🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 The 2025 Recovery & Social Thread

[thatmf]

oh I see. It's going well so far. Managed to stay on the suboxone, got a job interview on friday, slight sense of stability in my life now, still money troubles and issues with motivation but at least I'm not spending as much now and don't spend an entire day running around the city for heroin. Everythings better in that regard, but I still have a lot of work to do...
I've managed to work on some music and video editing without drugs, so that is good, distancing drugs from my hobby

Awesome work! Keep it up

 

[krkkhed]

Awesome work! Keep it up

Thank you
I'll be stopping suboxone in about 6 days. Im down to like .8 to 1mg (the pill occasionally splits unevenly) and I have 6 doses in individual little bags from bigger pieces down to smaller pieces in the last few bags. After that I'm going to just jump off, get some hash and loperamide and use it as I need it. After that it's just about staying strong mentally and not going back to it.
I know I can do it. This will be my first genuine effort in getting clean in a long while, and it feels different, it feels like I can really do it.
I'll probably post updates here as they come. Thanks again, I find this quite motivating

 

[krkkhed]

So. I decided I want to get this shit over with and finished my last dose of Buprenorphine today, i'll probably start withdrawling tomorrow around 16-17 or maybe later too since today I didn't start feeling bad even at 30 hours. I have 12x300mg pregabalin and 3x6mg bromazepam, I'll work it out with those, and try to take hot showers, exercise, drink lots of water and eat well throughout the next 2 weeks, it shouldn't be too bad.
In other news I got my German passport today so I can finally start studying here in Sweden as an EU resident/german citizen which is very motivating and gives me some hope for being able to quit, and a reason to quit as well. Will post an update once the withdrawals hit tomorrow. Thanks for the motivation people especially @thatmf I really appreciate it

 

[thatmf]

So. I decided I want to get this shit over with and finished my last dose of Buprenorphine today, i'll probably start withdrawling tomorrow around 16-17 or maybe later too since today I didn't start feeling bad even at 30 hours. I have 12x300mg pregabalin and 3x6mg bromazepam, I'll work it out with those, and try to take hot showers, exercise, drink lots of water and eat well throughout the next 2 weeks, it shouldn't be too bad.
In other news I got my German passport today so I can finally start studying here in Sweden as an EU resident/german citizen which is very motivating and gives me some hope for being able to quit, and a reason to quit as well. Will post an update once the withdrawals hit tomorrow. Thanks for the motivation people especially @thatmf I really appreciate it

No worries at all Glad to hear! Keep it up

 

[thatmf]

For me personally things really started working out in my favour when I quit meth. So glad it's all happening for you as well!

 

[deficiT]

I did my first dbt/emdr session with my therapist today. I'm basically just gonna learn a bunch of somatic therapy techniques, and breathing exercises I think at first. She said she's never done it before, but I really think she's pretty great.

We learned tapping today, where you do a rotation of methodically tapipng on various pressure points of your body, while deep breathing, and saying a positive mantra or affirmation. It did seem to relax me a bit, I just have to force myself to stop reacting to everything and allowing myself to stop. Its just like it goes against my biology, idk.

I really needed this kind of therapy maybe 10-15 years ago, before I destroyed my life and most of my interpersonal relationships. At this point, the sheer dysfunctional thinking has fully manifested and took root. I worry that anything can ever reverse that, if I will ever have a stable or contented mind.

I guess if I didnt think improvement was possible, I wouldn't bother doing anything about it. So, maybe that's an indication of some kind of hope, at least.

 

[KotoriMinami]

Almost 4 months clean from meth now (just barely starting to normalize I feel like) and just like someone else said, I'm having to accept the fact that who I was when I was high all the time is not who I really am except that parts of it actually kind of are. I had always been a loner out of shyness rather than choice, and meth got me to remember that. However, meth had also caused me to go against my sexuality enough for it to have caused actual confusion in more ways than just that. So I'm also still trying to fix many patterns of harmful thinking.

I'd like to go out and socialize to meet women but I'm also starting to wonder if I'd just be better off a loner at this point in my life (34y) with how undeveloped my social skills are but I also know that my loneliness is essentially what dragged me into meth in the first place and having friends might be the only thing keeping me from going back.

I think I might have some disorganized thinking but I also tend to overthink things or think too much in general too. Still working on actually enjoying myself as well, like being high all the time got me so used to enjoying doing nothing that it's hard to have fun doing anything sober.

Anyway, it's cool to be posting here for the first time considering how long I've known of this site and so nice to see where I can relate to others stories. Stay positive!

 

[paltatomate]

welcome to bluelight @KotoriMinami

 

[deficiT]

Almost 4 months clean from meth now (just barely starting to normalize I feel like) and just like someone else said, I'm having to accept the fact that who I was when I was high all the time is not who I really am except that parts of it actually kind of are. I had always been a loner out of shyness rather than choice, and meth got me to remember that. However, meth had also caused me to go against my sexuality enough for it to have caused actual confusion in more ways than just that. So I'm also still trying to fix many patterns of harmful thinking.

I'd like to go out and socialize to meet women but I'm also starting to wonder if I'd just be better off a loner at this point in my life (34y) with how undeveloped my social skills are but I also know that my loneliness is essentially what dragged me into meth in the first place and having friends might be the only thing keeping me from going back.

I think I might have some disorganized thinking but I also tend to overthink things or think too much in general too. Still working on actually enjoying myself as well, like being high all the time got me so used to enjoying doing nothing that it's hard to have fun doing anything sober.

Anyway, it's cool to be posting here for the first time considering how long I've known of this site and so nice to see where I can relate to others stories. Stay positive!

Congrats on 4 months, that's a pretty big deal.

Isolation causes a lot of different neuroses to fester. Being overly attached to an external force like another person or a friend group can cause it's own problems. A person tends to need both to feel alright mentally, but you have to find a balance.

It's good to hear from you, welcome to bl

 

[JahBeeuS]

Almost 4 months clean from meth now (just barely starting to normalize I feel like) and just like someone else said, I'm having to accept the fact that who I was when I was high all the time is not who I really am except that parts of it actually kind of are. I had always been a loner out of shyness rather than choice, and meth got me to remember that. However, meth had also caused me to go against my sexuality enough for it to have caused actual confusion in more ways than just that. So I'm also still trying to fix many patterns of harmful thinking.

I'd like to go out and socialize to meet women but I'm also starting to wonder if I'd just be better off a loner at this point in my life (34y) with how undeveloped my social skills are but I also know that my loneliness is essentially what dragged me into meth in the first place and having friends might be the only thing keeping me from going back.

I think I might have some disorganized thinking but I also tend to overthink things or think too much in general too. Still working on actually enjoying myself as well, like being high all the time got me so used to enjoying doing nothing that it's hard to have fun doing anything sober.

Anyway, it's cool to be posting here for the first time considering how long I've known of this site and so nice to see where I can relate to others stories. Stay positive!

Meth certainly has its hold on me and definitely fucked up my sexual reward pathways and had me doing some shit I never would've done otherwise, but it was certainly an experience and mostly fun.

Been 2.5 years for me and if say it probably took the better part of a year to normalize back to my baseline self.

I know people bristle at the mention of 12 step programs but they do offer a social network ofike minded individuals who've gone through similar things and are trying to live similar ways now. It's been quite helpful for me and the benefits to someone who has not much other support and socialization could be quite immense.

As for doing things sober, I've found lifting weights and getting out into nature quite nice. Maybe a pet dog if you have the time/energy/money could be a good excuse to get out for walks / hikes / meeting strangers at parks.

 

[kiely]

So I'v heard socialization could be quite immense.

I used to workout !!

 

[JahBeeuS]

So I'v heard socialization could be quite immense.

The benefits certainly can.

I used to workout !!

I used to do drugs. I still do, but I used to too.

 

[thatmf]

Almost 4 months clean from meth now (just barely starting to normalize I feel like) and just like someone else said, I'm having to accept the fact that who I was when I was high all the time is not who I really am except that parts of it actually kind of are. I had always been a loner out of shyness rather than choice, and meth got me to remember that. However, meth had also caused me to go against my sexuality enough for it to have caused actual confusion in more ways than just that. So I'm also still trying to fix many patterns of harmful thinking.

I'd like to go out and socialize to meet women but I'm also starting to wonder if I'd just be better off a loner at this point in my life (34y) with how undeveloped my social skills are but I also know that my loneliness is essentially what dragged me into meth in the first place and having friends might be the only thing keeping me from going back.

I think I might have some disorganized thinking but I also tend to overthink things or think too much in general too. Still working on actually enjoying myself as well, like being high all the time got me so used to enjoying doing nothing that it's hard to have fun doing anything sober.

Anyway, it's cool to be posting here for the first time considering how long I've known of this site and so nice to see where I can relate to others stories. Stay positive!

Good on you! I was and to some extent still am a loner. Trying to get out more though.

 

[thatmf]

Trying trying trying to go out Then on the day avoiding any whif of fun. Wtf is wrong with me. Some people can go out twice in a weekend and have no fucking social anxiety. Also @kiely I hope I didn't piss you off when I did the cat react to one of your posts. I've decided I'm going to go to a bush doof for my birthday even if I look and feel like an absolute weirdo. It's happening one way or another. I'm starting the first of (hopefully) many work placements this week. I just wish I could get my head around social situations more easily

 

[thatmf]

Back to square one I guess..

 

[paltatomate]

Back to square one I guess..

but you are still trying.

Then on the day avoiding any whif of fun

why and what kind of fun were you avoiding?
what is it that you are actually afraid of?

sorry if i'm asking stuff you already told somewhere. and it's okay if you don't want to answer me or others here.
but it might be helpful to answer those questions to yourself.

 

[thatmf]

but you are still trying.

why and what kind of fun were you avoiding?
what is it that you are actually afraid of?

sorry if i'm asking stuff you already told somewhere. and it's okay if you don't want to answer me or others here.
but it might be helpful to answer those questions to yourself.

I mean I haven't relapsed or anything. It was a club night. I just don't want to be judged by the same people who threw me under a bus repeatedly.

 

[paltatomate]

I just don't want to be judged by the same people who threw me under a bus repeatedly.

if they did that, so why hang out with them?
why give a shit what they think of you?

now i get that maybe those people are the only ones you know right now, and it's not everyone's thing to go out partying alone. but maybe you can use them just for that. a bunch of people who are just there so you aren't alone while you do your own thing at the club.

 

[kiely]

Trying trying trying to go out Then on the day avoiding any whif of fun. Wtf is wrong with me. Some people can go out twice in a weekend and have no fucking social anxiety. Also @kiely I hope I didn't piss you off when I did the cat react to one of your posts. I've decided I'm going to go to a bush doof for my birthday even if I look and feel like an absolute weirdo. It's happening one way or another. I'm starting the first of (hopefully) many work placements this week. I just wish I could get my head around social situations more easily

Just stay really calm. And keep being cool. And just stay for a few hours. And then next time stay four hours. And just work up to it.

You will be perfectly fine. You are so strong and you have the power to Heal. You will keep doing so much better. Just stay out there.

And I love ALL of your emoti's. They are fine each and every time !!!! See. lol. I do though.

You gotta do this Dude. It's your life and you can.

 

[kiely]

Oh yes, and be careful of the company and who you are around for sure !!!