That's Paranoia

[Ms PeachyBreeks]

Like a ghost it appears in the dark of night
Only ghosts sometimes leave at the break of dawn
But this creepy fear still follows me
I can't leave the house until it's gone
A prickle of scalp and tingle of spine
Hurts to breathe so deeply but
I'm hyperventilating maybe I'll die
Or perhaps it's just paranoia again
Frustrating tears as I run back to the house
The only safe place is my bed
Except when I sleep I have dreams
Dreams which are dark and twisted
My eyes blur and legs go weak
I've never felt this alone before
I have to lie to my family and lie to my friends
I feel like I'm a bad person for doing this
Cold knot tightens in my stomach
Heart rate peaks as I stare blindly, wildly
Want to scream but can't pluck up the courage
So I breathe far too deeply instead
This is my payback for all of the times
That I've been selfish and that I have lied
That I've done bad things that I should not do
Now I've only gone and let everyone down again
It usually ends, paranoia always does
But there's always the warning sign
What if it comes back again
Next time I might not be so lucky
Distrust of family
Misuse of friends
Distrust of myself
Misuse of drugs
That's paranoia.

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

Distrust of family
Misuse of friends
Distrust of myself
Misuse of drugs
That's paranoia.
yes oh yes it is....
good work! i liked this piece a lot...