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BrokenMind

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sup. i'm awkward. i'm just going to get that out of the way to avoid future 3 paragraph sessions deleted from my fear of not being accepted.

i'll keep it short and sweet: i used to smoke a lot, all the time, everyday with my closest friends to the most random strangers just met at a public swimming pool with no problem of having fun and trippin' out. it was great. i was able to talk to cops and figures of authority without any hesitation (besides the slight shiver of potential jail-time) and it was all good and fun.

now, for some insane reason, every time i smoke, no matter if i'm alone or with my closest friends, sister or girlfriend, i still feel the same amount of insecurity and insignificance. it's as if no matter what i do, every measure of every mannerism i make, i feel as if i'm being judged even if nobody's around. i really don't know how to explain it, i just feel like shit and like i can't express who i am due to some psychological setback.

whatever, it makes no sense even to me: the person writing this, but i need some advice. HAS ANYONE EVER FELT THIS BEFORE? and if so, what the fuck? i used to smoke and would be able to hold a rather flirtatious conversation with megan fox if the opportunity presented itself, but NOW? i can't have a conversation with my mother about how i'd like to have my eggs cooked. is weed a strong enough "drug" to bring out my insecurities and lack of self confidence to such an extent or have i damaged my neurotransmitters and inner clockwork of my brain passed the point of repair?

oh btw, this effect has lasted past my highs. i actually have adapted this sense of reality into my daily routines and have inevitably, for 3+ years, been socially inept to a point of no return.

HALP
thanks,
-BrM
 
it was definitely random. i smoked everyday, everyday and all of a sudden i hit this wall stopping me from reaching euphoria.
still, i don't know why a reason aside from something exponentially traumatic would regulate this kind of effect when years and years before this beginning of experiences was entirely easy-going.
 
Maybe try having a break? I think it affects everyone differently, but for me spefically I can tell you I smoked every day for more than a year and by the end of it I was absolutely paranoid. Every drug has side-effects and in my experience weed brings with it paranoia, mild delusions, impaired judgement, and that sort've thing, which eventually kind've made for a depressing situation for me to be in. I guess if you smoked weed very infrequently it would be fine, but I honestly don't have experience doing that. I also have friends who smoke weed every day and seem to avoid any major problems. I don't intend to ever smoke weed again, I'm not denying that getting high is nice, it's just that it doesn't make sense for me to smoke weed. I was in a bit of denial about the fact that weed had these side-effects on me too, but the reality is it does fuck with my head, and I just don't want that.
 
I agree on taking a break, that's what it sounds like you need. You can get some support and tips here in our MEGA thread for taking a break from cannabis. Another link that might be useful to you is this mega thread on unusual responses to cannabis.

Generally, we don't allow self serving threads since they clutter the forum and there is already a lot of information in our CD directory (in my signature) to help you out.

I'm going to close this, but if you have any further questions feel free to PM me (but make sure to check out those links!)
 
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