Jack Torrance
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 15, 2012
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So I smoked a joint of this stuff I bought off someone I know from high school. I could not feel or even taste, so I thought there must be a hole in the joint or something, but then when I breathed out there was a lot of smoke. Odd, I thought. But I had a few tokes. I had a cold earlier in the week and assumed it must be my blocked nose causing the lack of taste and sensation.
Anyway, I don't feel it at first, I go upstairs to my laptop to chill out with Hotel California, California Dreaming, Losing My Religion, all that stuff as I usually do (Hotel California is a VERY good song to listen to when totally relaxed). Then I start feeling very funny. Not like a cannabis high but like something weird. Then it gets worse. I begin to feel a little scared so I lay down to try and sleep it off. After a few seconds, I hear the Gorillaz Demon Days Intro echo out "You are now entering the harmonic realm-realm-realm-realm". It was strong. I don't ever hallucinate off of weed. At this point I'm wondering what the fuck is going on. And I smoke my joints pure so I'm thinking if it is laced I might have overdosed as in my country EVERYONE mixes with tobacco. As I open my eyes and sit upright, startled, I suddenly feel absolutely WRECKED!! TOTALLY DESTROYED!! It gets worse from here. I feel mildly anxious. I keep saying "I think I'm going to die now" even though I'm not thinking it, I was speaking subconsciously, hearing news reports in my head saying "man dies of cannabis". You know when you zone out and a friend speaks and you snap back to reality? That was happening with my own voice. I have smoked weed many times before but whatever I smoked caused tonnes of anxiety.
I throw on all the lights, because darkness and silence is making it worse. I walk out into the corridor and the walls and door frames appear to be one object forming a tunnel which is diagonally on its side. Not unlike a Salvia trip. I go back to my room. I get very, very, very dissociated and delirious. I start saying "I feel like Dr. Robotnik" (when I was really delirious, I posted that online), "I feel like Craig David", "I feel like Ronald McDonald". I kept feeling like I'm different people who I'm not. It kept getting worse and worse, and I then had a full blown 100% panic attack. I kept zoning out of reality into vivid scenes in my imagination, one being a hippy concert, terminator exoskeleton getting shot in the head with a lazer beam, the thing after The Simpsons where someone goes "Shh!" and it's in a cinema (you know what I mean?) that one happened a lot. At one point I thought I was Eminem and I was hearing rap music very strongly in my head. I decided to go to the hospital as this was not like weed and I was scared I'd OD'd on a research chemical or PCP, something like that. As I was being driven there, I kept registering things wrong, and thinking I saw things. This was the peak. I saw a traffic cone and thought it was a lollipop lady. I didn't see a lollipop lady I saw the cone, but I thought the cone was a lollipop lady. Various other things like dark figures walking on the sidewalk, penny farthings, squirrels and foxes running across the road. I was falling into imagination VERY readily and seeing scenes before my eyes as if I was in a different place.
I fell into a VERY WEIRD INSANE state of mind which I fall into on Salvia, but this was far worse than that. I was dissociated to the point where I no longer thought I was myself. I thought I was a consciousness separate from myself, where "me" was what my universe was based around and what created it. I still KNEW I was really me, but my brain wasn't thinking it. I saw myself shoot through the sky in a popstar pose like the Kirby warp star. If I ever have a psychotic break, I know this is the world I will be living in. I guess the closest I can describe it as is intense nostalgia and feeling like I've regressed to early childhood whilst simultaneously being a lower consciousness in myself (like I'm a spirit consciousness taking control). When I closed my eyes I saw myself driving through a motorway tunnel, when I came out of the tunnel there was a vibrant blue sky (gradient, cartoony) and cartoon sun. Standing tall was a giant robotic/puppet Weegee, the Wallace and Gromit theme was playing and it was moving its arms in time with the music. When the scene zoomed out there was a robotic/puppet Mario standing beside Weegee.
I felt very, very, ill. I never actually went into the hospital, I instead decided to come home. When I got home, my chest began to feel very tight and I had a few irregular heartbeats, painful ones even. When I was sipping tea, I thought I was holding an empty baggie between my fingers. It passed. I eventually went to bed and woke up today (just now) feeling very sick. This was a very scary experience I haven't reacted like this before. Do you think my weed was laced with something, and if so, what?
Anyway, I don't feel it at first, I go upstairs to my laptop to chill out with Hotel California, California Dreaming, Losing My Religion, all that stuff as I usually do (Hotel California is a VERY good song to listen to when totally relaxed). Then I start feeling very funny. Not like a cannabis high but like something weird. Then it gets worse. I begin to feel a little scared so I lay down to try and sleep it off. After a few seconds, I hear the Gorillaz Demon Days Intro echo out "You are now entering the harmonic realm-realm-realm-realm". It was strong. I don't ever hallucinate off of weed. At this point I'm wondering what the fuck is going on. And I smoke my joints pure so I'm thinking if it is laced I might have overdosed as in my country EVERYONE mixes with tobacco. As I open my eyes and sit upright, startled, I suddenly feel absolutely WRECKED!! TOTALLY DESTROYED!! It gets worse from here. I feel mildly anxious. I keep saying "I think I'm going to die now" even though I'm not thinking it, I was speaking subconsciously, hearing news reports in my head saying "man dies of cannabis". You know when you zone out and a friend speaks and you snap back to reality? That was happening with my own voice. I have smoked weed many times before but whatever I smoked caused tonnes of anxiety.
I throw on all the lights, because darkness and silence is making it worse. I walk out into the corridor and the walls and door frames appear to be one object forming a tunnel which is diagonally on its side. Not unlike a Salvia trip. I go back to my room. I get very, very, very dissociated and delirious. I start saying "I feel like Dr. Robotnik" (when I was really delirious, I posted that online), "I feel like Craig David", "I feel like Ronald McDonald". I kept feeling like I'm different people who I'm not. It kept getting worse and worse, and I then had a full blown 100% panic attack. I kept zoning out of reality into vivid scenes in my imagination, one being a hippy concert, terminator exoskeleton getting shot in the head with a lazer beam, the thing after The Simpsons where someone goes "Shh!" and it's in a cinema (you know what I mean?) that one happened a lot. At one point I thought I was Eminem and I was hearing rap music very strongly in my head. I decided to go to the hospital as this was not like weed and I was scared I'd OD'd on a research chemical or PCP, something like that. As I was being driven there, I kept registering things wrong, and thinking I saw things. This was the peak. I saw a traffic cone and thought it was a lollipop lady. I didn't see a lollipop lady I saw the cone, but I thought the cone was a lollipop lady. Various other things like dark figures walking on the sidewalk, penny farthings, squirrels and foxes running across the road. I was falling into imagination VERY readily and seeing scenes before my eyes as if I was in a different place.
I fell into a VERY WEIRD INSANE state of mind which I fall into on Salvia, but this was far worse than that. I was dissociated to the point where I no longer thought I was myself. I thought I was a consciousness separate from myself, where "me" was what my universe was based around and what created it. I still KNEW I was really me, but my brain wasn't thinking it. I saw myself shoot through the sky in a popstar pose like the Kirby warp star. If I ever have a psychotic break, I know this is the world I will be living in. I guess the closest I can describe it as is intense nostalgia and feeling like I've regressed to early childhood whilst simultaneously being a lower consciousness in myself (like I'm a spirit consciousness taking control). When I closed my eyes I saw myself driving through a motorway tunnel, when I came out of the tunnel there was a vibrant blue sky (gradient, cartoony) and cartoon sun. Standing tall was a giant robotic/puppet Weegee, the Wallace and Gromit theme was playing and it was moving its arms in time with the music. When the scene zoomed out there was a robotic/puppet Mario standing beside Weegee.
I felt very, very, ill. I never actually went into the hospital, I instead decided to come home. When I got home, my chest began to feel very tight and I had a few irregular heartbeats, painful ones even. When I was sipping tea, I thought I was holding an empty baggie between my fingers. It passed. I eventually went to bed and woke up today (just now) feeling very sick. This was a very scary experience I haven't reacted like this before. Do you think my weed was laced with something, and if so, what?
