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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

The BDD Social & Information Booth v17 - Bewildered? Drugged? Discuss.

Apparently I have a "benzo problem."

I had ~12mg of oxy and 110mg of vallium last night. I just don't get why it's not alright to do something everyday.
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IMO, it is only a problem when it becomes a problem. Who says you have a problem? You? Or someone else? I probably do something every day, but no one knows about it but me. I guess if others noticed that my behavior was different and commented on it/ worried about it, then I would have a "problem"

Are you using these benzos for anxiety, or just to feel something? Or as an escape from the pain you are in? I think you need to find a doctor to adequately treat your pain and go from there, just my opinion.... I feel for you, I am sending you a cyber hug.
 
Apparently I have a "benzo problem."

I had ~12mg of oxy and 110mg of vallium last night. I just don't get why it's not alright to do something everyday.


Need I go into the stories from my daily usage of 120mg valium, 12mg xanax and 2mg flunitrazepam. I'm sure you know a lot of them, but I am definitely a poster boy for why daily high dose benzo's are a bad idea..
 
I'm taking them for a mixture of all of those reasons....It's a multi-tool...It's just sometimes because of the meds that I'm already on, make it to where I will pass out and be unwakable; however I'm pretty much unwakable when I'm sober. The issue is someone needing a ride home from work from me. It's a complicated situation-just as any are. They may be right though because all I want right now is 4-6mg of xanax.
 
Hmmm... I think when drugs start to interfere with commitments then there is a "problem.". Doug, I think you have so many factors going on...I think you don't have adequate pain relief, both physically and emotionally. I think you are smart, funny and a nice guy, and that sometimes you go overboard to try to mask the various types of pain you are in.

I am not sure why I am getting so heavy in the BDD social, but there you go. Just my opinion. Feel free to take hat you want from it, or discard it.
 
Today's been productive :) started writing a "pain journal" so I can write my time of med ingestion and how I was feeling at that time. I'm not 100% there with just the tramadol, but I think they go a long way in helping (I'd say I'm 75-80% with the tramadol and baclofen). I'll have something concrete to bring with me to the doc, so I can get myself where I actually need to be, medically & through insurance. woot, so much less expensive than worrying about getting it from the street - and hopefully lower doses so I don't end up feeling like shit from it.

Anyway, I'm sorry things are tough Doug :( /hug things will pick up once again. :)
 
Ooh, pinch their little cheeks for me and give them a cuddle.

PJ - I think the pain journal is a great idea. I started keeping one for my migraines, and it really helped me notice patterns, triggers, etc. I am so glad that the tramadol/baclofen combo is getting you on the right track...sounds like maybe you need to add a third for breakthrough, and you will be all set?
 
I'm aiming for a hydrocodone 5mg with Ibuprofin (?mg) combination. I personally quite dislike paracetamol, and would like to completely avoid it. I'm thinking 2-3x per day for the 5's, waking up, noon, evening and I'll be all set, however depending the preparation, that could be up to 2,400mg of ibuprofin a day...

I would love for this relatively light combination of medications to work out for me. NOT interested in being on high-dose oxy Rx'd, to be perfectly honest.
 
That sounds like a good idea. My sister gets vicoprofen for cramps, and I quite like it. I have a huge oxy script, and every month I debate whether or not to continue....
 
Ooh, pinch their little cheeks for me and give them a cuddle.

PJ - I think the pain journal is a great idea. I started keeping one for my migraines, and it really helped me notice patterns, triggers, etc. I am so glad that the tramadol/baclofen combo is getting you on the right track...sounds like maybe you need to add a third for breakthrough, and you will be all set?

They loved the pinch and cuddle, they want their mumma to come cuddle them though.

I keep a mood diary to keep my bi-polar in check. I notice patterns and fluctuations in my mood and can recognise earlier when slipping from hypomania to mania.

Diaries are very fucking useful.

They are making a new hydrocodone with no APAP or ibu from memory, hopefully that is available soon.


I'm aiming for a hydrocodone 5mg with Ibuprofin (?mg) combination. I personally quite dislike paracetamol, and would like to completely avoid it. I'm thinking 2-3x per day for the 5's, waking up, noon, evening and I'll be all set, however depending the preparation, that could be up to 2,400mg of ibuprofin a day...

I would love for this relatively light combination of medications to work out for me. NOT interested in being on high-dose oxy Rx'd, to be perfectly honest.
 
Ooh,can't resist, hopping a plane, will be there in twenty four hours. Babies love me, big boobs you know. They always fall fast asleep in my arms. I want a real one. :(
 
That's very true - and I would enjoy those equally. However I'm trying to be nice and legit about this, and don't really want to be Rx'd something that will a) be a hot commodity, and b) be able to sniff my script. Trying to be a good boy this time, and just treat myself as I need to be so I can be a proper functioning individual in society. :)
 
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