That time I was so high I changed all my internet passwords without recovery emails to things I'll never be able to remember. (Solved)

[Atomic_Decay]

The reasons for vaporising myself into online nothningness like a shard of the purest Burmese pseudo meth in a brand new bubbler held by the sweetest of Chinese hookers were probably very complicated but entirely explicable at the time. But after waiting a respectable amount of time to see if anyone noticed I was gone and gave a shit (they most certainly did not)

What are:

(a) any options for temporarily recovering the real me without a recovery password in order to express some personal "Fuck You Friend"'s

(b) the $-cost size of the donation required to have all 8,000 historical insensate ravings by me assigned to the Jabberwocky?

I'm not saying these are the only pathways forward I am considering.

 

[Atomic_Decay]

ngl u need to shut off all input and focus on what teh fuck u typed during that time or else you'll lose it forever. Sit ur in bed, unplug and turn off all divices and think for a few days.

I'll never recall it. I did it over a month ago and that month was spent just eating ketamine or random psychedelics (and surprisingly some GHB and viagra one night) everytime I looked at BL and realised no-one missed me.

 

[deficiT]

Dude I was wondering where TF you were at. What the shit, you lost your passwords?

 

[deficiT]

Don't feel bad, I have done similar things on dissociatives, but at least I had the good sense to write the shit down. Trying to type those things in while high on dissociatives is a different story though, nigh impossible.

You've been browsing this whole time and never spoke up? Mate of course we missed you.

 

[n3ophy7e]

The reasons for vaporising myself into online nothningness like a shard of the purest Burmese pseudo meth in a brand new bubbler held by the sweetest of Chinese hookers were probably very complicated but entirely explicable at the time.

Ahhhhh we've all been there mate

 

[deficiT]

Check your DMs I can fix it.

 

[SoCalShordie]

The reasons for vaporising myself into online nothningness like a shard of the purest Burmese pseudo meth in a brand new bubbler held by the sweetest of Chinese hookers were probably very complicated but entirely explicable at the time. But after waiting a respectable amount of time to see if anyone noticed I was gone and gave a shit (they most certainly did not)

What are:

(a) any options for temporarily recovering the real me without a recovery password in order to express some personal "Fuck You Friend"'s

(b) the $-cost size of the donation required to have all 8,000 historical insensate ravings by me assigned to the Jabberwocky?

I'm not saying these are the only pathways forward I am considering.

I have done literally the same exact thing lol when I was on benzos. I was taking 16mg+ a day and I’d feel bomb af but it would wipe my memory almost completely and I’d wake up the following day and be locked out of like every account.

 

[Atomic_Decay]

The worst thing was I’d been banging s-isomer ketamine for days out of a 5g bag and at some point cleaned up the gigantic pile of syringe and needle wrappers, swabs, water ampoules, plastic spoons etc etc and threw them into the trash compactor (which is 9 story chute into a locked garbage room).

Next day: no sign anywhere of that bag of ketamine. It was gone wherever my episodic memory of the last week was.

 

[deficiT]

ketamine gets pretty crazy, glad you're all good

 

[Jabberwocky]

ketamine gets pretty crazy, glad you're all good

I think losing the last couple of grams that way worked out for best really. I was at the point where I really didn’t want anymore but was channelling the dark spirit of @jhjhsdi and couldn’t stop while there was any to be had.

I have some unexplained internal aches as it is that I’m hoping are just muscular or from falling over repeatedly.

 

[jhjhsdi]

channelling the dark spirit of @jhjhsdi and couldn’t stop while there was any to be had.

Yep, she's one hungry/greedy spirit alright, she needs to learn some bloody self control
I was toying with the idea of getting 5g today when i just woke up from a dream where i was IVing... Even though I have no money and I owe my guy £250... But now I'm definitely going to text him i dont have to start work until 6pm tomorrow so fuck it. I have 2 barrels 4 cookers and 7 heads left from last weekend that are just crying out to be used up.

Also, plastic spoons? I heard of that for meth, never ket. Dont you heat your shots? I havent got the patience to wait 5min for my k to dissolve in cold water, plus i use tap water so the boiling is necessary reeeaaally lol. I re cap and dunk the barrels in my glass of cold water if im too incapacitated to go run it under the tap to cool it down, that is if i dont do a dick move and just shoot it hot - yes im that impatient.
IME: To successfully shoot 600ml-1g in a 1ml syringe the water HAS to be hot lol, but i dont recommend it unless you got hate for the vein you go into because it'll likely collapse the cunt.


Man that dream was sexual

 

[Nurse Ratched]

The reasons for vaporising myself into online nothningness like a shard of the purest Burmese pseudo meth in a brand new bubbler held by the sweetest of Chinese hookers were probably very complicated but entirely explicable at the time. But after waiting a respectable amount of time to see if anyone noticed I was gone and gave a shit (they most certainly did not)

What are:

(a) any options for temporarily recovering the real me without a recovery password in order to express some personal "Fuck You Friend"'s

(b) the $-cost size of the donation required to have all 8,000 historical insensate ravings by me assigned to the Jabberwocky?

I'm not saying these are the only pathways forward I am considering.

I missed you very much and wondered where you were. Almost made a thread yesterday asking about you. Thought you were ill or on vacation or something.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yep, she's one hungry/greedy spirit alright, she needs to learn some bloody self control
I was toying with the idea of getting 5g today when i just woke up from a dream where i was IVing... Even though I have no money and I owe my guy £250... But now I'm definitely going to text him i dont have to start work until 6pm tomorrow so fuck it. I have 2 barrels 4 cookers and 7 heads left from last weekend that are just crying out to be used up.

Also, plastic spoons? I heard of that for meth, never ket. Dont you heat your shots? I havent got the patience to wait 5min for my k to dissolve in cold water, plus i use tap water so the boiling is necessary reeeaaally lol. I re cap and dunk the barrels in my glass of cold water if im too incapacitated to go run it under the tap to cool it down, that is if i dont do a dick move and just shoot it hot - yes im that impatient.
IME: To successfully shoot 600ml-1g in a 1ml syringe the water HAS to be hot lol, but i dont recommend it unless you got hate for the vein you go into because it'll likely collapse the cunt.


Man that dream was sexual

I was using sterile water ampoules and wheel filters until the last day and I think maximim single shots of 250 mg. It all dissolved pretty quick.

i never even thought to heat it because speed/meth dissolves near instantly at room temperature and heating anything that is not dissolving is just putting some unknown garbage cut in your shot. It didn’t occur to me meth might be different.

I usually just mixed up a gram into 4 or 5 different shots, put them on the coffee table withon reach, lay down on the sofa, and banged the smallest one in first and just kept fumbling for another one when it felt I could see straight or sit up.

The last night was regrettable because I ran out of wheel filters and water ampoules and the batteries on my scale died but I decided to go for a second gram sometime after the first.

It’s a super fucking dangerous drug but at the same time it’s extremely forgiving and I don’t think I actually went as far as anaesthesia and blackout.

You know, truth be told, I’d never even heard of ketamine before Bluelight and never would have tried it but from what I learned here (same with DMT and 2c-b). That’s what turned me away from BL for a little while there. But without BL I never wpuld have quit shooting coke the first time I joined, or shooting meth the second time I joined, or pretty much quotting meth the third time. So it more than balances pit.

 

[jhjhsdi]

I usually just mixed up a gram into 4 or 5 different shots, put them on the coffee table withon reach, lay down on the sofa, and banged the smallest one in first and just kept fumbling for another one when it felt I could see straight or sit up.

Ive done this in the past but usually do the first and come round when they're all gone, angry and confused to where all the shots i made up went because i only remember doing the first one lol so now i dont do it that way. Occasionally ill prep 2 at once and put one in the fridge, can be one of those sweet moments where you completely forget about even putting it there and find it the next day or something after you've run out, although truth be told that is sometimes a curse more than a blessing because it sets you off again and you end up buying more lol

 

[darvocet21]

The reasons for vaporising myself into online nothningness like a shard of the purest Burmese pseudo meth in a brand new bubbler held by the sweetest of Chinese hookers were probably very complicated but entirely explicable at the time. But after waiting a respectable amount of time to see if anyone noticed I was gone and gave a shit (they most certainly did not)

What are:

(a) any options for temporarily recovering the real me without a recovery password in order to express some personal "Fuck You Friend"'s

(b) the $-cost size of the donation required to have all 8,000 historical insensate ravings by me assigned to the Jabberwocky?

I'm not saying these are the only pathways forward I am considering.

How can we be sure this is even you