Merry Fucking X-Mas to me huh?
When I lose it all, I really do lose it all don't I?
This time I'll get to see the true failure that is me as I see a man possibly die in a diaper or his own waste and watch our son cry and be fucked up truely day by day until he slowly either goes crazy, forgets his own father or goes the way of his mother's family.
We won't know until he can get a specialists appointment, which could take up to 3 months..... nice system huh?
While he sits here in pain, losing weight and sobbing in his bath each night thinking he is dying and might mever see his son fully grown, might never see grandkids, might never have any more kids of his own......Ohhhhh that's right......that last one is already ta shit....... fuck.
Whoever the fates are, can go fuck themselves and their due reason for picking a life like this for me, for terry and everyone that I truely fuck up in their life....or they fuck up in mine.
Shit. The damn fool got double fucked. Lost his fiancee, and possibly his life.
What a wonderful person I am, and yet, I cannot pitty be with him, though we are friends and I do love him in ways - he is my son's father after all.
fuck, life sucks big reindeer balls.
I hope it's not cancer, no matter how much he pisses me off or I hate him, I would never wish death or cancer on anyone.
Dear Santa?
When I lose it all, I really do lose it all don't I?
This time I'll get to see the true failure that is me as I see a man possibly die in a diaper or his own waste and watch our son cry and be fucked up truely day by day until he slowly either goes crazy, forgets his own father or goes the way of his mother's family.
We won't know until he can get a specialists appointment, which could take up to 3 months..... nice system huh?
While he sits here in pain, losing weight and sobbing in his bath each night thinking he is dying and might mever see his son fully grown, might never see grandkids, might never have any more kids of his own......Ohhhhh that's right......that last one is already ta shit....... fuck.
Whoever the fates are, can go fuck themselves and their due reason for picking a life like this for me, for terry and everyone that I truely fuck up in their life....or they fuck up in mine.
Shit. The damn fool got double fucked. Lost his fiancee, and possibly his life.
What a wonderful person I am, and yet, I cannot pitty be with him, though we are friends and I do love him in ways - he is my son's father after all.
fuck, life sucks big reindeer balls.
I hope it's not cancer, no matter how much he pisses me off or I hate him, I would never wish death or cancer on anyone.
Dear Santa?