CleanPanda
Greenlighter
Hi all! Boy I had a hard time getting registered. Those captcha things always mess with me but I like the random questions...
Anyhow, a little bit about me. I've tried all recreational drugs save heroin, crack and ecstasy. I'm more of a control type addict anyhow. Was always able to walk away no problems till I met my bestest friend in the whole wide world for the past 3-4 years. Percocet and only percocet. I didn't want anything else. Started on 5s for back pain and l steadily moved up the milligram chain till I was at or about 200 mgs a day. Pretty damned expensive habit. Especially when you are buying strictly off the street.
I can't tell you how many times I tried to quit on my own and relapsed. Finally, out of desperation, I joined a study at Columbia in NYC. They did a quick taper and at the end I received my first Vivitrol shot. I have been clean since July 12th which doesn't seem so long but is a lifetime for me. Longest I have ever gone since I started this nightmare ride.
Sadly my husband (whom I love with every fiber of my being) is still using. Can be a little difficult me being clean and him not but I refuse to let go of the time and sweat equity I have invested. I'd like to say I have no desire to use but that would be the biggest lie ever! The shot is truly the only thing that keeps me honest right now. What would be the point if I'm not going to feel ANYTHING?? I'm not one for wasting money (hypocritical when I think of the thousands we have spent over the past years) but I am doing my best and trying to take it one step at a time.
I am now currently on shot number 2. I would love to hear from anyone else who has been or currently takes vivitrol and their opinion of it.
Well, that's all there is about me for now. I look forward to having a network of those who have been where I was and where I am now. Very hard to talk to those who have never been down this road. I'm so glad bluelight is here. Nobody should have to go this road alone...
Anyhow, a little bit about me. I've tried all recreational drugs save heroin, crack and ecstasy. I'm more of a control type addict anyhow. Was always able to walk away no problems till I met my bestest friend in the whole wide world for the past 3-4 years. Percocet and only percocet. I didn't want anything else. Started on 5s for back pain and l steadily moved up the milligram chain till I was at or about 200 mgs a day. Pretty damned expensive habit. Especially when you are buying strictly off the street.
I can't tell you how many times I tried to quit on my own and relapsed. Finally, out of desperation, I joined a study at Columbia in NYC. They did a quick taper and at the end I received my first Vivitrol shot. I have been clean since July 12th which doesn't seem so long but is a lifetime for me. Longest I have ever gone since I started this nightmare ride.
Sadly my husband (whom I love with every fiber of my being) is still using. Can be a little difficult me being clean and him not but I refuse to let go of the time and sweat equity I have invested. I'd like to say I have no desire to use but that would be the biggest lie ever! The shot is truly the only thing that keeps me honest right now. What would be the point if I'm not going to feel ANYTHING?? I'm not one for wasting money (hypocritical when I think of the thousands we have spent over the past years) but I am doing my best and trying to take it one step at a time.
I am now currently on shot number 2. I would love to hear from anyone else who has been or currently takes vivitrol and their opinion of it.
Well, that's all there is about me for now. I look forward to having a network of those who have been where I was and where I am now. Very hard to talk to those who have never been down this road. I'm so glad bluelight is here. Nobody should have to go this road alone...
