have anyone on here been spiritually vivisected by the stuff.
I mean fundamentally, i have been through alot as a person.
I was adopted, told i was adopted alot,
just alot of childhood bullshit which works it's way out itself it seems.
sometimes when i'm tripping, i don't want to relive the darkness that happened.
Psilocin, MDMA, LSD, those never really brought any attention to it.
2c-e was one that definitely was spiritually intense to my ego and made me cry and wonder why a few times.
But it always gave me answers.
First i'd say 7-8 times i did it were magnificent, just glorious displays of heavenly wonder
a strong euphoria and this sense of synchroncity as if all of the events of my life were building to this point, this very point and i would feel like i was god, and i could shoot color out of my finger tips.
I had one bad trip, which was directly correlated to my girlfriend having an anxiety attack. in correlation to being unable to get ahold of her mother.
this was about a year and a half ago and i have been nervous about doing it ever sense.
Basically because i know her so well, multiply that by the fact i was so very high, her anxiety rubbed off into the psychic field if you will and i experienced what she was experiencing.
Only Psychedelically. My roommate who was tripping with me also experienced the same phenomena.
He got very anxious and the rainbow colors melted into dark coils and they would bend and
twist and we couldn't sit still and we just felt very uneasy....
After talking her down//her getting ahold of her mom, there was some residual anxiety in us, and it kind of astounded us that it happened.
I never once before had a bad experience on 2c-e before that day.
But it was horrifying. More horrifying than when i transcended LIFE on DPT.
i snorted a VERY LARGE amount of DPT. Somewhere between 150-175 foolishly my first time, expecting more of dmtesque experience. i had a very strong out of this earth psychedelic experience where i was swept up into the sky by rainbow horsemen who chained me up there, my perspective with my "souleyes" open was of that of me being up in the sky looking down at myself on the ground.
my perspective with my eyes open on the ground was that of infinite color and waves of just unlimited visual.
my perspective with my eyes in the sky closed was that of myself living out multiple lives all synchronistically in different points in history. Kind of like
I was a Pirate and all of the people that i know, and knew, were different people aboard my vessel.
I was an Indian in a Tribe looking after my family who was sick and dying and feeling hopeless.
there was something like 8-12 20 minutes movies that played out for 3 hours and the 4 hour was just intense spiritual and physical correlations with my backyard.
a Cicada flew by my head and i felt like it was the strongest most intelligent being on the planet.
Now, i only SMOKE DPT

lol. For as intense and as amazing as it was there is a part of me that is like NOW YOU KNOW, Don't Do that again.
anyways. I want to take 2c-e again. I don't want to be scared though. I want to have FUN
I think i'm going to combine it with a pinch of AMT just to see if it gives me a more positive upswing.
I just feel like by typing all of this i'm kind of getting intentions to spirits known,
and if anyone could wish me a namaste for this journey i'm about to partake that would be wonderful.
also anyone have experience with the following.
2c-e Bad Trips.
and
how to relax the mind, when something, out of your control is going to happen anyways.