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i made it back and it feels MUCH better now! well friends after only about 5 minutes or so in the bathroom i made it back. by the way, brushing your teeth on mushrooms feels amazing! i wanted to keep writing because it feels so good to write and let out your thoughts but at the same time i wanted to keep the first document seperate cuz it kinda feels special to me. just the sporatic impulsivity of it all...you know... ive never done anything like this before (keep a journal i mean) or even written for pleasure but I'm really glad to have done it! i dont even know what inspired me to do it. one minute i'm in my room trying to find my photon light somewhere on my bed to give myself a lightshow, next thing i know i'm on the 'puter typing away like there's no tomorrow....(no pun intended, lets hope there is a tomorrow and its bright and promising)
this feels different. i feel i can type slower and more relaxed now whereas before my thoughts were racing like a little white rabbit on crack!! (or whatever else he was on...)
i've never done crack by the way. just in case you wanted to know.... i'm sitting here wondering if people will read this, wondering whether i should upload both of these documents or not. wondering whether to turn off bobmarley and put on some trance and TriP BalLlLz dOOd!! ( i saw someone on BL wite that once and thought it was pretty darn funny...i think it was regarding giving drugs to fish (and then eating the fish to trip out or something like that)
i know what you're thinking... "trance?? ewww" let me tell you sumpin' buddy. trance...real crative boomin trance is SOMETHIN' alright? i'm not even that big on trance but i gotta give it respect. its what got me into the scene a few years back.! and wouldn't you know it....just as i'm writing that, just as i'm praising trance and listening to one of my oldest cd's and remembering the beginning of it all....the fucking cd starts to skip and eventually freeze altogether....what irony huh? what a buzzkill! so now its back to good ol' house muzic which is saved on my 'puter which other than the obvious advantage of not skipping, also has the added benefit of not making that unusually loud humming sound of the cd rom drive doing its thing. which is pretty noticable on an otherwise quiet stormy mysterious friday morning. what was i going to say? eh i forgot...do you know how hard it is to keep a train of thought on mushrooms? prertty near impossible buddy, impossible +1 if you're trying to not only keep a train of thought but also type along with it.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeird. oh man this music sounds so good. its roundtrip by dj dan...highly recommended if you like tek house which i didn't really up to the point of borrowing this cd from a friend. i'm more in to deeper darker (sometimes tribal) house music...like the dark drums series by steve lawler....man have you heard this shit??? fucking amazing and thats when i'm sober, i wonder what it will be like on boomers. i think i'll put it on but i'm afraid of the cd player breaking down again. only thing i dont like about this roundtrip cd is that its predictable in that i've listened to it so much lately! nothing wrong with the music itself tho. nonetheless i think i'll change it....as soon as i come back from the bathroom....can you believe it? already i gotta go again...kinda annoying....but otherwise BEAUTIFUL (mushrooms that is...and life in general, when you think about it) stop and think for a moment about all that you have to give thanks and praises for...really makes one glad to be alive and looking forward to a new dawn. i got a new job today so i guess that helps tooo. but fuck the job, i'm talking about the food in your stomach and the roof over your head on this rainy night. many people...too many people dont have any of that. and to those poor forgotten souls who must feel like they have been completely robbed out of life. i say that you're not forgotten. and that you'll get yours in the life to come and the future that is yet to be. your redemption WILL come my friends. to the poor starving souls of the world who fantasize about their next meal, wondering if it will come or if they'll finally die and be releaved of this world and all the suffering its brought them. you're not forgotten. somewhere there is a young man who despite all his problems, must seem like he lives the life of a king compared to yourown. this ungrateful little brat with his computer and toys and mushrooms and what-not whining about the cd player breaking down and having to wee and all that trivial SHIT! how absurd it must all seem to you. the powers that be, the "representatives" of this planet are searching out for new life in the heavens and building space stations and spending all this time and energy and resource on fantasies when there is so much need right here at home.not want or crave or desire people, but NEED! kinda reminds me of "so much trouble in the world" ...you know that song? well my needy friends, as long as there are those of us still THINKING freely out there, those with their heads not buried in the ground like an ostriche, those who see existence for what it is and what it could be, you're not forgotten................................................................................................................................................................
i've been writing nondtop for quite some time now, i think i'll stop soon. but man that felt amazing. i just needed to get some things off my chest. i think i'm coming down a bit. i'm not tripping nearly as intense as i was when i first started doing this. like on the first page. Once again, thank you for reading this. if you've read this whole thing then your patience must be applauded. to be honest i have no idea what i wrote mostly. i dont plan on reading this for a while myself but i think i'll go ahaed and send it onlide just for a sense of closure i guess. i'm not even sure if this will all fit or whatever. anyway time for another bathroom adventure.
all in all i'm very glad i did this. i found it very theraputic and rewarding to sit and write down my thoughts....hightly recommended. (and to think, here i am doing something illegal and subsequently bad and wrong.........right?) 'thoughtcrime' its called in newspeak
'till next time amigos.......one love!
i made it back and it feels MUCH better now! well friends after only about 5 minutes or so in the bathroom i made it back. by the way, brushing your teeth on mushrooms feels amazing! i wanted to keep writing because it feels so good to write and let out your thoughts but at the same time i wanted to keep the first document seperate cuz it kinda feels special to me. just the sporatic impulsivity of it all...you know... ive never done anything like this before (keep a journal i mean) or even written for pleasure but I'm really glad to have done it! i dont even know what inspired me to do it. one minute i'm in my room trying to find my photon light somewhere on my bed to give myself a lightshow, next thing i know i'm on the 'puter typing away like there's no tomorrow....(no pun intended, lets hope there is a tomorrow and its bright and promising)
this feels different. i feel i can type slower and more relaxed now whereas before my thoughts were racing like a little white rabbit on crack!! (or whatever else he was on...)
i've never done crack by the way. just in case you wanted to know.... i'm sitting here wondering if people will read this, wondering whether i should upload both of these documents or not. wondering whether to turn off bobmarley and put on some trance and TriP BalLlLz dOOd!! ( i saw someone on BL wite that once and thought it was pretty darn funny...i think it was regarding giving drugs to fish (and then eating the fish to trip out or something like that)
i know what you're thinking... "trance?? ewww" let me tell you sumpin' buddy. trance...real crative boomin trance is SOMETHIN' alright? i'm not even that big on trance but i gotta give it respect. its what got me into the scene a few years back.! and wouldn't you know it....just as i'm writing that, just as i'm praising trance and listening to one of my oldest cd's and remembering the beginning of it all....the fucking cd starts to skip and eventually freeze altogether....what irony huh? what a buzzkill! so now its back to good ol' house muzic which is saved on my 'puter which other than the obvious advantage of not skipping, also has the added benefit of not making that unusually loud humming sound of the cd rom drive doing its thing. which is pretty noticable on an otherwise quiet stormy mysterious friday morning. what was i going to say? eh i forgot...do you know how hard it is to keep a train of thought on mushrooms? prertty near impossible buddy, impossible +1 if you're trying to not only keep a train of thought but also type along with it.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeird. oh man this music sounds so good. its roundtrip by dj dan...highly recommended if you like tek house which i didn't really up to the point of borrowing this cd from a friend. i'm more in to deeper darker (sometimes tribal) house music...like the dark drums series by steve lawler....man have you heard this shit??? fucking amazing and thats when i'm sober, i wonder what it will be like on boomers. i think i'll put it on but i'm afraid of the cd player breaking down again. only thing i dont like about this roundtrip cd is that its predictable in that i've listened to it so much lately! nothing wrong with the music itself tho. nonetheless i think i'll change it....as soon as i come back from the bathroom....can you believe it? already i gotta go again...kinda annoying....but otherwise BEAUTIFUL (mushrooms that is...and life in general, when you think about it) stop and think for a moment about all that you have to give thanks and praises for...really makes one glad to be alive and looking forward to a new dawn. i got a new job today so i guess that helps tooo. but fuck the job, i'm talking about the food in your stomach and the roof over your head on this rainy night. many people...too many people dont have any of that. and to those poor forgotten souls who must feel like they have been completely robbed out of life. i say that you're not forgotten. and that you'll get yours in the life to come and the future that is yet to be. your redemption WILL come my friends. to the poor starving souls of the world who fantasize about their next meal, wondering if it will come or if they'll finally die and be releaved of this world and all the suffering its brought them. you're not forgotten. somewhere there is a young man who despite all his problems, must seem like he lives the life of a king compared to yourown. this ungrateful little brat with his computer and toys and mushrooms and what-not whining about the cd player breaking down and having to wee and all that trivial SHIT! how absurd it must all seem to you. the powers that be, the "representatives" of this planet are searching out for new life in the heavens and building space stations and spending all this time and energy and resource on fantasies when there is so much need right here at home.not want or crave or desire people, but NEED! kinda reminds me of "so much trouble in the world" ...you know that song? well my needy friends, as long as there are those of us still THINKING freely out there, those with their heads not buried in the ground like an ostriche, those who see existence for what it is and what it could be, you're not forgotten................................................................................................................................................................
i've been writing nondtop for quite some time now, i think i'll stop soon. but man that felt amazing. i just needed to get some things off my chest. i think i'm coming down a bit. i'm not tripping nearly as intense as i was when i first started doing this. like on the first page. Once again, thank you for reading this. if you've read this whole thing then your patience must be applauded. to be honest i have no idea what i wrote mostly. i dont plan on reading this for a while myself but i think i'll go ahaed and send it onlide just for a sense of closure i guess. i'm not even sure if this will all fit or whatever. anyway time for another bathroom adventure.
all in all i'm very glad i did this. i found it very theraputic and rewarding to sit and write down my thoughts....hightly recommended. (and to think, here i am doing something illegal and subsequently bad and wrong.........right?) 'thoughtcrime' its called in newspeak
'till next time amigos.......one love!
