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The BDD Social & Information Booth v17 - Bewildered? Drugged? Discuss.

Let the stim session begin :)

4-FA and pentylone! I am speeding like hell right now =D

Got work for graveyard shift tonight so I think its valid.

How is everyone?
Nice to see you back in the BDD social beachcat. Its def. nice to have more vagina in here. Speaking of vagina, I spent alot of time with my face in a vagina early this morning. It was awesome! She loved it too :)
 
^ Awww yeaaaaaaaa!

I'm waiting on the man again. My break only lasted a day, but I should be back to it again after tonight.
 
Thats all I get is a 24 hour break in between shifts for the week. It sux. Always tired, probably why I have started liking stims so much as I never liked them before. Wow, 4-FA is coming on so smoothly but nicely :) took ~125 mg

Doing the one thing I should not be doing and railing lines of pent that are approx 50 mg each. Did 3 of them and I can already feel the psychological likening that I have of railing and am going to chill for a bit before I do anymore. Got to keep that fetish under control. Thats a sad realization :\
 
For real! I didn't think it was possible until I started railing then all of sudden I was like fuck yeh! Best way to do drugs ever! Now I realize how it affects me so I am much more observant of my habit now. Best bet would be to not do it but thats not as fun. Probably good that I dont like needles.

I know this goes against my sobriety but I justify it as a way to increase ability to function at work tonight :P
 
^Dude, at my old job, I had to take stimulants every day. Most people in the world consume caffeine every day. Some of them consume more powerful stimulants every day.

Don't worry about it man. :)
 
I am not too much worried about the drugs themselves, but the act of how I take them. Snorting is soooo fun to me. Except for 4-FA. That shit hurts. A lot. I didn't get the warning until after I did it.

Like I said, I just have to be more vigilante about watching what I am doing and knowing when to stop. I dont think I will ever stop loving railing shit as long as its worthy of being railed, nor do I suspect I will stop doing it for quite a while but until I do stop one day, I have to watch what I am doing.

I am very warm and fuzzy right now, watching the 'Hawks v Wild game :)
 
4-FA is warm, mood lifting, slightly speedy. I become less introverted and really dont mind being at work when I am on it. I dont necessarily want to be there but I dont mind it. I have a hard time getting mad about shit. I feel super relaxed but not tired.

Pentylone is euphoric, can be a bit anxiety inducing at higher doses (for me), gives me a heightened awareness of myself, and is very speedy but more gentle than butylone was. (Butylone is poop IMO). The one thing I dont like about it is that sometimes it can give me cotton mouth but some candies and juice/soda helps deal with it for the most part. Also its good at suppressing appetite. Really good. I have to eat before I use it otherwise I will go 8-12 hours without wanting food. This can of course result in wack blood sugar levels which I keep an eye on as diabetes runs in my family (bio dad had it and it is what killed him at 56 y.o. and dont feel sorry about it, he was a useless asshole). Eating is a big chore with it.

To me though, the good effects of pent outweigh the bads so far. But who knows what this stuff could be doing to me. That's one thing I dislike about RCs.

I wouldn't compare them to opiates tho other than feeling warm and fuzzy but thats where it ends :)
 
I like drugs a bit more.
My ability to abstain even when its in my pocket is still strong, but who knows how it will hold up tomorrow, or next year.

Bleh.
 
I love fog. It's beautiful. Lol. Sitting on my front porch smoking a cigarette, admiring the fog, on a combo of alprazolam, heroin, and cocaine is quite the wonderous feeling.

Today's been a good day, I've been feeling fantastic all day. Plus, some of you may remember that I totalled my Mom's car back in september, when I broke my ankle. She's been carless since then, and the other day my Uncle called her up and surprised her by buying her another car ! So awesome. He bought her a 2004 toyota camry, with 80,000 miles on it. It's in perfect condition, too. He spent 8 grand on it; he's such a fantastic Uncle.

My mom and I have so many issues and problems and bullshit going on in both of our lives, we're both very depressed many days. But today my mom was so happy, and got to bring the car home today. I haven' tseen her this happy in a while.
 
I dunno who the Hawks are, but yay! Haha.

Just woke up, apparently I fell asleep, missed my evening class and just woke up (it's 4.30am). Wtf? I don't even think I took any drugs that might have made me pass out.. I don't think I did, anyway...

Ffs.

edit: BDP you ninja, really glad you had a good day :)
 
Aveo, that is still no clearer to me :D but again, yay! Hehe.

It was a Buddhism class rather than school or anything, and this was just a "get to know each other" intro session apparently - so kinda glad I missed it now, haha! I will go next week I promise ;)

How are you doing today?
 
Hawks=hockey team from Chicago in the professional league.
Dont fret about it, I am just excited about the game.

Fine, just fine :) Enjoying the beginning of my stim session before I go to work and will probably continue it once I get there. Feels good :)

How are you this fine morning?
 
Haha. Thanks for the explanation :D

I'm.. not thrilled to be awake at 5am, but I have been worse, certainly :) debating putting a film on and trying to go back to sleep or just pretending I meant to get up super-early today and getting on with things..

I could go for some stims right now.
 
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