Well, my childhood was messed up, so I developed OCD, 2 bouts of depression and Paranoia around 11-14. Nothing drug related.But I am past that now, and would know how to come out of it if it happend again. So does that mean Im never allowed to take a psychadelic just because years ago I had them?
It is completely up to you to decide whether you are "allowed" to take psychedelics. You must look at studies, facts, and other people's experiences, and decide for yourself whether the risks outweigh the benefits, as in any rather major decision in life.
Psychedelics can precipitate paranoia and they can bring nasty suppressed emotions up to surface. If you have any suppressed emotion or paranoia, psychedelics may cause you to deal with these issues, for better or for worse.
How long ago did you have these symptoms, i.e. you said this was when you were 11-14, so how old are you now?
I can only tell you the facts, it's up to you to decide whether you want to dive into the world of psychedelia. If you do decide to, I would strongly advise that you err on the side of caution and not dive head first.
Personally, I don't know anyone who has freaked out from their first time tripping out, al though some people have had bad trips when doing psychedelics irresponsibly, such as taking a dose higher than they could handle, doing psychedelics more often than they can handle mentally, or tripping during times of emotional upheaval. Always make sure you are not the least bit apprehensive about tripping before you do, especially for the first time. It would be a good idea to have a good friend or possibly two friends that you trust with you while you are tripping, preferably sober in case you encounter any turbulence while flying. If you have any well trusted friends that have any experience with psychedelics, they could be extremely useful in the case that you need to be talked down out of a bad trip. If none of your friends have had any experience with psychedelics, a like minded friend who is also interested in psychedelics and has some general information is important. I had a friend who had a bad trip with people who were completely unfamiliar with psychedelics and they didn't know how to deal with him. A friend reassuring that it's just a drug and you'll be fine could have diverted this bad trip.
If you have access to any benzos, such as valium, xanax etc. they can come in handy if you encounter a bad trip. They aren't necessary, I've never had to use any to redirect a trip, but it's always good to be as prepared as possible. Alcohol, or mild sedatives such as kava kava can also help redirect a tense trip if you don't have access to benzos. Most people like to go into a trip with a clear mind, but personally I usually drink a few beers before I drop acid, and drink a few more while waiting for the acid to kick in. For me, 4 or 5 beers helps calm my nerves and prepares me for the ride. If you do decide to trip and if you start to feel uncomfortable or negative, always remember it's just a drug that lasts temporarily. You must always understand that you
will come down, the high is not permanent. This reassurance can be enough to divert bad trip into a good one.
I wish I had all of this information the first time I tripped! The first time I took a psychedelic, I took a single hit of LSD without any planning, completely spontaneously, and luckily I had one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I can see you are more mature than I was since you are asking questions and researching before deciding whether to trip or not, unlike me. If you treat psychedelics with the respect and reverence they deserve, they can be an unfathomably powerful ally, both spiritually and psychologically. But, always remember there is a yin to every yang, a negative for every positive. You can not have one without the other. Furthermore, al though positive and comfortable trips can be the most ecstatic, difficult psychedelic experiences
can be the most important, or conversely difficult psychedelic experiences can also have devastating effects on the unwitting mind.
. i just dont think these things are as easy to get as people think (though i have come across some of the 2c's before)
