Tempting

I see the sign every day, 'Cook Wanted'. I need a job that will accommodate my current and future focus and this would do that.

So, what's my focus? Currently, I go to NA meetings every night. This is a must so I need daytime hours.

I will be taking a Psychology course in January. This is flexible since this course is offered at a variety of different times. After Psychology, I will be taking a 6 month Phlebotomy course. Ideally, I would rather dedicate 6 months to a course to be an Emergency Medical Technician but the Community College I go to doesn't have that as an offering yet.

Anyway, back to the 'Cook Wanted' sign. This job would pay under the table and get some money in my pocket. I know 2 people that work there who are well liked so I'm confident they would hire me.

Oh, did I mention that this job would be in a bar? Its not just a bar but a place that has a lot of drugs going in and out of it. Oh, its also maybe 600 feet from my doorstep.

I'm tossing the idea around as to whether I should apply or not. I don't obsess about drugs nearly as much as I was but why put myself in such a situation.

Maybe if I just keep my focus, do the job and leave after my shift everything will be ok.

I dunno. We'll see...

 

Maybe you are drawn towards that "cook wanted" sign because of the bar, and potentially easy access to drugs.

 

Yeah, that is definitely a factor that I need to take into consideration. Not just for this particular opportunity but for all decisions I make.

I think I'll be skipping this particular option

 

Good call. Working in a kitchen is one of the best ways to find sources for at least the most popular local drugs.

 

absolutely good call
ur aim is abstinence
lets face it, if u want to keep on that path, ur not gonna stay on it if ur working in a place where there r drugs!

i always wanted to go back to being a track-worker (riding horses in training to become racehorses - early mornings on the track then all day until night-time....requirements: u must b a certain v skinny weight and b able to stay up all those hours) but of course at all the stables i worked at they wud actually encourage us to use my DOC (methamphetamine) cos it wud keep us going all day, give us the boldness to ride the young skitterish racehorses FAST, and keep us from getting tired
at one stable i was even being offered a point of good crystal per every horse i rode
corrupt but thats the racing world!

id still like to b a racehorse trainer but id hav to set up my own stables - im never going to risk ending up the way i was before....i use meth, but i keep it under control, and i cudnt do so if i was track-riding

im guessing ud b the same with cooking
its not worth it - and im glad u figured that out
often u know deep down u cant really do it, tempting as it is, u just hav to hear it from one or two others who want to see u make it thru this journey and u realise wat the voice deep down inside u has bn trying to say

i bet the ppl at NA wud hav said pretty much wat we said, too!
gd going and glad to see ur still staying on track - ur a strong guy