thanks dark siders!

[OhCrap]

I have no idea how many will remember my post from a few weeks ago, but I have recently been struggling with a tramadol addiction. I've recieved so much support from the people here during the past few weeks and I can't offer enough thanks to everyone here. Reading other people's posts about having the same struggles is a constant reminder that I'm not alone. After a brief relapse five days after initially getting clean, I've been clean two solid weeks now and while it's still a daily struggle I've landed the job of my dreams and it's very demanding physically and mentally so it helps keep my mind off getting high. I definitely could not have done this without this message board and I want y'all to know that, at least to me, you all are heros! Thank you!!!!

 

[tripnotyzm]

OhCrap!!
I'm proud of you man
Very big congratulations on scoring the job too! Definitely a step up in the world.
Keep pushing on dude. You've proven to yourself that you can now operate without tramadol, let's try keep it this way

 

[Anoymator]

I have no idea how many will remember my post from a few weeks ago, but I have recently been struggling with a tramadol addiction. I've recieved so much support from the people here during the past few weeks and I can't offer enough thanks to everyone here. Reading other people's posts about having the same struggles is a constant reminder that I'm not alone. After a brief relapse five days after initially getting clean, I've been clean two solid weeks now and while it's still a daily struggle I've landed the job of my dreams and it's very demanding physically and mentally so it helps keep my mind off getting high. I definitely could not have done this without this message board and I want y'all to know that, at least to me, you all are heros! Thank you!!!!

Great stuff buddy! I am also addicted to tramadol and trying to get it off my back, can you tell us quickly about your addiction? I'll try to search for your thread but quickly tell us how you managed the WD and what was it like. There are many tramadol addicted people who lurk this forum, for what is worth.

Thanks!

 

[jones-in_J]

I didnt see your original post and dont browse the dark side except to make my own posts.but its also been helpful to me in my heroin problems

Good job on two weeks and landing a nice job man im happy as shit for you

Im two days strong off heroin now so although im going thru a different addiction in manu ways its the same.... if you ever want to talk hit me up man, and good luck with everythingn

 

[herbavore]

That is so fantastic that you got the job you wanted! :D

I am really glad that you found support here. It is an amazing community of people that really do care. I always like to bring up Bluelight when people start talking about how no one really communicates anymore, that everyone is just talking to a screen, etc. Bluelight is my first and only experience with a forum and I find the real interactions that happen between people to hold phenomenal power. I know you are going to be busy with your new job but I hope you will stick around to whatever extent you can fit into your schedule. Your experience navigating your own addiction will really help others in their own journeys.

 

[OhCrap]

Thanks herbavore, I think I will stick around and pay it forward! this addiction sort of caught me by surprise to be honest with you all. I had been a recreational user for years, and also have a legit pain condition which is how I first experienced these pills. At first I would do like 200mg once or twice a month, and it slowly became every weekend then several times a week and before I knew it I was taking 400mg a day and needed it to get out of bed in the morning. I was spending every extra cent on trams and even some I couldn't spare. After about 6 months of daily use I realized I needed to quit. The physical withdrawals were pretty uncomfortable but I used loperamide to get through the worst of it, and a bit of ativan for the rls. The mental withdrawal had been much harder to deal with. I have experienced some serious depression and anxiety and to be perfectly honest every day is a constant battle still. The weekends seem to be harder because during the week when I'm working my mind is busy so I don't have much time to think about using. But like today when I finally have some downtime to relax and recharge all I can think about is getting high and how nice that buzz feels. I am one of the lucky (or unlucky) people who gets high as hell on tramadol, peeking for 6-10 hours. I admit it's one of the best if not THE best high I've ever experienced from prescription pain killers, for me it trumps oxycontin and blows hydrocodone out of the water. But the other thing that's a really great feeling is being clean, and proving to myself that I can be happy and content and euphoric without this drug. I admit that in comparison to a lot of you my 6 month addiction was barely a drop in the bucket, but for me kicking this shit was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Each day gets a little better and a little easier. Each morning when I wake up and have another day clean under my belt that nagging voice in the back of my mind gets a little quieter, and I am beginning to get a little glimpse of the life I used to have before tramadol stole it. And I absolutely could not have done it without the support of this forum

 

[Anoymator]

Thanks herbavore, I think I will stick around and pay it forward! this addiction sort of caught me by surprise to be honest with you all. I had been a recreational user for years, and also have a legit pain condition which is how I first experienced these pills. At first I would do like 200mg once or twice a month, and it slowly became every weekend then several times a week and before I knew it I was taking 400mg a day and needed it to get out of bed in the morning. I was spending every extra cent on trams and even some I couldn't spare. After about 6 months of daily use I realized I needed to quit. The physical withdrawals were pretty uncomfortable but I used loperamide to get through the worst of it, and a bit of ativan for the rls. The mental withdrawal had been much harder to deal with. I have experienced some serious depression and anxiety and to be perfectly honest every day is a constant battle still. The weekends seem to be harder because during the week when I'm working my mind is busy so I don't have much time to think about using. But like today when I finally have some downtime to relax and recharge all I can think about is getting high and how nice that buzz feels. I am one of the lucky (or unlucky) people who gets high as hell on tramadol, peeking for 6-10 hours. I admit it's one of the best if not THE best high I've ever experienced from prescription pain killers, for me it trumps oxycontin and blows hydrocodone out of the water. But the other thing that's a really great feeling is being clean, and proving to myself that I can be happy and content and euphoric without this drug. I admit that in comparison to a lot of you my 6 month addiction was barely a drop in the bucket, but for me kicking this shit was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Each day gets a little better and a little easier. Each morning when I wake up and have another day clean under my belt that nagging voice in the back of my mind gets a little quieter, and I am beginning to get a little glimpse of the life I used to have before tramadol stole it. And I absolutely could not have done it without the support of this forum

Well, I am in the same situation so thanks for posting!