jakoz
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Is there beauty in the world? Is there?
I find myself inclined to agree and disagree with this.
To a newborn? Imagine it. Everything would be beautiful and colourful.
New.
Amazing.
Unexpected.
I've always thought that being born must be the most terrifying experience imaginable. How could anything compare to that?
But reading the words that came to mind, it's not that different to anything I've been trying to experience since. New? Check. Amazing? Check.
Ditto unexpected.
We go through every day battling the mundane and the boring. We fight the repetitive and the monotonous. As Stephen King once said, we rush through everything so that we can do something else.
I wish I could be born again. And remember every bit. What could compare?
For a time, I thought that everything was new. Everything was pure and magical and significant. Then I found that any of those could, under the right conditions, be repeated. And repeated. Then those experiences became old.
So I searched for new experiences. I met new people. I did a hell of a lot of weird shit. A lot of it against my nature. But what the hell... new stuff, right? I saw a lot of shit that people should never see. I did shit that no-one should ever do to people... stuff that I'm still ashamed of.
And you know what? Hardly any of it counts for anything.
Because it's surprisingly little that makes you better as a person. All the good times in the world (and believe me... I'm still trying) don't seem to enrich the core. It's easy to focus on making the edges hold, while the core falls apart.
But the beauty in the world. That's a different story. The look of rocks on the sun. The swell of a beautiful girl's breast. The wind blowing the leaves of a newly green tree in spring. Those matter. They last. I feel better for experiencing them.
They give me a sense of beauty.
And without beauty, what do we have?
I'm just thankful that I'm learning to find it.
What shows you beauty?
What gives you the pit-of-the-stomach feel? What makes you feel that you can't take it any more?
Let us experience it.
I find myself inclined to agree and disagree with this.
To a newborn? Imagine it. Everything would be beautiful and colourful.
New.
Amazing.
Unexpected.
I've always thought that being born must be the most terrifying experience imaginable. How could anything compare to that?
But reading the words that came to mind, it's not that different to anything I've been trying to experience since. New? Check. Amazing? Check.
Ditto unexpected.
We go through every day battling the mundane and the boring. We fight the repetitive and the monotonous. As Stephen King once said, we rush through everything so that we can do something else.
I wish I could be born again. And remember every bit. What could compare?
For a time, I thought that everything was new. Everything was pure and magical and significant. Then I found that any of those could, under the right conditions, be repeated. And repeated. Then those experiences became old.
So I searched for new experiences. I met new people. I did a hell of a lot of weird shit. A lot of it against my nature. But what the hell... new stuff, right? I saw a lot of shit that people should never see. I did shit that no-one should ever do to people... stuff that I'm still ashamed of.
And you know what? Hardly any of it counts for anything.
Because it's surprisingly little that makes you better as a person. All the good times in the world (and believe me... I'm still trying) don't seem to enrich the core. It's easy to focus on making the edges hold, while the core falls apart.
But the beauty in the world. That's a different story. The look of rocks on the sun. The swell of a beautiful girl's breast. The wind blowing the leaves of a newly green tree in spring. Those matter. They last. I feel better for experiencing them.
They give me a sense of beauty.
And without beauty, what do we have?
I'm just thankful that I'm learning to find it.
What shows you beauty?
What gives you the pit-of-the-stomach feel? What makes you feel that you can't take it any more?
Let us experience it.
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