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The ANGRY thread v3

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Guess I really am the last of the romantics. I was born 50 years too late I think, I would have been well in my element when love letters and cute dates were still a normal thing.

Ah well. Nevermind romance, I feel almost dead so time to attempt to doze off once more. Dubious about how successful I'm going to be.

As this is the angry thread that's what I'm angry about. Kind of my fault tonight but last night was random and I have no idea why I couldn't sleep, especially after a couple of diclaz. 3 hours sleep in 2 days, worst ever for me I think. Kinda starting to feel like Edward Norton in Fight Club but without the whole split personality thing.

I need a hug. Or a hard knock on the head. Either might help.
 
Love letters were still going strong in the nineties. At least for some of us. You'd see your dame maybe once a week, but write her letters inbetween. Phones existed, sure. Not quite the same. Few people carried mobiles. You'd sit and you'd pine, and back then pining was really pining.

Nowadays it's probably just a case of clicking 'Love' on Tossbook and adding an 'omg' or two, and you're an item.

I pity the young ones.
 
Aye, but it's not nineties pining!

Stony silence, uncertainty and the knowledge that they're out and about living their lives, with no way of you being able to make immediate contact. It was different.
 
Sadie said:
It would be, if you believed it to be love having never known what love really is...

I know what l love is.......
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Me too. I love my wife and my kids, unconditionally. I just find it strange when women sometimes (men too) start mind games to get what they aim.
Don´t get me wrong, I totally agree with you and I have loved so many people during all my life and still have lots of love to give and to take.
At some point though it´s very difficult and sad to engage with childish mind games.
 
Erikmen said:
Me too. I love my wife and my kids, unconditionally. I just find it strange when women sometimes (men too) start mind games to get what they aim.
Don´t get me wrong, I totally agree with you and I have loved so many people during all my life and still have lots of love to give and to take.
At some point though it´s very difficult and sad to engage with childish mind games.
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Its just messed up and helps nothing! I don't like mind games.
 
Where the fuck do they find people that work in HR departments? The sheer incompetence of people that work in HR is absolutely staggering.

I've just spent best part of 3 hours arguing with someone in my HR department that my carry over holiday entitlement is missing 1.5 days because they are unable to comprehend basic maths and I'm still no close to getting anything resolved.

Seriously, fuck this!
 
One of those days… the x writes me that our former cat was found dead from cancer in the bathroom bleeding, so he started drinking after 13 years off the sauce (he's on subs too). After reading that I go for a walk and a former friend is lying in the street under a blanket in the gutter yelling at me for a dollar. Hadn't seen her in 10 years er so, was a roommate of mine and sane at one point.
Get home… get a call from another friend that our friend was found dead in the basement..

I am not in a place to deal with any of this atm (but i will somehow, i guess… don't know). I'm a little concerned, but incidents do come in 3's. I don't believe in direct messages but something is happening to me today with all of this. I feel very strange as if it's not real… but it IS.
My x is gonna die I have a strong feeling… :\
 
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it took me nearly 5 minutes to get back to this forum, you would not believe how easy it is for me to get lost, does every forum have angry threads?? I am really angry about my friend who came to visit and past on the worst hacking wretching coughing flu I have had in I dont know how long. bitch, I love her really but right know she is referred to as THE bitch.
 
Why the **** cant my family stop trying to take stuff I love away from me n trying to make me a miserable as hell. I'm in my 30s but when im around them I feel like a 10 year child desparately trying to please them. Why can't I just be me ffs? They nagged me to get codeine raided my house, made me feel like scum of the earth so yes I what I ALWAYS DO! I did what they wanted as they wouldn't speak to me while I was on it.

They moaned at me to get off the antidepressants so i did now its the suboxone. I've a good mind to stay on it but they'll get me to do what THEY want as always. And may be dump my best friend as a kid or they'd chuck me out. So yea i totally ignored her, had everyone think "what a bitch Evey for dropping her best friend" cause she cried once saying I turned against her. Saw her other day in my recovery group we talked n I wanted to say "I'm sorry i didn't want to drop you all those years ago my parents made me."

I'm fed up but I cant do fuck all about it as whenever I try to explain how i feel they twist it round n say all we've done for you n I just get tongue tied n go blank.

I just wanna be free n be me. I love them but I resent this n only ever saw them as authority figures. Just want to know why they want me to be so fkn miserable or the way that THEY want me to be. Can't they love me for me?!!!!

Evey
 
So your family has asked you to get off the Suboxone?

I don't think that sounds unreasonable: you are in your 30s and neither a hardcore recovering heroin-addict who's using Suboxone to taper off, nor a severe pain patient, so it seems unadvisable to take such strong opioids every day.
 
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