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another good day here - like somni, i’ve been waking up around 5:30/6, starting the day with a bubble bath while the kratom & gabapentin take effect. then a meeting at 8, then went on a 4 mile walk down to the creek. just took the trash off & got some groceries from walmart! another meeting at 6 tonight. gunna work on music & i gotta eat some lunch bc my tummy is PINCHIN’

anyways, good to hear from you guys! i hate saying i’m going to meetings bc they aren’t NA or AA or anything like it, it’s just a group of us who are in recovery and we just chat shit over zoom & have a good laugh everyday. :)
 
Relapsed on DXM again today, 1200mg. I just have no self control when it comes to DXM. I can walk into a store and I immediately change my entire original focus to how can I shoplift a box of Mucinex. My family has mentioned going into meetings for it and I just keep thinking like how could I go to meetings that have people who are facing real demons like Alcoholism or Fentanyl addiction and just say 'yeah I'm addicted to OTC cough medicine, I need the same help as you guys'.
Just I can't justify my recovery when people are facing what I'd consider issues with *real* drugs.
 
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dextromethorphian said:
Relapsed on DXM again today, 1200mg. I just have no self control when it comes to DXM. I can walk into a store and I immediately change my entire original focus to how can I shoplift a box of Mucinex. My family has mentioned going into meetings for it and I just keep thinking like how could I go to meetings that have people who are facing real demons like Alcoholism or Fentanyl addiction and just say 'yeah I'm addicted to OTC cough medicine, I need the same help as you guys'.
Just I can't justify my recovery when people are facing what I'd consider issues with *real* drugs.
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we’ve got your back here man. honestly not that uncommon to be dependent on DXM. i have a few friends who got that way. some people are even dependent on loperamide. kratom. kava.

that doesn’t minimize your problems; when you mention other people who’ve been lifelong alcoholics/addicts etc. if you’re not cozy going to an AA meeting(i never liked them & they never resonated with me) we do zoom meetings twice a day && we’re all just a bunch of buddies in recovery. no 12 steps, no agenda, just talking and enjoying ourselves and helping each other. not trying to coax you in or anything but you’re more than welcome to come hangout, you can even just sit and listen with your mic & video off if you want.

you got a lot of people in this forum rooting for you too m8. we’ve got a nice group here in this recovery forum whether needing active help or just checking in like myself. try not to stigmatize your own recovery too much if you can help it, it’s all okay man.
 
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we’ve got your back here man. honestly not that uncommon to be dependent on DXM. i have a few friends who got that way. some people are even dependent on loperamide. kratom. kava.

that doesn’t minimize your problems; when you mention other people who’ve been lifelong alcoholics/addicts etc. if you’re not cozy going to an AA meeting(i never liked them & they never resonated with me) we do zoom meetings twice a day && we’re all just a bunch of buddies in recovery. no 12 steps, no agenda, just talking and enjoying ourselves and helping each other. not trying to coax you in or anything but you’re more than welcome to come hangout, you can even just sit and listen with your mic & video off if you want.

you got a lot of people in this forum rooting for you too m8. we’ve got a nice group here in this recovery forum whether needing active help or just checking in like myself. try not to stigmatize your own recovery too much if you can help it, it’s all okay man.
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I'll keep this in mind, thank you. I just have a hard time justifying my recovery in general, mainly with trauma when it's outside of drugs. It's comforting knowing that people here don't see it as a 'kiddie drug' and as a thing that can't be addicting, because in reality, it's ridiculous how addicting it is to me. It's like PURE euphoria, until it isn't.
 
dextromethorphian said:
I'll keep this in mind, thank you. I just have a hard time justifying my recovery in general, mainly with trauma when it's outside of drugs. It's comforting knowing that people here don't see it as a 'kiddie drug' and as a thing that can't be addicting, because in reality, it's ridiculous how addicting it is to me. It's like PURE euphoria, until it isn't.
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oh no man, it definitely isn’t something to be taken lightly. mate even if you had a food or shopping addiction, we’d be here for you. try not to focus on who or what is judging you, and maybe you’ll slowly get used to the idea of reaching out to a hand who’s offering some assistance and not feel too crummy about it :) all what you’re feeling is completely normal, man 💕
 
Hate_Me said:
I went on a bender and came home at 3am. My wife woke up and found me wasted and cutting up lines in my bonus room. It was either clean my shit up, or lose her. 🫤
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Good call, I'm sure she's worth the effort.
Making the effort for each other is mainly what keeps me and my husband of 29 years sober and together and actually still in love. I'm lying here with his foot resting against my ribs and I don't mind if his socks are sweaty or not. See, that proves it 😆
Not sober myself these days, but i think about it.
Good luck 💖
 
I had an alright day today because I told myself that I was going to.
But I had not taken neurotin in about, it seems like it was going on six days already. I just wanted for the pain to go away. So anyway I knew I would be taking it and to be aware not to snap.
So I knew that I would have it under control because I would be aware not to snap. I was. And then I just snapped. This stuff is so weird for me. Then it made me feel such great despair because it did make me feel really depressed. And then I felt like I could just expire ?
Anyway this stuff has such a bad effect on me and on the other hand it made me hallucinate. I saw blue melting in a tree when it was in fact it was something blue completely way behind a tree.
But the whole day was even weirder than that. Lol. Omg. Yes omg. But yes, it's over and whatever. But usually I can just redirect a situation if necessary, or just acknowledge and then just find something else to focus on or just move on. Or just fix it real quick and go on with something else.
This stuff, no. It makes me just wild trying to deal with just dysfunction in general.
It's like I am detached from life. And now it's even more difficult to function. I mean . . . . is this right !!! Oh well. It was a weird day and I tried to be functional and it was snappy.
And I severely dislike being this depressed and incapacitated. And slow, . . . . . again. Well at least I know that the lyrica is going to be fun. Now my stomach hurts bad !!! Oh like my messed friend. And the doctor told me that they are non addictive and that I can't get addicted to them. I think that they are told to say that. I get bottles of the stuff. The stomach agony is from something else. I'm just not sure what yet. i don't know if i"m going to make it. ouch

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Yeas. My arse can't function on this stuff. Jezuz lord mary cry joseph already. that is all.
 
Better.

Better than I have been in a long while. I am able to actually clean and cook at the same time now, and more at times without feeling too badly.

Well so far, good for now. I guess being positive and having a strong will can help. If this is going to be the choice.

It's a lot of stiffness too and dealing with it. And my heart can feel really tight. But, yes, that is all. It's enough for me though.

I hope everyone gets through every new day that we are given. Somehow. The choices we make today can make a difference in tomorrow.

And it is awesome to be proud of each other too. I hope you feel beautiful today.

All that I can say is try to eliminate the changes for life getting worse and for the possibility of it ever getting better. Just trying when you can is a start.

I still go outside and walk around a lot. Nature will heal me more than anything. The water and the Forks do miracles. It seems like that is another healing power.

And yes, do the best that you can !! My favorite . . . . YOLO.

bye.
 
kiely said:
Better.

Better than I have been in a long while. I am able to actually clean and cook at the same time now, and more at times without feeling too badly.

Well so far, good for now. I guess being positive and having a strong will can help. If this is going to be the choice.

It's a lot of stiffness too and dealing with it. And my heart can feel really tight. But, yes, that is all. It's enough for me though.

I hope everyone gets through every new day that we are given. Somehow. The choices we make today can make a difference in tomorrow.

And it is awesome to be proud of each other too. I hope you feel beautiful today.

All that I can say is try to eliminate the changes for life getting worse and for the possibility of it ever getting better. Just trying when you can is a start.

I still go outside and walk around a lot. Nature will heal me more than anything. The water and the Forks do miracles. It seems like that is another healing power.

And yes, do the best that you can !! My favorite . . . . YOLO.

bye.
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You've got it! Just by what you're doing is definitely healing. I like to look at the mountains in their beautiful majestic way, especially when theres snow on them in the Winter. Any nature is Gods way of healing and beauty. Take care and have a happy weekend.
 
Snafu in the Void said:
20 days sober :) :headbang:

This is the longest I've been sober from alcohol in longer than I can remember.... over 10 years I believe. When I went to detox last year I relapsed after around 17 days I think.
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