Yesterday I did 80mg (spaced out over about 2 hours) of diphenidine with 150mg of pregabalin and found the experience more pleasant and less chaotic than the time I did it with etizolam. It was still completely mind warping and confusing but I managed to carry out my preassigned task of watching a youtube hypnotic induction. I cant be hypnotised when I'm sober so I wanna know if it'll work when my concious mind isn't functioning normally. I think it worked to a degree, I need to experiment with it more though. Interesting note: I think I cured my negative relationship with cannabis. I smoked some cannabis at the tail end of the diphenidine and for a good 20 minutes I was very high but not the least bit paranoid, then I remembered that cannabis is supposed to have bad effects on me and slowly things started turning bad until I felt all the psychosis effects I usually do, then I realised that its all in my head and I reversed it again. I tested this out by taking a massive dose and not the slightest bit of paranoia. Very interesting.
Has anyone mapped out a timeline yet, from ingestion until your "fully" back to normal? Yesterday I thought I was normal enough to go back into the world and I tried to engage in a conversation but found that I couldn't talk. I could think about what I wanted to say, but I couldn't actually verbalise it so I was just mumbling and saying short, incomplete sentences.
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Another interesting note: Yesterday after smoking the cannabis, I noticed my mind was rapping, everything I was thinking about my mind was converting into rap lyrics along with the tune. This might be a good substance for music producers, I was hearing rap music I'd never heard before, some of it was pretty good. Weird stuff. Why rap? Why not country music or reggae? Maybe in the future it'll be a different genre. Hopefully drum n bass thats my favorite. All in all, I am really glad I found this substance (or this substance found me). I didn't know if it was even possible to reverse that negative reaction I had to cannabis, I tried to solve it with ayahuasca in the past, and here out of the blue diphenidine solves it for me. It was a profoundly interesting observation because the moment I remembered that cannabis is supposed to make me psychotic, things started turning darker over about 10 minute period until I was paralysed with a sense of terror, but then I thought, fuck this its only myself bringing on this negative state, I'm gonna change it and it worked. It didn't happen instantly, it took about 5 minutes for that paralysing terror to dissipate, and about 20 minutes until I was in a neutral state again. I did multiple tests to make sure it wasn't just a coincidence, after the DP and cannabis had worn off I tried taking large doses of cannabis, then after that tried UR-144 and the psychosis was gone.
does anyone think i should transcribe the notebook?
edit: i am quite impressed at my ability to keep a record of the most striking moments of our "conversation" despite being on 215mg of the stuff myself. this wouldnt be possible on ketamine. but ketamine and other dissociatives just lost the magic for me, they never fuck with my mind like this stuff does anymore, not even if i iv them. couldnt imagine what would happen if i iv'ed this stuff. not planning to lol.
I haven't been following the thread fully so I don't know exactly what you're talking about but I say yeah, transcribe it. I have a feeling whatever you're talking about transcribing will be some mind bogglingly interesting shit.