herbavore
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^Glad you are feeling better.
frenzied

frenzied
ohai star-in-a-bra, welcome to bluelight!
I am getting sleepy, done with my meditation for the night,about to finish things up and go to sleep.
Cautious
A co worker came back today after being out for a while. I was just starting to KIND of talk to him, get to know him and vice versa ,before circumstances lead to absence. I'm going through a lot right now trying not to drink at work and with him I might over due it. I REALLY need someone to talk to about what I'm going through. It would be nice . But it could go real bad and I could get fired .. lunch break = liquor store.... Im just trying to weigh my priorities and remember how grateful I am that I have a job that pays above min wage...
The thought has crossed my mine before, i ask myself the simple question,,would this drink fix any of my problems? Well it might take the edge off, what i do know from past experience is when i drink,i cannot stop. I do really bad things when I drink,i hurt people including myself.was getting really tired of coming to in jails and psych wards. I can trace all those previous experiences of mine began with taking that 1 drink,always.Cautious
A co worker came back today after being out for a while. I was just starting to KIND of talk to him, get to know him and vice versa ,before circumstances lead to absence. I'm going through a lot right now trying not to drink at work and with him I might over due it. I REALLY need someone to talk to about what I'm going through. It would be nice . But it could go real bad and I could get fired .. lunch break = liquor store.... Im just trying to weigh my priorities and remember how grateful I am that I have a job that pays above min wage...
Thanks
I just read your last blog entry, couldn't seem to comment but wow what a read, a fellow warrior. Keep fighting and well done!
My blog is really hit and miss, thanks for reading it! Some of my very first blog enteries were from a time when I didnt know who i was yet, lts really neat to go back in time and read some of it because i can place almost where exactly my life was at when i wrote it.ha, how are you in 1 word star?
I am trying to get to bed early because id really like to wake up feeling not so tired.
didn't go to bed early. Now high. oopsies. Now talking rubbish on here before going to zone out to a new albulm. It's now nearly 3am so a new day here, so I need a new word
painless
PS D I am following all your links (following you) cus you are the first person to speak to me on this site and you seem pretty okay. Spoken by a misanthropist