Hello to all, long time no post...
Just wanted to keep you updated about what happened after my tapering off ah-7921 to end my codein extractions addiction due to my past heroin addictiction (p.08 of this thread).
So I managed for 3 months to stay clean (and away from bad things for me as benzos, opiates, amphs, meth, PVs) during the time i lived in Canada BC. Letting me enjoying life with some very nice localy brewed I.P.A, wonderfull weed ( - carried by 2 gay quebec really sweet but wanna be bad ass bikers living on a floating house on a marine port full of high tech japanese tourists, easiest, funniest and best stash supplying conditions on earth in my life for me as for now ! - ).
Anyway ; After getting my ass kikked out of the country of the red leaf caus' no working visa even though i found some undertable work (dish washing, gardening, busking, seducing ;-) ....), 6 month visa over, back from where I come from, "douce france"... But I knew my demons where still waiting for me in the land of the toxic-fromage (cheese) and crashed again into Héroin (probably 1,5 gram of 5% to 10% diamorphine street brown to tan powder) after a romantic deception, and the very one that made me fly over the atlantic and the north canadian grand wild to not die from autodestruction with drugs, all of them...
Back to starting point again but looks like i've grow a bit clever, realising that my "romantic deception" of these 4 last years is nobody else than the girl of my dreams and the woman of my life, I'm now on a bruprenorphine program 8mg a day, and i can say i'm clean of heroin since 1 year and a half and i don't feel at all like noding, my daily worries are what am i gonna cook her tonight, if i shave too often will she remember that i used to be a too scary freak to imagine a future with.
AH-7921 can be a tool for junkies like i am in some conditions, but i can't really see the recreational value to it, considering the risks if the person who takes it doesn't really know himself and his fiendish attitude to intense products. Seems like this thing overwhlms the opiate receptors meanwhile it just tikkles the hot cosy calm and creative sensations that we junks try to have all the time.
I'm no hippy saying to hug trees to feel better,
but since i understood love is not a house you win at the bingo one lucky night,
it's more a lovely house you want to build day and night
with a person you trust, without feeling it as a labour.
Not saying i'm not thinking about and taking any drugs any more
Let's say one has to find other interets in life
hope this helps
sorry for sharing all the useless details