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The April getting/staying sober thread vs Moonwalking ( backward steps )

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So I have a lot of reasons to stay clean!! I had a strong urge to go get a bag this morning but I didn't I read my AA book instead! I usually give into cravings right away! This is the first time I waited to let it pass. Any ideas on how to get through cravings all the time? How long do they usually last or does it vary?
Thank you all for the support! I really need it right now. I feel that my life is at a cross road right now. It could go really bad if I give in to my addiction or it could go great if I stay clean and get through school and start my new career.

wow that's amazing miraluv, there's something about reading/hearing other people talk about getting through serious cravings that just sends chills down my spine. We can overcome our dependency on chemicals no matter what and I'm proud of you!! In a week and a half I'll have 6 months clean from all substances and I shot heroin for seven years, I'm so excited, almost can't believe I really did this.
 
In class today we were learning how to draw blood... My god, I am craving SO hard right now... So triggering.
 
Thank you maniquan! Congrats on the clean time! Rxprn I am in phlebotomy school I think about that even through I've not used needles lots of my friends have. I'm sorry it's a trigger for you!
 
Another day... Too much homework to truly post my thoughts, and I don't feel like touching any of it ...but I also don't feel like failing out of school. Still struggling with the apathy blues severely off and on; it at least lets up for periods now.

I had some an awesome day the other day getting through several days of work when the apathy lifted. I'm hoping some exercise will lift it and I can get some more work done tonight.

You're at a critical junction right now. I promise you that if you go through the motions of studying and exercise, it will start to pay emotional dividends within a week. Music also helps me stay motivated. And a coffee if your body is ready. But I promise you that if you plod along a few more days, the apathy will go away.

Day 18. I have been taking off-brand Nyquil to handle the PAWS insomnia, but I started to feel the APAP taking a toll on me after a week or so, and I gotta phase it out and try to fall asleep naturally. I laid in bed for three hours last night before having a half-dose of it. Ugh.
 
Still strong though I've relapsed with some behaviors such as my extreme flirtation and womanizing (its occurring more than I did it in the past so imagine me now lol)
 
Good for you being off for 2 months! But careful so you don't replace one drug for another. Do you like meetings?
 
Two weeks now without cannabis, longest break I've managed was something like two and a half months in the past 5 or 6 years I think and I'm aiming to break that record now. Starting to believe I'm really better off without it even though it has felt like an extremely valuable self-medication asset for a long time. It's the only drug I've ever had a seriously hard time living without despite really trying. Motivated as hell too, if there are others using around me they aren't making me crave for it or anything, and it feels really easy to just decline when offered, but I try to avoid situations where I might be exposed to second-hand smoke anyway. I actually dislike the way it makes me feel, but the way it has helped with my lifelong sleeping difficulties is mainly why I've sticked with it for so long I guess, that and the fact that CBD has had valuable anti-psychotic properties for me.

Haven't switched to alcohol either, been really cutting my moderate drinking lately too! Hoping to make April an alcohol free month. Mental stability is my only wish for now.
 
Congrats FnX! With the right mindset I truly believe we as humans can accomplish anything.

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Guys tomorrow (04/03/13) is officially one month since I've been off opiates & the needle!! I'm so proud of myself.
 
Guys tomorrow (04/03/13) is officially one month since I've been off opiates & the needle!! I'm so proud of myself.

Nice work, those two can be real bitches together! Maybe treat yourself with a nice meal at a restaurant? That's what I like do when I've gotten through a tough period, reached a milestone or feel like I've accomplished something, in a way it makes me feel better about life in general :)

FnX mental stability is my wish too!! Good job you can do it!!

You mean we can do it ^^
 
Guys tomorrow (04/03/13) is officially one month since I've been off opiates & the needle!! I'm so proud of myself.

Go rx!! Keep up the good work :) Im proud of you, and know you have the strength to stay on top of it.

Two weeks now without cannabis, longest break I've managed was something like two and a half months in the past 5 or 6 years

A constant battle for me..
Last week I went 3 or 4 days without smoking, and I felt great about it.
It has been years since i have had proper breaks from getting stoned.
 
Man everytime I run out of loperamide I go shit crazy. Running back and forth from the bathroom, intestinal pain. Ughhhh...

I'm going to a general doc (not a neuro like I need to) today to see if I can get get atleast some xanax from them. My RLS is going nuts, I'm anxious as shit, and craving drugs like nuts. (Day 17 with out opioids [would be day 29 if it wasn't for the 3 day use of suboxone]). I almost rather have just WD from heroin instead of methadone/suboxone. Atleast i would be completely out of the woods besides paws
 
Ive always been good with my previous xanax scripts. id sell almost half and take the rest over 2 weeks. i was on it for about 1.5 years with no physical dependence or wd to speak of. opioids are my vice
 
I almost rather have just WD from heroin instead of methadone/suboxone
For me there is no "almost rather" in this sentence it would have been replaced with I WISH TO FK I WOULD HAVE... I hope you get some relief soon cloudy<3. I know you are so close.. really try not to slip with anymore opiates or loperamide... IMO it just makes the crap last and last. Hope you got good news and some help at the DR. :D


so much good news from everyone!! Yep good day, a man could get used to this.

EDIT: congrats RX.. that unbelievable hope you realize that and are really proud=D
 
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I gotta start tapering the loperamide down. I didn't take any for two days and this morning my ass was blowing chunks, was not fun, especially with my previous gastro issues. It made me sooo anxious and irritable on top of the sub wd. I've been taking the loperamide for over two weeks so no wonder. I took 20mg just recently today with 3mg of alprazolam, and plan on going decreasing the lope 2mg a day will I get to about 8mg then decrease one mg everyday or every other day
 
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