Yes, I feel like I am losing my sh!#. Sorry I should just say poopoo.
I have to find a way to chill. ..... And well stay composed. Some how. It's just that I have way too much going on right now. ( that means a whole of stuff and everything a lot ) But such is life.
So really bad morning. I am by myself doing cleaning and watching a house. Family mem's had said earlier they were taking off to the store and, do I need anything. ( eyeball roll )
Oh yah and they said they saw the ambulance pass them and saw it on it's way back too. Cause I asked them about the lights. Anyway.
I cleaned, worked, made some food. Filled a glass with bleach and water. I clean good.
Ate a whole plate of food thank gawwd. Made me thirsty though and had green chilli's in it. So I grabbed my glass of water that I had forgot to use for cleaning. Gulped it down
because I needed water. ...... Then it tasted funny. No Bad. And I realized I drank my bleach for cleaning.
I panicked like a little poop. And cried like a bishbrain to 911. I didn't even know if the call would go through. They had my location bc it was a land line and called 'the ambulance' they said I could refuse when they got there
and then put me on the line with poison control. I thought the bleach was giving me a heart pain, hyperventilation breathing, and the spins .. and then a headache.
( well kind of a headache )
So the ambulance showed up and the medics said thanx for getting us out of our 9 a.m. meeting. Right now I am going through a lot of family irl stuff so I didn't think
and just reacted ......... But that being said, Ummmm the bleach taste absorbed all around my throat for a while and felt funny. It made the rounds and like burned
or something. Irritated I guess I could call it. I wretched about 4 times and drooled into the glob of tissue about 4 times too. Now it's just a dry spot in my throat yeah
and dry ring in my nose. Because like I said I actually cried tears like a little ......... yeah wait for it again. . a little bishbrain. Icky my tonsils are clean.
I just have a whole lot of stress in my life right now Ya'lls. I do.
And I don't know if I still feel burn from the chilli's or the aghhhh bleach I drank.
Anyway ... I didn't stay composed and I had a panic attack and I
hate myself right now.

