Even though it's only 2 nights a week, it gets me out of the house. I still have school, but it's all online now, which means that I have to be home. The first problem with that is that I've always been a consummate loner. I live with 2 other people that are home all of the damn time. So before when I went to school, I was gone all day and didn't get home until about 8pm most nights. This eliminated me being irritated with the people that I live with for the most part. We all pay rent, but Mom can't afford to run the A/C and it's starting to get too damn hot. I close the blinds and run the fan. Mom insists upon taking all of the ice from the ice maker for herself and that is where she and I butt heads. If it weren't for me, she would not be able to stay in that house. So before COVID, I bought my own ice, which I still do but I also went inside different fast food places and filled my 32 ounce cup with ice and water. That is how I was able to stand driving around in the damn heat. My A/C is broken in the car and it's going to be a while before I can afford to fix it. I can no longer fill my cup with ice from fast food places or get it at school and these damn summers get into triple digits in So Cali. What happens then is that I am sapped of all of my energy and sleep a lot. I hate feeling this way. I hate having to write all of these never ending reports from school in a hot house. I've been getting it done, but this heat wears me out and I can't go to the public library or school to do my homework. Thank Christ for my job. I wouldn't mind being stuck at home if I lived alone, but I don't. Now that I've bitched about it, I remember this is what Narcotics Anonymous referred to as Cadillac problems. When I was using I often times didn't have a job or a home to go to.
