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That itch

i could not agree more in the value of keeping documentation in thoughts, feelings, actions, re actions... itches. .. and so on, aiding in the ongoing process in realizations of where we find our stance. during some of the inner heights of my addiction i started taking photographs of myself on roughly a weekly basis. they have served as very powerful reminders and ties to those times strongly pairing with my thoughts. small things that have been a major part of recovery.
 
pro re nata said:
well.. . shit you scratched that itch and really remembered you do not like getting bit.

really nice thought/feeling in your words, sounds like this could be giving you some really good clarity and momentum. how is the MMT coming along are you still holding at the 50mg? just stride right on by this, not holding on to any of it and keep moving forward.
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Yes holding on at 50. The thing about falling off while on mmt, is that I can avoid the vicious cycle of never ending use to try keep drawls away by just dosing the meth like I would.
 
yes this is a very nice form of documentation, it for sure is and will be great to look back on. in addition it might be helpful to do/have some personal writing of thoughts and emotions during this period, just an idea to think about... .

i hear you about dipping off with MMT being there. it is good you see it the way you do and not with the perspective that MMT is always there for you to abuse. which it is obvious that has not been your course nor your actions. glad to hear you are at the 50mg.

well. .. . welcome back from florida!! i hear the "mosquitoes" are awful this time of year.. ..
 
pro re nata said:
yes this is a very nice form of documentation, it for sure is and will be great to look back on. in addition it might be helpful to do/have some personal writing of thoughts and emotions during this period, just an idea to think about... .

i hear you about dipping off with MMT being there. it is good you see it the way you do and not with the perspective that MMT is always there for you to abuse. which it is obvious that has not been your course nor your actions. glad to hear you are at the 50mg.

well. .. . welcome back from florida!! i hear the "mosquitoes" are awful this time of year.. ..
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Yeah its a fine line. It's very easy to just think of the MMT as a safety net of sorts and use whenever I can get away with it.

The lying stealing and cheating won't change. I'd lose any respect I've gained, from others and for myself.

Man we really do think alike. I mean all of us. It's the first thing that went through my head after writing what I did and sure enough someone posted about it.
 
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