a mindblowingly intense psychedelic trip is rarely true ego death. ive tripped hundreds of times, many times on huge doses of psychedelics and only had ego death once. read shambles description, thats as close as i could put it in words.
 
As this is developing into a wider discussion of the ego death phenomenon I'm gonna merge this in with the main ego death thread I think. It's probably the most fascinating subject in all of psychedelia to my mind - it's truly beyond words... but we've managed to get 17 pages into a B&D thread discussing it with words so for those wondering what folks mean by the term maybe have a read of some of those words cos there are some excellent ones therein. And they're neatly arranged into sentences for your love and enjoyment :)
 
daysonatrain said:
i think a mindblowingly intense psychedelic trip is rarely true ego death. ive tripped hundreds of times, many times on huge doses of psychedelics and only had ego death once. read shambles description, thats as close as i could put it in words.
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Yeah i must admit i've only experienced it twice out of many many trips. The first time been on a large dose of N'N-DMT and the second on a high dose of Mushrooms.

I've come close to achieving a sensation close to ego-death through Kundalini Meditation as-well, but no where near on the scale of the two above substances.
 
Salvia is the only drug I've done that produces undeniable ego-death. I have yet to do DMT... A large dose of mescaline broke down my concept of humanity/societal norms/etc, but I still knew I was a person.
 
before my one and only ego death experience, i had consumed over twice my body weight in shrooms, over a couple of years. This one night, my mate and i decided to eat 40gm of powdered shroomage each. Wont go into details but it was the most horrifying experience of my life. All i could picture, for what seemed like years, was complete darkness with one bright light much like a star. Everything that had ever existed was contained within it, including myself but at the same time, I was the star. Ever since then, any shroom trip leaves me feeling as if i've been reborn into life.

I experience the same kind of thing with DMT, but i don't see it as being on the same level because that is what you are actually trying to achieve with it. The whole blown into another universe thing
 
heythatsmybike said:
All i could picture, for what seemed like years, was complete darkness with one bright light much like a star. Everything that had ever existed was contained within it, including myself but at the same time, I was the star.
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Yeah i will often experience the same type of sensation of Universal Oneness/Aloneness, DMT and Mushrooms have both produced this very similar effect. It's one thing to understand it and another entirely to experience 'complete' aloneness.

Ken Wilber does a short explanation of this in one of his video's, going from the alone to the Alone, singular consciousness.
 
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LSD and Ego Death

Holy fuck is it intense :/

i know i got my tab from a legit source but i noticed it was a lil bigger, not much bigger, just a lil n it was so wrinkly n looked just fucking soaked!!!!
ive taken up to 6 hits of that infamous White Fluff and didnt experience ego death!

1 hit of this stuff and me and 2 friends all felt ego death and it was just so confusing feeling like reality would change n i would be a new person in so many places at once at diffrent times, it happened so many times i honestly got lost n didnt know who I was or where i was. I freaked xD but on the comedown, it was a truley learning experience. I feel bad for my friend, it was her very first time taking it and this happened and she was so scared :(

its odd, ive only heard of ego death occuring in high doses of something like 5+ hits n such (just an example) no one, not even the guy we got it from expected this from 1 single hit, but man, thats some high grade Acid right there haha

have you guys experienced ego death on LSD? what was it like?
 
The strongest dose i have taken is 5 and a half decent tabs. I felt like i was tripping at the edge of reality.
I was still capable of distinguishing reality from thought/hallucination but barely. With a different set an setting i definitely could have pushed myself over the edge at that dose, but being cooped up in a hotel room for the duration wasn't the best location for tripping...
 
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