stonerfromohio
Bluelighter
It seems ive been in a haze all these years
But it was just a phase
I lost my way
Each and every day
I was Consumed by toxic bile
Smoke this, drink that, eat this
Down the hatch it goes to intoxicate the mind
I had to know evil to know light
It was a fight I almost lost
A life almost tossed into the den of darkness
A subtle kiss of evil everywhere I looked
Embracing all that I always said I wouldnt
Rationalize it all away
So I could keep the flooding thoughts at bay
That wanted so desperately to stop digging a hole
To drown out this sorrow that was only created because of the drugs I couldnt
stop
Just one last drop
Just one more high
So I can fade away into a daze
One more lie to get another front
Im on the hunt for the goods
The only thing I live for now
This dirty toxic grainy feeling
That invades my headspace all hours of the day
That tangles the dendrites and loosens every connection
Nobody cared enough for any intersection
I would sit in my gloomy apartment
Stooing over each and every event away from now
What I needed was a plow
To unsow all the evil I had planted
To wipe the slate clean
So that I wasnt so damn self-concerned and mean
And not such a fucking drug fiend
Id do anything to look away from my true face
I projected all the hate I had for myself on anyone but me
I was far from free
I just needed to let my mind be
And stop chasing the light I experienced one day on acid
I was looking for the carrot on a stick
And it almost killed me
Thank God I woke up
But it was just a phase
I lost my way
Each and every day
I was Consumed by toxic bile
Smoke this, drink that, eat this
Down the hatch it goes to intoxicate the mind
I had to know evil to know light
It was a fight I almost lost
A life almost tossed into the den of darkness
A subtle kiss of evil everywhere I looked
Embracing all that I always said I wouldnt
Rationalize it all away
So I could keep the flooding thoughts at bay
That wanted so desperately to stop digging a hole
To drown out this sorrow that was only created because of the drugs I couldnt
stop
Just one last drop
Just one more high
So I can fade away into a daze
One more lie to get another front
Im on the hunt for the goods
The only thing I live for now
This dirty toxic grainy feeling
That invades my headspace all hours of the day
That tangles the dendrites and loosens every connection
Nobody cared enough for any intersection
I would sit in my gloomy apartment
Stooing over each and every event away from now
What I needed was a plow
To unsow all the evil I had planted
To wipe the slate clean
So that I wasnt so damn self-concerned and mean
And not such a fucking drug fiend
Id do anything to look away from my true face
I projected all the hate I had for myself on anyone but me
I was far from free
I just needed to let my mind be
And stop chasing the light I experienced one day on acid
I was looking for the carrot on a stick
And it almost killed me
Thank God I woke up
