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I hope that everyone is doing well . . . and not letting anything get too depressing.

I know how we all have to get through it all and that they can always get worse.

I wish that we can stay happy forever while we try to make it all work out. 👍:)<3

We all need to be truly Blessed like that and nice. 🕊️ Take Care of yourselves everyone !!!
 
Did a shit Saturday because I was sad and drank (the only thing that makes me happy lately is a series airing on AMC), which triggered me and at home we binged practically until today. Feel shit for not repressing this feeling and because of me we fucked up.
In the end we kinda binged until today at lunch. However, I wasn't feeling the effect anymore, but I didn't wanted to feel sad again. But I'm not feeling well. It was impossible to leave bed to shower and go to the psychiatrist.
Feel very embarrassed for confess, but I got late and my face was like shit. She showed some frustration, but we both made a plan and a schedule together without my unreal expectations and let's see how it works and improve next session. I was struggling to stay out home in the day, but the idea of someone knowing and checking if I did is motivating me. Hope that when I come back to do my things without make the situation heavy and hard, my coke triggers will diminish at home and in general and it will feel good avoiding alcohol, to not get triggers. I'll keep fighting to get sober and not feel triggered or tempted with my husband ust CV.
Now, I'll rest a a little before writing my Dissertation next hour. Hope not oversleep and stay awake at night. I believe this time will be better.
 
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Did a shit Saturday because I was sad and drank (the only thing that makes me happy lately is a series airing on AMC), which triggered me and at home we binged practically until today. Feel shit for not repressing this feeling and because of me we fucked up.
In the end we kinda binged until today at lunch. However, I wasn't feeling the effect anymore, but I didn't wanted to feel sad again. But I'm not feeling well. It was impossible to leave bed to shower and go to the psychiatrist.
Feel very embarrassed for confess, but I got late and my face was like shit. She showed some frustration, but we both made a plan and a schedule together without my unreal expectations and let's see how it works and improve next session. I was struggling to stay out home in the day, but the idea of someone knowing and checking if I did is motivating me. Hope that when I come back to do my things without make the situation heavy and hard, my coke triggers will diminish at home and in general and it will feel good avoiding alcohol, to not get triggers. I'll keep fighting to get sober and not feel triggered or tempted with my husband ust CV.
Now, I'll rest a a little before writing my Dissertation next hour. Hope not oversleep and stay awake at night. I believe this time will be better.
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The struggle with addiction is real. And such a tough battle when you have to fight. Excessive substance abuse can cause a lot of injury or damage.
Keep trying to get back up again and do your best that you can !
<3
 
thatmf said:
I've hurt my back :mad: otherwise been ok. Keep having weird daydreams/dreams of being on it...Not fun and I know better, I think I'm just a bit bored at the moment.
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It will pass if you want it too. Just keep focusing on something else or other things instead.

If you find something really important put more energy into that. Don't burn out either way.

Meditation helps. Deep breathing, running.

School sounds really interesting for you to focus on. But if you really like it, put more energy and time into that instead.

I mean it was really weird but last month or so I had just fell asleep and I actually dreamed I did a bump of coke that was actually so good and I was so high from doing it.

So I just enjoyed being able to feel the effects of such a good bump and I really thought I was high. It was so great.

But that was it. I have no interest in it at all and I don't know why I dreamed it.
But it was some kind of trigger I guess like the open window and a cold fresh breeze in the summertime at night.

But when I am awake I enjoy the cool air more than the coke now. It was just a dream, and a feeling, not reality maybe.

You are more of an expert. :) Or have that chance. Maybe someone will know.


<3

Oh and so sorry about your back. Maybe you can get some nice pain medication relief for it.
It's a great booster sometime to help relieve the inflammation.

Just as long as you don't abuse it can be relief to help out when needed. That's what it is for.

Like a crutch or a cast. Until you are able to function without. On your own.

You have to treat the swelling and inflammation with cold packs and heat. Heating pads.

Stretch then relax.


Oh Gawwwd it's so good to hear from you. Keep going. You have a strong start already from the
starting point of the rest of your life.

I'm glad to hear from you. Thnxxx. !!!!

bye for now
 
I don't have anyone to tell this to so I'm just posting this here, maybe someone's going through something similar. I got 90 days sober through DAA yesterday, had a sponsor got all the way to step 9. I went to treatment and have stayed sober since then, 30 day program and I was feeling great. I did AA a few years ago and got a year sober but since then things just haven't been the same. Had many friends pass from this disease and lost a lot. The only thing keeping me sober right now is being in sober living which I'm moving out of in 2 weeks. I went and bought xanax today and I've all but decided I'm relapsing once I'm out. I finally have things to look forward to in my life, a budding career, independence yet I'm so sad and feel like i just can't be sober anymore. Sorry for just dumping on here, I just feel like i had to get it off my chest
 
fondofnarcotics said:
I went and bought xanax
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Hope they are genuine at least. You do have a choice of not taking them. I mean it's obvious but true.
Reads that you have made a lot of headway when you feel like it. This takes grit and dedication which (again) obviously you have by reading your post.
I feel personally that balance is key in all things but that's me. Everyone different but basically the same.
I also feel that you will come out the better regardless of your choice (s) but keep in mind that drugs are such a small part of us that we cannot let them dictate or define our lives and do have the authority to pass.
There is a time and place for everything doesn't have to be everything all the time regardless what that Eagles tune says -"Life in the fast lane" iirc.
Hoping the best on this.
One love
 
Lil'LinaptkSix said:
Hope they are genuine at least. You do have a choice of not taking them. I mean it's obvious but true.
Reads that you have made a lot of headway when you feel like it. This takes grit and dedication which (again) obviously you have by reading your post.
I feel personally that balance is key in all things but that's me. Everyone different but basically the same.
I also feel that you will come out the better regardless of your choice (s) but keep in mind that drugs are such a small part of us that we cannot let them dictate or define our lives and do have the authority to pass.
There is a time and place for everything doesn't have to be everything all the time regardless what that Eagles tune says -"Life in the fast lane" iirc.
Hoping the best on this.
One love
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Think I've been tripping on it too much. gonna just let go and let god (lol). No matter what happens my higher power will provide. Thank you for the kind words, much love.
 
fondofnarcotics said:
I don't have anyone to tell this to so I'm just posting this here, maybe someone's going through something similar. I got 90 days sober through DAA yesterday, had a sponsor got all the way to step 9. I went to treatment and have stayed sober since then, 30 day program and I was feeling great. I did AA a few years ago and got a year sober but since then things just haven't been the same. Had many friends pass from this disease and lost a lot. The only thing keeping me sober right now is being in sober living which I'm moving out of in 2 weeks. I went and bought xanax today and I've all but decided I'm relapsing once I'm out. I finally have things to look forward to in my life, a budding career, independence yet I'm so sad and feel like i just can't be sober anymore. Sorry for just dumping on here, I just feel like i had to get it off my chest
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Hey, how are you doing now? I got 110 days after treatment and then moved out and relapsed and it wasn't pretty. Currently back in H wds trying to kill the pain with ketamine. Trying to go back in to sober living soon. This stuff isn't easy!
 
hi everyone, i hope everyone here is getting better and better everyday, im new here, the reason why im end up in here is because i dont know where to go, i dont know who to share, this year is really a struggle and stressful year for me, everything is just fail and fail again, and now im end up in a situation where i dont have money and a debt that i cannot pay, and i have to pay all of it this month, already do anything i can but i keep failing and did more problem, to my girl and even my parents, and finally come a bold decision about ending my life now, maybe i should get help as soon as i can before this, but i keep delaying it and now everything is too late, hope you guys are doing fine in life, stay strong guys

love
 
aviantony_ said:
hi everyone, i hope everyone here is getting better and better everyday, im new here, the reason why im end up in here is because i dont know where to go, i dont know who to share, this year is really a struggle and stressful year for me, everything is just fail and fail again, and now im end up in a situation where i dont have money and a debt that i cannot pay, and i have to pay all of it this month, already do anything i can but i keep failing and did more problem, to my girl and even my parents, and finally come a bold decision about ending my life now, maybe i should get help as soon as i can before this, but i keep delaying it and now everything is too late, hope you guys are doing fine in life, stay strong guys

love
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Please reach out and get some professional help. It's probably not as bad as your mind sees it to be. Just take some steps to focus on your health and mental health. Jobs come and go and debts can be delayed for a while.
 
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