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The ANGRY thread v2

Indecisive people!!!!!
Just had a nearly 8 minute phone call which could have been wrapped up in less than 2 mins.

Fix up ffs.
 
I'm pissed off that the JCP has arranged an interview for me tmrw.
If I get chosen for the job they expect me to do a 2 week work trial for which I will still only be paid £71pw JSA.
The job is going to cost me about £70pw just to be able to get there and back so not really suitable.

sorry for the delayed reply. Was gonna say it would be easy to fuck up an interview deliberately but not too obviously. But thats a bit late now. What happened ?
 
Jesus wept, so many shady CUNTS on the street these days.
I'm so pissed off, I can't say whats gone on due to BL rules but my God, a total grade #1 CUNT!!!!

Mix bag head with a proper Chav you have 1 really fucked up person.
 
sorry for the delayed reply. Was gonna say it would be easy to fuck up an interview deliberately but not too obviously. But thats a bit late now. What happened ?
Well it actually turned out to be quite a chilled out place to work so I decided to try my best to get the job.
But it was all to no avail as I just found out this afternoon that I didn't get the job anyway.
They were apparently impressed with me and had me on short list but they ended up choosing someone else.
Pissed off now as I actually would have liked to have worked there.Worked out that even after my travel costs I'd be better off than I am now.
Oh well, shit happens.
 
I'm angry at heroin. Especially because there are some Cornish posts on this page, and heroin hurt him so much, like it has so many people. I'm angry at heroin because I feel it's ruined my life forever, as it has the lives of people I care about. I'm angry at myself for getting sucked into it. It's a disgusting drug.
Fuck.
 
Its not ruined your life forever, your so young, everything is in a constant flowing state of change, you'll reflect back on these days and be happy and thankful that you overcame it, itll slip into a distant dark memory and you'll feel empowered that you were strong enough to overcome
 
I'm not, I'm angry at people, and that we fuck up so badly at making life good for each other that anyone feels heroin is their best choice.
 
You're young. It wont ruin your life for ever. If you try to leave it behind you ASAP then within a few weeks or at worst a few months you'll feel a lot different.

I have left it behind. I went without for 3 months. I still felt dead inside. So now I'm back on it and I don't know why. I hate it but still I use it.

Its not ruined your life forever, your so young, everything is in a constant flowing state of change, you'll reflect back on these days and be happy and thankful that you overcame it, itll slip into a distant dark memory and you'll feel empowered that you were strong enough to overcome

I hope so. I really do but I feel like it just killed a bit of me that I can't get back.
I just can't put it any other way. That drug is disgusting.

I'm not, I'm angry at people, and that we fuck up so badly at making life good for each other that anyone feels heroin is their best choice.

Sad world.
 
Same, humanity pisses me off, so destructive

heroin might be the feel good choice of some, no different than booze for others, its all destructive. then again we're born to die, every moment is a risk, life is fragile. everybody gambles for hours of feeling good, we're all drawn to it. then again its a gamble walking out the door, anything is around the corner

Its all about the big picture, i know some people are so self absorbed and egotistical living in their bubble they cant grasp it, the older ive gotten the more ive realized. Happyness, making others happy, and taking nothing for granted

you will get that part of you back. give it time, you'll see. russell brand springs to mind, hes recovered and done very well. then again everybody is different. as for that dead inside hollow feeling, i know that too well
 
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You're right, it is about the big picture. That's why I hate heroin so much...because it takes that big picture away. Takes everything worthwhile away. I want to see that big picture. I've really been trying, to make others happy and all that, but I can't because there's just something in me that heroin has killed. And for Cornish, it was so horrible seeing him get worse as he got more into heroin. I don't know. I trust you Dan that it'll come back but...fuck I just needed to say how much I despise heroin.
 
That dead inside feeling, like part of you is missing and you dont know yourself anymore, i dont believe in having a soul etc but its like a chunk of you missing, a chunk of your soul, feels gone, feels like youll never be the same again. you walk along a street knowing something is a miss, wondering if its you or everything else. or both. truth be told maybe you wont be the same again and you'll never regain fully, but things will improve im certain. experiences change people, traumatic ones, although given some people recover from PTSD etc, the human body can withstand a lot of abuse. but anyways yeah. fuck heroin
 
Sorry to say this but.........

If you never been addicted to Gear, your view don't count for jack, I wouldn't comment on Quantum Theory‎ as I have no idea about it, follow my logic here folks?
 
I follow it and agree with it. Only if you have been thru 24/7 use for a longer period you can fully appreciate the bleakness and void that it leaves =D Fucking takes ages to heal too, if you even manage to pry out all the shrapnel, like.
 
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