^ How quite is quite a while? More than 2 years?
With this one friend, i've known her and her boyfriend for almost two years now. Me and him started our path (spiral downwards) into heroin at the same time, he was the first person to ever stick a needle in me. I've been there for him, and sometimes him me in his odd way. Her though, when I met her she wasn't with him, but was chasing him, then she got together with him. Since she got with him, she became the friend who had no time for female friends as her constant excuse was spending time with her BF, she even accused me of shagging her BF when she was at work, when me and her BF / my good friend would spend time making money to take drugs together, it was hardly romantic, it was often hard graft! She always seemed to put herself as one cut above than me, and even her BF.
Now he's in prison, she's discovered she has a TINY heroin problem and is hanging on to my every word, suddenly she needs me, ringing me when she needs me to score, or has a question. Stuff I've been through that she had no time for when I needed help, she'd dismiss me, or say it was my own fault (even though she was getting deeper and deeper into addiction herself, she was in denial) she even also used to say 'Oh, urgh Cherry, I WORK for my drugs, so I deserve them' making me out to be some benefit blagger or criminal. She used to say she can't tell her other friends she does certain drugs, and has even said 'Oh, cherry I met a cool person the other day, they had so much to say, and so much to talk about, not just drugs' having a dig at me as all she seems to want to talk about with me is fucking drugs, or tell me that she's found a new vein on her arm, or about her addiction. It feels like she's written me of as just someone to talk about her drug issues with, that sort of talk bores me! I tune out when she starts speaking that way to me, but it feels like she's constantly having a dig that she thinks i've got no other substance.
I've tried to talk to her in the past about my addiction, and how it was hurting me, but all she'd say was well you know how to handle that, the obvious answer is to stop and cut the conversation. But, now she's dealing with coming off a bag a day it's all about her, she's making a mountain out of nowt.
She even said when she recently remembered my mother and two boyfriends have died, (Yeah, I've had the conversation about my mam dying twice with her, but she forgot) Oh I understand now why you take drugs, and are not working, it must be hard for you. As if she'd granted me permission to be signed off sick, as she'd recently slated anyone who has depression, saying that they just mustn't try hard enough.
She's so loud and obnoxious, we were stood scoring the other day, and she started talking to some girl, and said 'Urgh, I HATE standing around these parts, everyone must think we're scum as they'll know we're waiting for drugs' She was standing in the fucking ghetto of where we live, with people who live there and score there daily. I had to tell her to shush. She'll get a punch before long. Gear seems to make her into a cunt.
I needed that rant, it's made me wonder why the FUCK am I friends with this girl??!!
My other friend, well he's a bit of a loner, so I can forgive him.
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